Balm for the wounds

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Back online on the computer. You get a lot of things undone when you don’t have internet connection on your computer. When you get it back it’s a balm for the wounds. There are so many things you need to do online so you can’t really do much when it doesn’t work. Like paying bills or sending important documents and that kind of stuff. Internet is not only for fun, you know. When you can’t get online, spam gathers in your email inbox as well.

Another balm to your wounds is watching movies and especially when there’s a lot of extra footage. That’s what The Hobbit DVD’s has. I’ve already seen them but watching them again it feels like I haven’t really seen them. I know I have but it still feels like a new thing. Actually, there is only one I haven’t seen and that was about Thranduil. The reason is Lee Pace. That man is so gorgeous and especially that smile of his. Um, I was saying. Watching those behind the scenes footages I taught me a lot about movie making. I have some experience of that from school but that was nothing compared to the movie-making business. Movies, in general, is a great balm for the wounds. One of the reasons why I buy DVD’s and Blu-rays are for the extra footage in them. You don’t get that from Netflix or any other place like that. Unless someone had downloaded them on Youtube.

Probably the strongest balm to your wounds is music. It has helped me get through happy and tough times. When my mother died, listening to music was the cure. Especially Duran Duran. Without them, grieving would have been much harder. I can even concentrate better when there’s music is in the background. If there would be silent I would be listening to the smallest sounds and nothing would get done. Everyone should have a balm that makes them feel better. If reading a book is your thing, you should do that. Any balm to your soul and inner peace is good. As long as it’s healthy so smoking and drinking is not an option.

Having a blast by myself

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I like doing things by myself. I don’t need a lot of people around me. In fact, other people stress me out. I like having a blast by myself. It might sound boring for some but so is partying in my opinion. I hate all the noise and talking nonsense. That’s just not my thing and it has never been. When I’m around people, waiting to go home as soon as possible is my thing. Other people expect for you to be social and if you don’t speak, they say you’re anti-social. Like that’s a bad thing. I just don’t want to waste my time on something I don’t care about or want to do. It’s better to be alone than being with the wrong people. If you want to be with someone, you’ll never get the chance to be with that person because they live in another country or they already have someone to be with. Or they won’t like you the way you like them. You just have to accept it and try to think about something else than the company of another human being. There are other things to think about.

I go to the movies by myself because then you can concentrate on the movie. Even staying there until the end credits without having that other person to get irritated. I take bike rides alone. Sometimes it would be nice to have someone to talk to but not many want to take long bike trips. I used to do that with my mother when she was still alive. But now I only go by myself. I can cycle in my own pace and stop whenever I want. It’s really relaxing to be around silence. Yesterday I took one of this trips. It wasn’t long but still. It was to an outdoor museum where they have horses and sheep. There were some people there but it was still silent. A lot of beautiful colours on the trees and blue sky with sunshine. Here are some photos.

Nature has always been one of the greatest things in Finland. When tourist wonder why we want distance they should really experience this side of our country and then they might understand why.

Taking it easy is my kind of a blast. I think better when I’m alone. I tried to write out on the balcony one of my fictions but there was too much noise from the traffic so I always write inside. If someone kept talking I couldn’t concentrate. It different when I’m listening to music. Actually, I’m even more motivated when the music blasts in the background. Or since I listen to Spotify on my laptop, at the front. Not only when I write fiction but also when I write this blog. I get more distracted if the neighbours are coming or going from their flat. Or noise from the outside. All the small sounds irritate me but not the loud ones. Except if it’s the neighbour’s loud stereos where it doesn’t sound like music at all. Or the people shouting when they talk to each other. I can listen to music quite loud but still, I can concentrate. Sometimes I’m so in my thoughts I don’t even hear it’s being loud.

For some doing things alone can be difficult but for me, it’s in my nature. I never feel totally lonely even if sometimes it can feel like that. Some have a blast with other people but I’m having a blast by myself. You don’t necessarily need big things to have a blast. If pets get excited from a toy and kids get excited about something new they’ve learned. Adults should be able to have a blast from the small things in life too.