Hurrah for the Bloganuary Challenge 2024

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What are your biggest challenges?

Bloganuary 2024

Welcome 2024. Hurrah for that and for the Bloganuary. The question for day 1 is, what’s the biggest challenge. Well, I have had those over the years, but that is the past. The biggest challenge has been getting a job, which is also one of them this year. I’m tired of getting ideas for jobs I don’t want. Why can’t I get a job that I have studied for?! It’s a bit frustrating. I wish I was brave enough to become an entrepreneur, but it’s complicated. I studied entrepreneurship some years ago because I had never gotten started. Maybe I don’t believe in my skills enough. You can’t start a business cold turkey. I don’t know if I could handle a part-time and keep a business. The last time I had a part-time job, I was too tired when the day ended. I couldn’t think clearly, and I only wanted to do relaxing things. It would be better if I would be a total entrepreneur instead. I could choose my own business hours.

That aside, the biggest challenge right now is getting out of bed. I like to sleep a little too much. I think I will start with some at the beginning of every year, but I never do. I should do better because I know I can and want to. We’ll see how things will go in 2024. Many things will happen this year in the world, so you never know what could happen. Let’s hope things won’t get worse. Hurrah for the new year, though.

A port to bravery

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What’s something you would attempt if you were guaranteed not to fail.


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Job search can be an absolute nightmare! Finding the perfect job that aligns with your skills, interests, and aspirations can feel like an uphill battle. It’s a constant rollercoaster of emotions, from excitement and hope to frustration and disappointment.

That’s what the AI assistant suggested about job search. I should apply for one job each month, and it’s like looking for a needle in a haystack. I get suggestions about jobs to apply for, but they’re more about getting job experience. I already know how to be in a workplace. I need experience in my field, which is design. I don’t even get an internship, so how can I get more experience. I’m tired of searching for something that doesn’t exist. If I attempted something I was guaranteed not to fail, it would be entrepreneurship. But my port lacks enough bravery. I’ve read about people failing their business or that it takes years to make it successful. I don’t have time to wait years and years. I don’t know if I have enough skills to do things on my own. If I get a part-time job, I won’t have enough strength to think about having a business on the side. I thought finding a job would be easier to get, so I put entrepreneurship on hold.

But since I still haven’t found anything, I thought about it again. I just don’t know what kind of design work I would have. A lot of graphic designers do the same things. Trying to compete with them isn’t an easy task. They have more experience than I have. To become an entrepreneur takes a lot of work, and I don’t know if I’m up for it. It isn’t an impossible dream, though. It can be doable, but I need the courage and strong will to start. You don’t know how it will turn out if you don’t try, right?

Bloganuary: Lie or only denial

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I don’t know if it’s a lie or only a denial, but I’m not as good as I think I am. I question my skills all the time. Maybe that’s one of the reasons why I keep putting off things. For example, since 2018, I’ve thought about becoming an entrepreneur. I went to a course about it too. I wanted to become many things, but I constantly changed my mind. I kept telling myself I was good at something, but then I didn’t get the response I wished for from others. I thought I was only an average photographer, writer or anything creative. I thought I couldn’t make it professionally. Maybe I’m lying to myself that I could. I’m worried people will see through me, but they don’t want to hurt my feelings by telling me the truth. The truth about that I should choose a profession other than something creative. My photos and designs are plain, and no one would want to pay me because they might make them for free elsewhere. That kind of doubt is often in my head.

Sometimes I wonder if people understand what I’m writing about. Am I the writer that I think I am? It’s not like I’m writing a novel here. I’ve got good feedback about my fiction, and people like my blog posts. But my writing is a hobby. I don’t get paid for it. Writing is the only thing I feel comfortable about. I know I’m good at it. I won’t lie or deny it. It’s other things that I think I’m lying to myself about. There will always be someone who is a better photographer than me. The same goes for graphic design and other creative things. I don’t like the “not being good enough to get paid for”- feeling. I have never wanted an ordinary job where you go at 8 or 9 am and then home at 4 or 5 pm. I can’t sit still and do something boring all day. I need change, and that’s what creative work is. But I can’t get hired because I have no job experience in the field. It’s challenging to get any of that.

As an introvert, it’s hard for me to know what my strengths are. I lie, or I’m in denial that I’m versatile, but am I truly so? Is that even a strength? A killer can be versatile by killing different kinds of people. I like doing different things, and I guess I’m doing OK with them. I wish I was more confident about my skills and not always doubting them. Being honest with yourself is easier than lying. But also, you shouldn’t forget that life does not always go as planned. If you lie to yourself about that, then you’re in denial.