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Migration to another life

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Today it’s Dream Day. A day where you could start following your dreams. I dream every day but I never get anything done. I wish I could migrate to another life. A life where everything you dream of will come true. In that fantasy world where you have all the courage, you can have. Now there are too many limitations. Migration to another life would be much better than this one. In the other world, everyone would get along. There wouldn’t be wars and all that. Everyone would be happy. Now it’s only some people who are totally happy. The only time you really can migrate to another life is through reading, watching movies, write fiction or whatever you do to be away from this life for a while. There is no alternative universe where you can physically remove yourself to. It’s only in your own mind.

I have dreams but they don’t feel like dreams. They are more like hopes. I don’t really know how it feels to have a dream come true. One dream that did come true was going to a real live concert. It was Robbie Williams. I loved it but I didn’t have a feeling, wow, my dream came true, kind of excitement. It was more like, OK, now I’ve done that and that was it. Maybe that’s it. Having a dream come true isn’t like being on cloud nine. It was more like emptiness afterwards and then you just move on. I tried to dream small to see how it feels when a dream comes true. The dream was to get into Helsinki Design School to study graphic design and now when I’ve been there, it was no big deal. I was happy of course but it was just for that moment. Now when it’s reality it’s nothing spectacular. I have no special feelings about it. I’m glad I got in and now it’s just a part of life. Until June 2019 at least. What happens after that is impossible to predict.

The reason people stop dreaming big is the fear of failure. But that’s not the reason why I stopped dreaming big. I’m not afraid of failure because I’ve done it so many times before. My reason is there have been too many obstacles in the way and at the same time, I’m too lazy to start things. It’s like there lives another person inside my head saying all the negative things. Maybe it’s the introvert in me. I think about things that could go wrong instead of what could go right. I’m not ambitious enough. I have difficulties to start anything. I think what to do but then I get distracted. It’s a habit I should get rid of it. In that other life, I wouldn’t have hang-ups like I have in the real world. It would be nice to migrate to that life once in a while. If only that dream could become reality but that’s yet again really far-fetched.

Not posh, only tired

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Not posh, only tired

I’m not posh, I’m only tired
You would to if you woke at 5
Travel 2 hours and back
Study new things is hard
I’m not posh, I’m only tired
If I don’t talk to you, I’m not posh
I’m just tired, see you tomorrow

Morning without coffee is a waste

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I don’t like tea. I like coffee. A morning without it is a waste. If I don’t drink something with caffeine I feel tired all day. Now when I have to wake up early twice a month to go to school, I don’t drink coffee at home. Those days I only drink coffee from a machine. It’s not the best though. That’s better than nothing. Drinking coffee without milk and sugar taste like poison in my mouth. I once had to drink it straight up because I didn’t have milk and it’s the worst taste ever. If there isn’t coffee I drink Finnish energy drink called Battery. I hate Red Bull and any other I tasted. Nothing beats coffee though.

I only drink two cups per day. Sometimes three if someone offers. Other times not. Since I stopped drinking soda, water, milk, chocolate milk and juices are the only drinks I drink. The best coffee it’s the one you make yourself. I’m quite good at it I might add. You get it the way you what it. I also have instant coffee but that’s not as good as the one you make in a coffee maker. I only drink instant if I live in a dorm like I did when I studied web design or it’s too late to make coffee. Those are days when I sleep too long. That’s not that often though. Most of the time I drink coffee after I wake up.

I don’t go to coffee houses. I’m not one of those people who sit in a café and sit there for hours. I like my coffee at home. Sometimes I can go to one but that’s really rare. Last time I went was with my dad was when we went to a shopping centre. I don’t really remember when exactly. Coffee is nothing if you don’t eat anything with it. It’s usually something sweet. The sweet tooth that I am. Except if it’s morning it’s a sandwich. I don’t drink coffee just the hell of it. I do it for a reason. If I don’t drink coffee I get a headache. Tea is the last drink I would drink so don’t offer me one. If it’s coffee then I’m all, got milk? I wouldn’t say no to a cup of great coffee.