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Saying no to reunions

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I have only been to one reunion, and I found it boring. I only went because my cousin did. Meeting a bunch of relatives who don’t even stay in touch and are strangers to me. We didn’t have any contact with any of the relatives besides my dad’s half-sister, my aunt. I got the message through my cousin, who got it through another relative that she died about two weeks ago. When my dad was in the hospital last year, and we tried to contact his sister, we didn’t. After he died, I tried again, but I didn’t get through. She had 3 adult kids, but none of them informed us about her. She was over 90, so it was only a matter of time before she would pass away. She never knew her brother had died. I didn’t have much luck regarding relatives, but I don’t see that as a bad thing. The only relative I keep in touch with somehow is my cousin, who I didn’t know I had about 6 years ago.

I was once invited to a school reunion, but I didn’t go even though I said I would. I don’t know why I should have gone, anyway. They weren’t nice to me in school, and I didn’t see any point in meeting people I don’t know anymore. I didn’t need to prove them anything, and I didn’t care about their lives. The reunion was decades ago, and if any of them would have another reunion, I still wouldn’t go. I say no to reunions of any kind. It would be different if it was with people I cared about. I prefer meeting new people and then moving on. It would be different if I met a singular person, but not in a reunion. It hasn’t happened and probably never will, either.

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Advent Calendar 2024 – Day 12

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Day 12

Have you ever performed on stage or given a speech?

Daily Writing Prompt

The first time I was on stage or performed was when I was 6. I played Mary in a Christmas play in kindergarten. Josef was played by a boy named Tom. He also went to the same class as me. He used to live opposite my building. Unfortunately, he died in a moped accident when he was 16. Anyway, I don’t remember anything about the play, but I have photos of it. In school, we had plays, but I didn’t want to have any speaking parts. In secondary school, when I was in a smaller class, one of my classmates’ dad worked in a local theatre, and he helped us with the productions. We had spring plays, and once, we had a musical and one scene in English. It was fun because we were a small group of different ages. There was no nuisance behaviour from others if you weren’t good. After all, they were school plays and not Broadway.

I never had speeches unless you count presentations. Those are nerve-wracking. I only want to say my things and leave. I try to avoid speeches, and I decline if I ever have to give one. Even if I got paid, I still wouldn’t do it. One-on-one is OK, but not in front of a crowd. Someone says you get used to talking to an audience, but I don’t want to get used to it. I don’t want to have the feeling of my mouth being dry and my heart beating faster. Let those people who like to make speeches do it. I’m not meant to do them. My skills lay elsewhere. We can’t all become speakers.

Dreams and goals are two different things

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Last subject in the Filmmaking course

How do you plan your goals?

Daily Prompt

As it happens, we talked about dreams and goals on the last day of the filmmaking course. Listening to my classmates’ goals, I felt like a pirate on land. My goals aren’t anything cool. I wish I could be brave and do something about it, but I’m stuck in a moment. If I was younger, I could start all over again. I feel like a loser compared to my classmates. They weren’t interested in me anyway. Maybe I’m a boring person or something. They were friendly to me, but only a ship passed by. Or a pirate ship, arrr. I was sad when they didn’t even ask if I wanted to accompany them after the day. I wouldn’t have gone anyway, but it would have been nice to be asked. They probably wouldn’t even hear me or even care. I won’t see them again, so it’s bygone.

My goal wasn’t to get into the movie business. It was only something I was interested in. Education is never wrong. Getting into a film school is too complicated. I don’t want to study for several years. Maybe the diploma is not a big deal for others, but I’m glad I went. Dreams and goals are two different things. I don’t plan goals too far ahead because my mind is indecisive. Big goals have never come true, so I have small goals. It won’t dream big either for the same reasons. This filmmaking diploma is a completed goal. I finished all the assignments on time, and I took part in every school day. Here’s another feather in my pirate hat.

Diploma

My next goal begins in October when I start an education about digital marketing. I hope to find something else to do too, but that’s uncertain. I don’t feel optimistic about getting a job. Even internships are hard to find. No one is looking for one, it seems. My goals and dreams are dashed once again. But you manage somehow because you’ll be wasting your life if you give up. If people gave up their dreams and goals, many things wouldn’t happen. You need to keep the faith.