Another workweek is done. Now I’ve been at the job for a month. Because of the coronavirus, it hasn’t been longer than that. Now it’s about 2 months left of the contract. I’m already counting the days. It’s been surviving the week. If it wasn’t from the nice colleagues I wouldn’t want to be there. There is not much to do. At least not this week. It’s always quiet at the beginning of the week. A lot of events have been cancelled so there isn’t much to report. The job is internal and external communication. One of the tools is WordPress so at least I get to use the block thing. Not having nothing to do is another thing but the worse part is waking up early. It has never been my thing. I also don’t like going to places. There are days I wish I didn’t have to go anywhere. At least not early in the morning. When you have to make up early, you have to go to bed early which is the bad part. Then you get confused when the weekend comes. Last Saturday I woke up and saw the time being over 7 am so I thought I’ll be late for work. But then realised it’s the weekend and went back to bed. Then on Sunday, you have to go to bed early so the weekend feels really short. Sometimes I wonder if this job really is worth it. At least you get paid something. I also get job experience even though it’s not in the field I want to be in. It hasn’t really been what I wrote about the job.
Days shouldn’t be trying surviving the week at work. Many people stay in their jobs for years which I don’t want to. I want to move on from things I don’t feel motivated to do. Is your life really worth it if you stay at something that bores you? Unfortunately, some people don’t have a choice and they have to be in a job if they like it or not. They don’t have a safety net and get help to their money troubles. I’m glad I don’t live in the States, for example. I would probably be homeless or something. You shouldn’t settle to your destiny. People who have worked where I am now haven’t found a job so they come back. That’s something I want to avoid. I don’t know if I even want to work for someone because then you have to go by their schedule. Working from home has entered my mind. I just hate hurrying. When I was studying web design and we had on the job learning. I could choose my own schedule and the freedom of not having to go anywhere was much more fun. Now it just feels forced and routined. It just isn’t for me. Now I will get through the months that are left of the contract and then we’ll see what will happen after that. At least we get free coffee and something sweet or salty to eat on Fridays at work. The best part is though the people you meet and the great people you work with. Without the atmosphere there, the surviving the week would be much harder to handle.
Even though the coronavirus thing is going on, people still need to find jobs. Especially young people who are looking for summer jobs. There is a lot of tips on how to make resumes. But the truth is, no matter how fancy your resume looks, if there is nothing to put in it, you won’t get the job. I don’t why people never talk about the domestic side of job search. These bosses probably have this fantasy that they want a young person so they can dominate them. Not literally but mentally. You don’t get your dream job without really good luck. All these job searching “tips” don’t work with everybody. The job courses are quite unnecessary too. It only gives jobs to the counsellors. The only time I had “luck” with these courses was when I found the web design education in 2016.
It’s been 3 years since that education but I haven’t done much web design since. I haven’t even got an internship in the field because you need to be young and/or study it. You can’t get experience if you don’t get a job anywhere. When you can’t practice at a job, then web design is not pleasant anymore. Maybe if I had found an internship after the education, maybe then I would have been more excited. Employers seem to want someone who is a “finished product” The same seems to happen to graphic design too. I wish I would have realised earlier what I wanted to do. Now it seems I’m too old. At least in the employer’s eyes. I wouldn’t even want to work for some domestic boss who tells me how to be. So maybe I’m just better off not having a job in design. At least I have a part-time job (might get back to work soon) or I wouldn’t have anything useful to do.
Then this LinkedIn business. If you do this, you get that and blah, blah. I think that platform is useless when it comes to job search. If you want domestic bosses and people, this is a place for you. You almost have to be popular if you get anything. What irritates me the most about LinkedIn is this how many new connections people get. I have only six. I don’t know how people get any new one’s. I doubt they know that many. LinkedIn is not like Twitter where you add random people. I don’t know anyone so therefore I don’t have many connections. It’s like school all over. I didn’t have many friends there either. Another thing is jobs you find on LinkedIn. Sometimes I get notifications about jobs I don’t even have any education in. If the jobs are about things I’ve studied, it’s always something I can’t do. You need 2-5 years of experience or more. You must be some kind of genius to find a job in there. Maybe LinkedIn works for some but don’t rely on it too positively.
If someone needs a good domestic spanking are those who think people are over the hill at 30+ in the working world. You don’t stop learning no matter what age. You should never judge someone by their age because all ages are different. You should never assume about anyone before you get to know them. The older you get, the harder is to get hired and only because some people think people are too old. Not just the age thing but also if you have a disability or gaps in your resume, some employers think you’re useless for their business. It’s all about the money and in a way, it’s understandable that they don’t hire just anyone. But you can’t generalise because not everyone is the same. The worst thing is an attitude problem. Then try to stay positive when these domestic bosses or hiring people don’t even want you in their company. Job search would be much easier if they had a heart and not only think about the money. Things were so much simpler when my parents were young. Then you could just walk into a company and ask for work. Now you have to fit in a mould to become anything. I won’t fall for that trap.
So two days of my new part-time job done. It’s been a smooth start for a new experience. It’s also been very quiet which isn’t unusual at the place I’m at. You would think it’s boring for doing nothing but it’s more relaxing that the first days of work are like that. The person who took me to this job arrives tomorrow so maybe there will be something to do. Now we’ve only been ‘hanging’ around at our computers. I got very nice co-workers so I’ve been chatting to them once in a while. The place I work at is a non-profit organization for the unemployed. Our jobs are to inform the members about different events and other things. One of my jobs is video and editing but hopefully, I get other things to do as well. It’s still early days. Even if there hasn’t been much to do at the beginning of the week, the days still go fast. It begins at 9 am and ends at 1.50 pm. When spring begins there will probably more work. It’s better to be there than at home. You also get more money when you work or do something useful with your time.
When you begin with something new it should go smoothly at first. It’s not always so. I’ve started something that didn’t go very well in the past. It wasn’t anything shocking but it wasn’t smooth either. Going to a new school or to a new place. Especially when everyone around you is strangers. I always wondered how some people get connected with other people so easily. It’s always a struggle for me. Sure I talk but it never becomes long conversations. For some things goes more smoothly than to others but it’s doesn’t mean there won’t be a struggle to both. Life isn’t perfect even if it looks like that on the outside. Sometimes I wish my life would be more smooth than it has been. Like this finding, something to do that would keep me occupied for more than a week or so. But I can never stick to anything longer. You just need to go with what life gives you and move on if something doesn’t work.