So here we are again. At my birthday. It’s also a birthday of Prison Break star, Wentworth Miller and actor Zachary Quinto, my birthday twin. I don’t mind having a birthday, it’s the getting older bit that is not so much fun. It means more problems. But I’m not that old though. Age is a number that doesn’t tell you the whole truth. Someone at their 20’s can be as wise as a 40-year-old. Or it can also be the other way around. Young and stupid. It really depends what you’ve been through in your life. If I hadn’t experienced the things I have, I don’t think I would be the way I am today. There are things I haven’t experienced. Like rowing a boat but I fear deep water so I wouldn’t even try it. I haven’t met the people I wanted to meet. To make things short, there is a lot I haven’t done.

Life doesn’t always go as you plan so I stopped planning because it fails anyway. If I have ideas they turn out to be bad. I take the days as they come. I don’t know what I do in 5 years since I don’t even know what I do next week. I have wishes and hopes but I don’t have enough of courage to do them. At least nothing big. Sometimes I hate being so indecisive but I don’t want to think about one thing at a time. I get bored easily so I need stimulation. I wish I was brave enough to get out of the box so to speak. Like trying entrepreneurship. If I don’t do something risky at least once in my life, I will regret it. I don’t want to rush things because then things won’t get rightly done.

So it’s my birthday today. I have never been into parties. Birthdays for me are just that. One year older. This year I baked a cake and going on a cruise with my dad. Daughter and father quality time thing, you know. That’s all the celebration I will have and then go back to normal again. And of course, eat cake. There is no birthday without it.