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Looking for a freedom

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Made in Canva

If you didn’t know the blog title is a song with David Hasselhoff. Actually, he was my hero when I was a kid. As Michael Knight mostly in Knight Rider. I loved the car K.I.T.T. He was once in Finland when he was in the TV show. There was also the replica of the car. Everyone is looking for a freedom. Free to be whoever they want to be. Unfortunately, not everyone has the same rights. That’s totally another story that I won’t get into. In a way, I’ve been lucky my parents didn’t tell me what to do or what to become. I could be whatever I felt like. I also live in a country where you’re allowed to be yourself. There are rules of course so it’s not complete freedom. Here we have choices but it’s up to you how you handle things. No country is perfect.

Unemployment is a big issue. They say it has got better but I think that’s just propaganda. Maybe in some occupations but everyone can’t become nurses or work in construction. No employer wants to hire someone with no work experience. If you’re not young, internships are under a rock. Some say that is not even work experience. But that’s all I have so my chances are thin. Life experience doesn’t seem to mean anything in working life. A lot of people are frustrated with not getting hired no matter what they do. They can have years of experience and yet they get nowhere. That’s far from freedom. If you have a job, be happy you have one. Everyone needs a purpose in life. It’s even harder for an unemployed to find work because there are those with jobs that also wants to find a new job. It seems unemployed is a second citizen. The longer you’re out of work, fewer chances you have. That isn’t right. Do we forget how to work? Maybe some don’t even bother learning something new but there are those who have educated themselves. Unemployed are not made of the same mould as politicians seem to think. Not everyone can be entrepreneurs either.

For me, freedom is one of the most important things. Especially after I studied web design and had a few clients. The thought of not having to go and work for someone else sounded so tempting. I’m still in the should I or should I not- stage. I can’t decide. My cousin started her nail art business this year and she already got clients. She’s a bit like my dad. She didn’t hesitate to start her own. That’s what I lack. I think and think but I don’t do anything. It’s been over a year since I did anything in web design so maybe I forgot all about it. Her line of work is different from mine and she already had a job. I’ve got too many hang-ups. I think too much about what I could lose than thinking what I could gain. When I look at what’s out there in the job world, the requirements they want is someone with 2-5 years or 5-10 years of experiences. And a web developer. I just don’t have it. The competition in the design world is though too so there’s so much you need to do. I’m just too introverted for that. The easiest way would be just to accept my faith that I’ll never find a job. Or have the courage to start a business of my own. Making decisions shouldn’t be this hard. I wish I had the courage to just start things because that’s freedom and that’s what I’m looking for.

New zest for life begins

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In front of Abba Museum in Stockholm, Sweden. Photo by dad

Holiday over or in my case a break. Had a relaxing 2 nights in Stockholm with dad. The weather was nice. Warm enough. We went to the island Djurgården where the amusement park Gröna Lund is. Beside it, there is the Abba museum. On the outside, they had put this photo of the band where you could put your own head through the holes so your face is there instead of theirs. We didn’t go inside the museum though. Our main goal was the open-air museum, Skansen. There you can see wild animals for example. There were bears playing with each other in the water. You could watch them through a glass. There is so much to see so it took several hours. It’s a great place for families. We got there in the morning by boat and when we left, there were hundreds of more people coming. It was Saturday so it’s a very popular day and the weather was sunny too. We walked for 8 hours in total in Stockholm. Of course, breaks sometimes. After a break at the hotel, we took a walk nearby to see the evening life. Even a short holiday makes you feel like a new person. It’s almost like a new zest for life begins.

Speaking of which. Next week it begins. Maybe not a new life but still something else for a change. The graphic design education in Helsinki. It’s always a bit nerve-wracking but yet excited to meet new people. The first meeting on Friday on August 24. I already bought the bus tickets and then I get the information the school begins at 10.30 am. So I have almost 2 hours to kill. Usually, the day would start at 9 am but the first meeting is later. But what’s done is done. When you start a new school, there are usually this introduce yourself time and that’s what I dread the most. Last time I went to Helsinki Design School, I was awful at it. I can never guarantee how things will go. Things never come out of my mouth as I have planned it. I might say things too quietly or I stutter but that’s because I’m nervous. The first impression is my weakness. Even at the restaurant in Stockholm, I ordered a salad on the side but they brought us French fries instead. I thought I said it in a clear voice but I guess the waiter didn’t understand. It really didn’t really matter because the fries were much better than the potatoes I had. But when it comes to introducing yourself, you get one shot and then you’re stamped for the rest of the time. It would be easier just to say your name and where you’re from and then move on. But they want your whole story, why you’re there and what you’ve done. Why make it more difficult anyway? If people want to know more, just ask. I guess Finns are to shy so you have to tell things about you straight away. They don’t want to know your whole story though. I survived last time so I will do it this time too. The education itself will be interesting. Learning new things is always a bonus.