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Follow your dreams so I went back to bed

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Ever feel like you’re the only perspicacious one in this world and others are idiots? You don’t think you’re better than others though. Everyone makes stupid decisions sometimes. I have days I feel like an idiot. But I don’t make a habit of it like some people do. Some days you don’t want to get out of bed because you meet idiots all day anyway. Dreams you dream at night are much better than following your dreams in real life. In life, some don’t want you to become anything. No one should give in for idiots but yet you’re too afraid to take risks. I really admire people who do anything for their dreams no matter what others say. I wish I was like that but in this case, I’m an idiot.

I’m a dreamer and honestly, it’s upsetting me. My mother used to say I’m not firm enough. Especially when searching for a job. I don’t believe in my own abilities. Even now when I study graphic design, it feels like I haven’t improved much. I’m always in doubt if it’s my thing after all. Others seem to be much better at what they do and I’m just an amateur that no one wants to hire. Not even for free. At least I know what I’m not good at. You should concentrate on things you’re good at. Drawing is one I always sucked at. One of our school assignments for this month is drawing an Easter bunny. But it’s really hard.

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My sketches of bunnies that I did on the plane to Playa del Ingles.

None of these is good for an Easter bunny. I’ve done more but they all awful. It should be on a package of a bag of Easter candy/sweets. I looked for how to draw bunnies step by step on Pinterest but the ones I draw look nothing alike. I can’t draw a good bunny out of my head. They all look like crap in the picture. I won’t be saving my life with illustrations.

It’s mostly about your attitude of how you see things. I try to think positive even if it’s sometimes hard. Some things can bring you down so you think nothing will ever change. There is a lot of motivational quotes on Pinterest and online so reading those makes you feel better. The world is full of idiots but do not let them spoil your spirit. Don’t lose your perspicacious because the world is going mad.

Everything but bold

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It feels like I’m already blogged about the same subjects on this blog several times. I’ve noticed posts about job search hasn’t interest people that much. Well, recently at least. It’s OK. It’s mostly blabber anyway. Most of the time I don’t even remember what I posted in the past. But who does? Unless they have a very good memory. Human brains can’t handle that much information. It doesn’t matter really if I wrote things before because new followers have found this blog just recently. No one has that much time to go back in the past anyway. I do have 951 posts after all. Sorry for boring you with details like that.

What I was about to say is, I’m a lot of things but bold I’m not. Unless it’s in writing. In real I’m really not. I never say my opinion to people I don’t know. I just can’t do it because I don’t want to hurt their feelings. When I was a child people thought I’m also quiet at home. But I was definitely not. Just ask my father. At home, I’m a totally different person. There I can say what I think. When you’re in public you need to show some manners. You can always show them rude gestures when they’re not looking. But I wouldn’t say bad things in people’s faces. But if they are rude to me, I won’t hesitate to defend myself. Treat other people the way they treat you. Or walk away if they look threatening.

If I had been bolder in the past I could have been something more but I was too much of a coward. It wasn’t lack of encouragement. My parent was really supportive. Maybe boldness skipped a generation. My mother went to Sweden when she was young. Relatives live there. My dad started his business during Finland’s depression and still works even if he’s retired. Of course, their life was different from mine and they’re a different generation. I’m always been stubborn and did things my way. I even learned to walk when I felt like it and not because my parents expected me to. I could have been more flexible when it came to decisions. Like with summer jobs as a teen. I took part in a summer job lottery once but I didn’t get a job so I didn’t try again. I just wanted to relax in the summer after all the school work I did. The idiom, look before you leap, is almost my motto. Except all I do is look and see all the things that could go wrong. I’m not totally afraid of doing things. I did travel alone the first time when I was 17. Studying in a different city or town is one kind of boldness. Luckily I lived in a dorm so I didn’t need to find an apartment. I did get home at the weekends but still, I did live in another city. I have never travelled abroad alone though. Except if you count school trips but those were hell anyway so they don’t matter.

Starting a blog is bold. There are people who are afraid to start one but for me, it’s been a natural thing. It’s easier to write than talk. You don’t need to follow the crowd. Blogging can also be just a hobby. It shouldn’t only about profit or being like any other blogger out there. Boldness can also come from not being afraid to share a piece of your inner world to others. You don’t need to write about your personal life if you don’t want to. Blogging should be fun and not something you have to do. Maybe I’m a little bit bold after all.