Being unemployed is not really a vacation. You constantly worry why no one hires you or how to update your resume. Then it’s the money thing. You have to live on someone else’s money. A.k.a the government’s money. But then when you think you won’t get anything, things change completely. That’s what happened to me today (Feb. 14). I went to a job interview and guess what, I got the job. It’s part-time and it’s pay subsidy. It’s still government money but I get more money than I do now. I will work as a media assistant and it contains what I’ve studied (e.g. photography and web design) The job begins on March 2. I mean my vacation is over. No more late evenings and sleeping until noon or longer. At least for 8 months. I don’t need to search for jobs and I get more work experience in my own field. Which is the most important thing. So in your face, employers.
The work is in an activity centre for the unemployed. I’ve been there before as an intern but the experience wasn’t fun. It was years ago and things have changed since then. I have to get up early because it’s a long way by bus. I could cycle there but the traffic can be a pain so I rather take the bus. It’s more convenient. Since the job is part-time I can do something else too. But I will probably be too tired after waking up early every day of the week so we’ll see. Now I don’t need to apply to jobs outside my field. I won’t get any of those and I don’t really want to. I’m both excited and nervous about this new adventure but at least I do something instead of waiting for something to happen.
This is not a vast post because, to tell the truth, I didn’t know what else to write about this word. Besides, I got some entertainment news to tell. Hold your breath.
On September 22, 2020, I’m gonna go and see Elton John in Helsinki. It’s his final tour ever so I decided to go. I loved his music since the 1980s. I don’t really remember what song I heard first. I do remember one of his videos but I’ve never remembered the song title. The video had this couple going through different rooms and Elton John was there too playing the piano in one of the rooms. The song was, ‘I don’t wanna go on with you like that‘ Now when I watch the video, I think. “So that’s how it went” The song came out in 1988. We got cable in 1987 so there was Super Channel, MTV (when they played music videos) and Sky Channel. I think I saw the video on of those channels. Great memories.
This concert will be my 2nd real one. The first was Robbie Williams in 2017. The ticket wasn’t cheap but this is one of a lifetime. It’s 10 months to the concert so anything can happen. Nothing bad though because then that’s 130 euros I’ll never see again. There are so many other concerts to see but you have to chose when money doesn’t grow on trees. This is one way to get out of my comfort zone. Being in an arena with a lot of people around. It’s gonna be a blast.
To skedaddle or not, that is the question. It’s so easy to escape from things and places so you don’t have to face them. You stop thinking about it or you think you do it some other time. When I was younger I wanted to skedaddle from things that didn’t interest me. Or maybe it did interest me but I was too shy to approach the matter. I had mild anxiety and the only thought I had was to escape from the situation. One of those was about taking a blood test. Once I didn’t go even if the doctor gave me a referral to one. I still don’t like needles which is the reason why I wouldn’t donate blood. Hospitals are also places I want to skedaddle from. I can visit them but being a patient is something else. You want to skedaddle from things that give you anxiety or if you have had bad experiences. For me it’s hospitals. I’ve visited them so often when I was a child (my big sister was sick) so I’ve had enough of them. Luckily I’ve only been as a patient twice and those were awful experiences.
Giving presentations is also something I didn’t want to do. I hated those times in school when I had to stand in front of a class that I didn’t even like. I felt they were mocking me silently and it felt uncomfortable being stared at. I just wanted to skedaddle but somehow I got through with the presentation. In later years, I discovered if the audience was familiar and they were actually nice people, then giving a presentation wasn’t that bad. I still wouldn’t give speeches in front of strangers though. Unless it’s people I know somehow and they’re not that many. Presentations are much better than group work. I rather do that. Of course, it depends what kind of group work it is and with who. I think you gain more confidence in giving presentations if you do it often. Practice makes you better.
In life, there are things that make you want to skedaddle because you feel insecure. Especially young people who haven’t had enough experiences can feel anxiety to certain things. I’ve been there and I did leave a place without even telling anyone about it. That’s something I wouldn’t do today. Even if I sometimes have the feeling I want to skedaddle, I don’t. I face my insecurity and meet what is coming at me. If there are problems ahead you should face them as an adult. Only kids run away from conflicts or things they feel uncomfortable about. I wouldn’t want to go back to the person I was when I was younger. The feeling about wanting to skedaddle from places or situations is not a nice one. Staying and facing them is a better option because, in the end, things can’t be as bad as you thought.