Should I OR..?

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Like they say in The Clash song ‘Should I stay or should I go?’ That’s a question I ask myself a lot. I think long and hard before I decide anything. My thoughts are usually negative. I think about all the wrong things that could happen. I rather be careful than taking risks. Sometimes you should take a chance and that’s what I did. I took a chance. It’s still time until it happens so you never know if I get cold feet. I’m talking about Robbie Williams concert in Finland, August 10, 2017 that I’m gonna attend. I’m actually never been to a real concert. I have been on small ones with different artists performing but not to a concert with one only. I wished Duran Duran would have been my first but since that never came, Robbie is the second best.

Going to concerts are not cheap. I thought if I should go to this one or not but when the tickets got on sale today (Friday), I didn’t think twice. That’s an achievement for me. Not a thought of not going didn’t come to mind. I still don’t think so. I’m actually looking forward to it. I lost money but it’s all worth it. I saw Robbie’s concert in the movie theater once and I loved that one. Now I’m actually going to see him live for real. It feels like forever before it happens. I’m proud of myself for taking that chance. It’s liberating to have that kind of courage when you’re an introvert. Maybe I’ve grown as a person but it’s also because I’m older. I’ve got more confidence than before and I’m not as intimated by things I’m unfamiliar with. I still feel uncomfortable around big crowds but if I want to experience concerts and such, I need to get out of my comfort zone. If I think too much about what could happen, then it’s more difficult to do things. Attending this concert is a way to prove myself I can do it without feeling like a coward.

“Sorry I can’t come. I’m gonna go to a concert” is something I wish I could say at least for once and now I can. Or it depends what I do at the time. To August next year is a long way and anything can happen before that. I think I have to pinch myself. I can’t believe I’m actually gonna see Robbie Williams live. The tickets were quite expensive. I wasn’t really sure if I could afford it but I thought, that money will come back later. Also known as having a job. I loved his music for at least 20 years and it’s finally paying off. He’s been in Finland twice before but then I didn’t have a chance to go. I was so pleased his tour would reach our country again. His concerts are always so entertaining and funny. I’m sure I’m gonna loved it and remember the rest of my life.

 

Tallenna

Tallenna

Having seconds thoughts

tree branchesHaving second thoughts

Thoughts of an introvert changes

Second thoughts are the middle name

One day you feel like this and the other like that

Want to do so many things but yet are afraid to

Indecisiveness is a curse because you get second thoughts

You think too much what could go wrong instead of what goes right

Choose they say but why when you get second thoughts

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I made a choice but changed again

Second thoughts, that’s me

I can’t decide because I change views

Don’t blame me, blame no one

I do what I feel and not what others want

I’ve seen a lot because I get second thoughts

Today I feel like this and tomorrow something else

I need change or I get bored

Second thoughts is what I do and maybe you should try it too

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Remember, remember the 5th of November

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It’s a quote from the movie ‘V for Vendetta’ but it’s also the date of today. It’s not only that but it’s also All Saint’s Day and in other places Guy Fawkes Night. Those are totally different though. Here we remember people who have passed away. People go the cemetery to put candles on the graves. We usually do it at Christmas so we don’t do it now. There’s only been death in our family it seems. We don’t have much contact with other relatives anymore. They can be a pain sometimes so I don’t really care either. Why keep in touch with people who doesn’t bother keep in touch with us? We’re better off and it’s not a hyperbole.

Christmases are not the same anymore because there’s only me and my dad left. We always spent the holidays with our closest family members. I had a great childhood. I never knew my grandfathers since they passed away when my parents were young. I had a close bond with both of my grandmothers. They were always there when you needed them. I can’t understand why some people doesn’t have any contact with their grandparents. You can teach your kids to respect elders and you also get great memories. I’ll cherish every moment I had with them. Nothing lasts forever but memories will never die.

On this All Saint’s Day, I light a candle for my sister, my mother and grandmothers. Family has always been very important to me. They’re the ones who you feel most secure with. You can have a family of your own but they’re not the people your birth family was. There will never be another person like them. If I was born again, I wouldn’t change a thing when it comes to family. I wished they could have stayed a little longer on this earth but those are things you can’t control.

Remembering family members on the 5th of November.

RIP
Nina (sister) 1983
Suoma (Father’s mother) 1989
Anne (Mother’s mother) 2003
Ann-Marie (my mother) 2013

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