It’s only a fantasy
It’s only a fantasy
To think things are easy
But people make things hard
It’s only a fantasy to think things will get better
You should not plan a thing
It’s only a fantasy to dream
Your day is spoilt when things don’t go your way
It’s only a fantasy, but you keep going anyway
Not every day is bad
It’s not a fantasy when your dreams do come reality
Reposting about photogenic.
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When I read the daily post subject of today I thought it was about what you dislike about yourself. But when I saw it’s about what’s worse, hearing your own voice or seeing yourself on video, it’s almost right.
I would say my voice. It’s OK when I talk and record my voice but when I hear it in something else, then it’s horrible. I heard my voice on the radio once when I won a competition and I sounded like my mother. That’s the least thing you want to sound like. When I answered a phone, the person on the other end thought I was her. It was not the sound of her voice, the problem was I sounded like her. Like twins. I wanted a voice of my own. Sometimes I hate my voice. I can barely listen to myself when I’m at my worse.
It’s not that unbearable when it comes to seeing myself on video. I was on TV once and I wasn’t as horrified as when I see myself on photos. That’s even worse. That’s a reason I don’t post selfies and photos where you can see me. I prefer being behind the camera. I’m just not that photogenic. When I see myself in photos as an adult, the voice in my head says, ugly. It was different when I was a kid. I was cute then. I don’t know what happened. Adding a photo of myself to a CV terrifies me. I avoid every single photo of me as much as I can. I rather let people see me in real life than in photos or videos.
What is the biggest challenge you will face in the next six months?
Daily Writing Prompt
I’ve thought the biggest challenge I have in my life is finding a job. But then life turns it around, and then you realise it isn’t. I don’t know if the challenge will take 6 months, though. I hope it will be quicker. Since my dad died, I had to think things through. I thought my dad would still be around, but that wasn’t his faith. I’ve decided to live in my dad’s place, or it was my childhood home. I already own part of it. The challenge is how and when I will get my flat sold. The selling is not the problem; it’s the cleaning of the place. My place is more manageable to empty because I don’t have many things. Or so I thought. I might not have much furniture, but it’s all the other stuff. Maybe I should get two more pairs of hands to help me, but it’s embarrassing (the state the flat is in), and I don’t want people to touch my stuff. So now I have two flats, but I can’t afford both. The sooner I get my flat in order, the better. That’s the biggest challenge I must face. The other is the job thing because I need to get money somewhere. But I hope none will take six months because that’s too long.
You must take one step at a time, and things will eventually be solved. If you put up your hands and surrender, things won’t change. If you rush things, it will only become a mess, and then you get stressed. Life is full of different challenges, and you learn from them. It also makes a person stronger, and you learn how to handle the pressure of life.
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