What indulgence means to me is making up stories for my own pleasure. I love writing fan fiction. In English only. I have a lot of ideas but they all don’t become stories. I used to read other people’s stories but sometimes I didn’t find any interesting enough. So I began writing them myself. If you can’t find a story to read, write your own. I guess the same goes for blogging. I wanted to write things I like. It’s just a bonus someone else likes them too.
Most of my fiction is about people who exist. But I don’t write about them. It’s a made-up story. It’s just the names that are the same. Maybe some fact too but it’s nothing personal. I’ve written fanfiction about movie characters but my main interest is real person fiction. If someone finds them offensive it’s not really my problem. It’s just harmless fun. You should do things that make you happy and writing fanfiction is mine. I haven’t had any complains so far. I only write them for fun and I won’t make a profit of them. Sometimes you just need an escape from the real world.
I also write fiction because they have improved my English. I’m not a book reader so reading other people’s fan fiction is my thing. Writing is something I enjoy so why stop? I have quite a vivid imagination. I’ve noticed I don’t really know how to write nice characters. They always have some kind of anger issue, if you can call it that. Or telling others what to do. But that’s because my muses usually give me thoughts like that. Oops, revealed too much 😀 You know a writer never tells their secrets to others. At least not me. If I don’t write fanfiction, I write poems. Ideas just come naturally to me when it comes to imagination. I wish I could use that skill in other things in life.
I can find inspiration from anywhere or anything. Like yesterday I saw a title on a forum and it gave me ideas for a story. An idea only though. I got so much inspiration so it feels like there is no time to write them all down. I have to think about the real life too, you know. I hardly end the stories I write because I get bored and then I make up new stories. There needs to be a special feeling when I write and when there isn’t I get writer’s block. I guess it’s the same with blogging. If I don’t have the feeling to write something then I don’t write at all. Or then I’m just tired and I don’t want to think. That’s why writing will remain a hobby for me. And what a fun hobby it is.
I’ve always been a creative person and to create is to live. There are different ways to be creative and it doesn’t have to be drawing. That has never been my favourite thing and I guess no one has really known me as someone who can draw very well. It’s kind of funny because both my parents could do it much better than I have. My creative talent is somewhere else.
Sometimes I doubt my abilities. I think maybe it’s only me who think I’m good at creating things. It doesn’t really matter what others think though. I’m still going to create because that keeps me focused and it helps me get through life. Creativity is like breathing and you can’t stop doing that. It’s also a good exercise for the brain.
Being creative can also be annoying. Especially when you post things online. You do a lot of work and still, no one appreciates your efforts. This happens a lot when I post my fan fictions online. I don’t do that for my own amusement. If I did, I would keep them to myself. I can understand if people don’t want to read them because it’s not about their favourite subjects. But those who does read fan fiction in general, you would think they at least would leave a comment or at least a like. I wish people would see my stories the way I do. I’m really proud of my work and it’s a shame I don’t get the same reaction some writers do. You never really know what people read online so those statistics doesn’t prove anything. Every story can’t be as popular as the others and I can live with that. The lack of reactions just irritates me sometimes and it takes out all the creativity in me.
Everyone should be allowed to do things they find most comfortable with. Those who criticise creative people are probably only jealous because they’re not. You can still create even if it’s just a hobby. Creations don’t have to be artistic. Creating can be cooking, baking or just something to do. If people knew how to use their creativity better, they wouldn’t need a smartphone to keep them entertained. There’s no such thing as bored. If you know how to create then you should have no problem to make up something to do. Technology has made people lazy and there’s no creativity in that. To create is to live and you don’t need gadgets for that. Unless you’re the one making creative apps and such. That’s another story altogether.