Advent Calendar 2024 – Day 15

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Day 15

Today, it’s 11 years since my mother died. It was 2013. I started this blog in January of the following year because I wanted to write down my thoughts. Some people meditate; I write. Writing has always been my way of expression. Before, it was a diary; now, it’s a blog. I couldn’t meditate, trying to empty my head from thoughts. I’m an introvert, and my mind won’t stop thinking even during the night. Sometimes, it feels like no one cares what I write, but I still do it. It’s a bonus if someone likes what I write. Blogging should be fun, and what else to do than write about the things you like to do or things you want to share. Since my parents have passed away, who else should I tell my thoughts to, if not through blogging?

Next year, I have to remember my dad’s death day, too. Time goes fast when you think about it. Life must continue, but never stop remembering the good things that were. My parents taught me many things that are still useful to me, and I’m grateful for that.

Bloganuary: Conquered my biggest fear

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My biggest fear was dogs. I was chased by one when I was 6 years old. I was walking in the park with my mother when I started to run down the hill. Then a woman had her dog running free, and the dog began to chase me. I have never run so fast in my life. After that, whenever I saw a free dog, my legs started shaking, and my heart started beating fast. I avoided every opportunity where there was a dog. Even if they were on a leach, I was terrified. I couldn’t go to friends who had dogs. I was also scared of other animals. But for some reason, bunnies didn’t have the same effect. One friend had a cat, so they had to put it in another room when I visited. I told people I didn’t like pets, but I was scared of them. I didn’t dare to tell anyone because I thought they would let their pets attack me out of spite. Every time a dog approached me, my legs shook. Fear limits your life, and I thought I never get over it.

But I don’t know what happened years later. I didn’t do anything. My fear of dogs disappeared when I became an adult. I was over 30 or something. Suddenly, my legs weren’t shaking, and my heart was calm. If a dog smelled me, I wasn’t scared. I still don’t touch them, but I have conquered my biggest fear. It’s liberating and feels like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I don’t need to avoid dogs. I can visit a person with one without any fear. I fear other things (like needles) but it isn’t as bad as the one I had towards dogs. They are pretty lame compared to that one. Some fears disappear in time without reason, and some you need to face. Conquering fear is an achievement in itself, and it’s something to be proud of.

Bloganuary: What is a life lesson you feel everyone can benefit from learning?

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Day 15. Life lesson? Don’t ask me. I’m not the one who can give advice. But I can give you my opinion. Don’t compare yourself to others. Dare to be different. Your life doesn’t need to follow the same pattern as other people. So what if you’re friends already have a steady job and a family before they’re 30. It doesn’t mean anything. Be happy for other people but also focus on your own life. Enjoy your freedom. You can do what you feel, and no one can tell you how to be. If you don’t know what you want when you’re a teenager, then try different things. You will find your path sooner or later. People can judge you if you’re not the way they want you to be. It’s your life, and you can do what you want with it. You’re not on this planet to please other people. I believe things happen for a reason, and if nothing happens, then it isn’t meant to be. Accept the way things are. Some things you can’t do anything about. Do things that make you feel good. If other people don’t appreciate you the way you are, they’re not worth having around. Don’t let other people control you, and change for no one. Who knows you better than you. Respect other people’s opinions, and don’t start an argument because you don’t agree. Save money for a rainy day if you can. Don’t spend money on things you don’t need. Never judge a person by their appearance because it’s the inside that counts.

Maybe they are life lessons to live by. At least I do, but it doesn’t mean others need to follow them. Sometimes I forget my own life lessons, so I have to remind myself. They are more guidelines than lessons anyway.