No apparition in the present

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I have no clue what to tell you. I’m sorry to bother you with this text. There is no apparition in the present situation. I’m not sure what to say about this word. It’s a word I didn’t know about. I can’t even pronounce it. I hope I don’t need to speak it. The word is one of those English words you don’t remember when it’s not your first language. You use some other, an easier word, to say. Searching on Google about what the word means helps like it does when looking for words and their meanings. It’s pretty challenging to put this word into a sentence. I’m more into being invisible than being an apparition. Maybe I’m embarrassing myself with using it wrong. Or perhaps it’s right. That’s all I got.

I shall now disappear, like a phantom into the night.

Difficulties of the English language

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A person who doesn’t have English as their first language there are words you always write wrong. Or when you speak certain words you can’t get them rightly pronounced. For me, the most difficult word to say is failure and photographer. It’s such a tease for me so I rather not say them out loud because they sound stupid when they come out of my mouth. It’s easier to write them. I know I shouldn’t mind how it sounds like. The main thing is to be understood. I’m not ashamed of having an accent. I don’t even know if I do because I haven’t listened to myself on tape. Finns usually are embarrassed about having an accent. I don’t why because other non-English speakers do have an accent too. I don’t think people even notice if I have an accent or not. People don’t pay attention to accents because you can’t sound totally native if you really aren’t. Other problem in what English to speak, American English or British. When I was younger I thought American sounded much cooler but now I find them both fascinating. I write this blog in British English so if you find a word that looks like it’s misspelt, it’s not. It’s only written differently.

I write fiction in English and sometimes I find it difficult to describe something. It’s not just English but in my own language as well. Not only fiction but also when I write about anything. You can’t really say when you try to describe someone or something as a thingamajig. Describing is the most difficult thing in the English language. It’s stressful so when I don’t know a certain word I use another one instead. Or don’t write it at all. Being bilingual has its disadvantages. You don’t always remember what word is what in the language you’re using. I usually search Google for the word or Google translater when I write. I also have a dictionary but it’s faster to use the Internet. I’ve used English so much so I sometimes don’t remember what something is in my language. I both speak Finnish and Swedish so even in those languages I can find difficulties. I always spoke in Finnish Swedish with my mother and I went to a Swedish speaking kindergarten and school so I’ve grown up with the language. My dad doesn’t speak any other language than Finnish.

There are words in English that I always misspell no matter how many times I’ve written them. Words like unfortunately, fortunately, relieved. It usually becomes unfortunally, releaved. Some words sound similar. Like relieved and revealed. They are easily misspelt. I love the English language because words look the same but can still mean different things. It’s a bit like Finnish. Probably not as they are written though. It also has words that mean different things. I’m always been bad at grammar so I can’t teach languages so don’t suggest I could teach Finnish to you. Then there are words in English that are said the same way but mean different things. Like idle and idol. Example: “He’s been an idol for 20 years but he’s been idle for 20 years” I saw that sentence somewhere once but I don’t remember where I saw it. The English language also has very funny puns and wordplays. Somehow it’s easier to use the language in metaphors than it is in Finnish, for example. Certain things even sound better in English. Sometimes learning a language has difficulties but that’s how you learn. I know more words in English than I did about 20 years ago. I wish I could learn another language like that but I just so much else to do and it doesn’t stick in my brain like English does. I thought I was good at learning languages but I guess I wasn’t after all. I’m really amazed if someone can speak more than 5 different languages. I can hardly manage 3 but that’s more than most can.

Ding dong dinkum

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That’s what dinkum reminds me of. It has a funny ring to it. At least to someone who’s the first language isn’t English. So this post doesn’t really focus on anything special. It’s just that word, dinkum. The reason why I love the English language is the word playing you can do with it. It’s so versatile and different words can have different meanings. I’m not that good in wordplay so I won’t write anything “funny” But then it would be a joke and that’s not my thing.

Dinkum is not a word you would use in daily life. Unless you’re an Aussie or a New Zealander. According to Grammarly, it’s slang for truth or hard work. I would rather use those words to dinkum. If you ask a Finn what that means, they would only say, ‘What a hell is that?’ That’s a word you don’t learn in school. It would be quite amusing if you used dinkum when you describe someone. “You’re such a dinkum” and they would think it’s something offensive. Finns that is or anyone who doesn’t know what it means. In fact, it’s a compliment. I would prefer the word real, genuine or authentic so more people would understand. Then again writing dinkum is faster to type and easier. It’s the understanding of the word that makes it more difficult.

Dinkum would be an interesting name for a chocolate bar. ‘A moment later’ Just looked up while writing this post and found out there is actually is milk chocolate called Fair Dinkum. Funny that you can actually found this kind of information on the internet. I didn’t really think there was such a thing for real. I just thought about how dinkum could be chocolate and there it was. You can even buy it here. Just saying. So there is was ding dong dinkum and then it’s gone.