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No one says happy birthday anymore
Happy birthday to me 🥳🎂
No one says happy birthday anymore, except if you mention it’s your birthday. On Facebook, you get notifications when it’s a birthday. Maybe the people who follow me don’t have it on. I used to get much more in the past. I wish people happy birthday, but I don’t get one back. Birthdays are not the same anymore anyway. It won’t ruin my day if no one says Happy Birthday. Either way, it’s nice when someone does say it. I only celebrate a birthday by going out to eat and maybe a cake. But that’s about it. I don’t want to fuss about any of that.
I don’t need birthday presents either because I already have everything I want. It was different when I was a kid. Birthday parties were necessary too. Why would you like to celebrate becoming older? Life is strange. When you’re young, you want to get older, but when you are, you wish you could be younger. Nothing is ever good enough in a person’s life.
If no one says happy birthday to you. You should say it to yourself because there is nothing wrong with saying that. So I say Happy Birthday to me.
Jobs to do for day
Words that came up when I thought about what I wanted to be were; pro photographer. Especially a Formula One photographer. I was a big fan of it for about 13 years. My interests have changed since then. I realised it would take years to become a pro. I didn’t want to wait that long. If there is a job I would like to be for one day, it would be a Formula One photographer. Doing sports photography isn’t easy, though. They are fast and trying to capture it; you must know how to photograph them, and I don’t.
Another job I would like to try for one day is to be on a movie set. I wouldn’t mind what job it would be. I would like to try several ones. It would be nice to follow personal assistant to actors. I wouldn’t want to do the job except if it is to keep the company of an actor or actress. But I don’t think there is a job like that. I study filmmaking, but it won’t get me a career in the movie industry. But it’s an exciting subject, which is why I am learning it.
It would be nice to try to be something I have studied for, but getting job experience in the graphic design field is under a rock. I would do it full-time and not only for a day. I guess I must live in a dream world because reality doesn’t want me to be in it.
The direction is not align
My life right now has no direction. Whatever I do or go, it’s a dead end. It’s controlled by the employers and the employment office. Try to align a life when you’re not given a desired direction. I should apply for one job each month, and I’ve done so. But they are open applications, so it’s only a thank you for it, and that’s it. You can’t get a job with that. Not in the line of field I’m in, at least. Maybe if you want to work in a store or a ‘normal’ job like that. It’s challenging to even find a job to apply for. They want people with work experience and with a super portfolio. It makes me feel like a loser, even if I don’t think I am. But that’s what a job search feels like. I don’t think I want to work in a company for several years anyway.
I try to live day by day and wait for the day I know things will happen. Next week it’s the filmmaking course and then later in the summer two pop concerts. There is no point in thinking about things that might not happen. Other people can’t take away the direction I want to go. I don’t want my life to be aligned because that’s boring. Ultimately, I choose in what direction to take my life, and no one can take that away.