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Job search is a chore

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There are very unpleasant chores like cleaning the bathroom and then there a chore a lot of people need to do to survive. That is a job search. Sorry for writing a post about it again but the word ‘chore’ is kind of a boring subject. It’s not even fun to write about. Writing about a job search is not that either so it’s actually a chore as well. An unpleasant thing, a routine. People with jobs don’t need to worry about job search the same way as a person without one. It seems people with a job can find a new job much easier. For a long-term unemployed (in Finland it’s over 500 days) it’s absolute hell. It’s so easy to say “get a job, any job” Does these people have any idea how job search works? You have to apply to them. You won’t get hired by just asking. Maybe they still live in the 1950s or something. Is not easy at all, I tell you that. Nothing is certain. Not even for those with a job. You can be laid off any day because of co-operation negotiations. If you get a job somewhere else, then you must be really lucky. Luck is what you need in a job search. Someone who tells you otherwise is lying. Being unemployed is more difficult than for others. They have families to support. Living on welfare is something no one voluntarily wants to be in forever.

While searching about job search on Google, I came across some forums where they spoke about their unemployment. Some of the comments were so stupid. One who had allergies and couldn’t be a nurse for example and this other person replies. “Why don’t they wear gloves? Or some other excuse. Those things won’t help. Having allergies myself, that’s the worse suggestion anyone could make. None of that will help. Even if you cover yourself up until you sweat like a pig, you still can’t do the job. Your allergies could only get worse. You can’t force someone to do a job they’re not suitable for. People who don’t understand about limitations shouldn’t give advice about job search at all. If you can do any job, then you really are lucky. You can apply to that nursery job or cleaning people’s houses. Some of us can’t do jobs like that. Besides, we can’t all be nurses, cleaners or even telemarketers. When you have limitations, you can’t change it.

This claim, if you really want work, you’ll find it, really is one a pet peeve of mine. It’s not about what you want, it’s about what the companies want. You can apply to hundreds of companies but you don’t even get an interview. If you really want to have the job you want, you must become self-employed. But not everyone is up to that either. It’s a shame job search seem to be for the extroverts. Marketing yourself and mastering the interview is like a nightmare for an introvert. Even if there are tips online for an introvert, they won’t work. At least not for me. I never know what comes out of my mouth or if anything at all. I haven’t got that many interviews to begin with so I can’t gain experience from job interviews. But I know how they will end. No job. Maybe I should retire and live on my savings because this job search is going nowhere. But I’m too young and my pension would be really small because I’ve never had a paid job. I’m also healthy so I can work. There are people who are too ill to work but they still are forced to look for one. Those are the ones who need to retire.

I’m too old to be changing occupations. My situation is different from the ones who write online about their job search. I found an occupation I like the best and I’m sticking to it. I have the skill, the age and the attitude. If that’s not good enough, I will find another way to find a job. If you give in, then you give in and that’s not an option.

A quest for answers

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My life has always been a quest for answers when it comes to what I want to do for a living. That’s probably one of the reasons why I haven’t find anything else that most people have. When others are getting married and having kids, I’m thinking about what I want to do with my life. Even people much younger than me have a goal. But I’m not jealous. I’m selfish in a way that I live for myself and I don’t have to financially support anyone else. I like the freedom I have and I hope it won’t change. Past experiences have taught me not to get attached to other people. It might sound sad to some people but I don’t see it that way. Besides, I hate trying to impress people. I’m too old for that. If people can’t accept for the person I am, then it’s really their problem. I change for no one.

Having different educations won’t get you a job. A great looking resume is worthless if there is no content. In this case, job experiences. You would think employers would appreciate that you at least did something but no only a real job with real pay is acceptable. I’ve had this thought in my head some days ago, ‘I’m not good enough for working life and too lazy for entrepreneurship’. The last one is probably true because I would have started it already. Some say you should apply for a job outside your own field but why study something for years and apply for something else anyway. I see no point in that. I will rather be without a job than be in a job I don’t like. I’ve been in those internship places and it wasn’t a nice feeling at all. I can’t even do all jobs and you probably have to have experience for them too. It’s so easy to tell another person to find a job or study to an occupation you’re not interested in. Life is too short to be doing things you hate doing. Job search is a business these days and you can’t just walk right in. Besides, some companies are cheapskates (or they don’t have enough money to hire) and they have no idea what the rejected feels like.

I studied a lot so it feels like I’m collecting diplomas. I studied because that was the only way I could feel I was doing something. I also like learning new things. I was confused about what interested me the most because I changed my mind a lot. Nothing felt like me. Once I wanted to be a screenplay writer and the next a journalist. None of them felt right. Even now when I’ve focused on design, it still feels like I’m not for that either. I should really feel more confident because if you don’t believe in yourself, who will? When I studied photography in this same school as I am now, Helsinki Design School, I wanted more than that. So I studied web design. Then I thought, I wanted something more so it became graphic design. I wanted to combine those three because they’re so close together. Even though I haven’t found a job, I don’t think I studied in vain. I studied because I wanted to. I experienced something I wouldn’t have otherwise. In photography, I’ve never been in a photo studio. Except when I was a child and we had a photo taken by a pro. But as a photographer, it was a new experience. You should always find something positive even if the education you have/had hasn’t been what you expected.

A last note about the post I wrote the day before yesterday. I sent the application to the internship position yesterday. This is what I wrote in the, why I’m good for the position.

I’m studying graphic design at the moment and an internship would be a great opportunity for me to learn new things. I have the skills that the position requires and I’m always keen to get better at it. I want to join an international team with the same passion for design as myself. I get along very well with people from different walks of life. I’m trustworthy and I finish tasks I’m given on time.

In the end, it doesn’t really matter if I get it or not. They probably gonna choose someone younger anyway. Since there is no pay, it isn’t really a big deal. But we’ll see. I don’t really even know if it was a job application or a registration. It might take a while before I get a reply from them or if there won’t be any in the first place. If it isn’t meant to be, then it isn’t.