A trophy for my efforts

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The reasons why I should get a trophy for my efforts.

On June 2, I turned one year older than last year. That means I’m one step closer to death, but hopefully, I won’t die in many years. I went on a cruise to Stockholm alone for the first time ever. Before, I went with my parents and on class trips. Of course, I travelled alone inside the country. This was the first time I was alone abroad. It was only a cruise, but that’s a start. I stayed on the ship for 23 hours. It was kind of lonely since Finns don’t talk to strangers. But I didn’t need to go through the hassle that I went with my dad. He always wanted to sit and drink beer. But at least then, I had company. A good thing about travelling alone is you can go as you please. If I was tired, I would go to bed. I did that without telling another person if I wanted to sit on deck and read a book. On the cruise, there were a lot of families, so there weren’t young party people. It’s calmer to be on board when there aren’t drunk people there. In general, there weren’t many people on the cruise, which was nice. You didn’t need to queue anywhere. It’s been a heatwave in Finland, so sitting on deck with the wind blowing was nice. The best part of a 23-hour cruise is the buffer and tax-free shopping. I only buy sweets/candy because I don’t like alcohol, and I don’t smoke. Unlike some people in Finland.

For some people, unemployment brings them down or being single. It brings me freedom and confidence that things will get better. The only time I get depressed is when I’m forced to do things I don’t want to do. I’m selective, and I’m not ashamed of it. I don’t go for the 2nd best as Madonna sings in Express Yourself. It’s better to be alone than socialise with the wrong people. I have had enough of those when I was younger. Life is too short to have toxic people in your life.

I should get a trophy for tolerating people in the first place. I don’t need to get it from others because I can get it alone. Treat yourself with a trophy of your choice once in a while. I will award myself with sweets/candy that I bought from the cruise ship. I have always had a sweet tooth, no matter how I feel.

Should I OR..?

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Like they say in The Clash song ‘Should I stay or should I go?’ That’s a question I ask myself a lot. I think long and hard before I decide anything. My thoughts are usually negative. I think about all the wrong things that could happen. I rather be careful than taking risks. Sometimes you should take a chance and that’s what I did. I took a chance. It’s still time until it happens so you never know if I get cold feet. I’m talking about Robbie Williams concert in Finland, August 10, 2017 that I’m gonna attend. I’m actually never been to a real concert. I have been on small ones with different artists performing but not to a concert with one only. I wished Duran Duran would have been my first but since that never came, Robbie is the second best.

Going to concerts are not cheap. I thought if I should go to this one or not but when the tickets got on sale today (Friday), I didn’t think twice. That’s an achievement for me. Not a thought of not going didn’t come to mind. I still don’t think so. I’m actually looking forward to it. I lost money but it’s all worth it. I saw Robbie’s concert in the movie theater once and I loved that one. Now I’m actually going to see him live for real. It feels like forever before it happens. I’m proud of myself for taking that chance. It’s liberating to have that kind of courage when you’re an introvert. Maybe I’ve grown as a person but it’s also because I’m older. I’ve got more confidence than before and I’m not as intimated by things I’m unfamiliar with. I still feel uncomfortable around big crowds but if I want to experience concerts and such, I need to get out of my comfort zone. If I think too much about what could happen, then it’s more difficult to do things. Attending this concert is a way to prove myself I can do it without feeling like a coward.

“Sorry I can’t come. I’m gonna go to a concert” is something I wish I could say at least for once and now I can. Or it depends what I do at the time. To August next year is a long way and anything can happen before that. I think I have to pinch myself. I can’t believe I’m actually gonna see Robbie Williams live. The tickets were quite expensive. I wasn’t really sure if I could afford it but I thought, that money will come back later. Also known as having a job. I loved his music for at least 20 years and it’s finally paying off. He’s been in Finland twice before but then I didn’t have a chance to go. I was so pleased his tour would reach our country again. His concerts are always so entertaining and funny. I’m sure I’m gonna loved it and remember the rest of my life.

 

Tallenna

Tallenna