IBQ Writing Prompt – Page 2

In this week’s IBQ Writing Prompt, it’s about confidence.

If you’re asking me then I won’t have much confidence to tell you. I thinks that has always been my problem. If I had more confidence, I would have achieved at least something to brag about. I know I can do things but it feels like others doesn’t want to give me a chance.
In school, class mates did never really pay much attention to my skills. Maybe they just didn’t care that much. I think it was only once that I heard a compliment from someone. The teachers of course gave good grades. Especially about writing.
I was never popular. I only had one or two friends. I was never very confident about my looks. When I was a child, some thought I was a boy. That’s one of the reasons why I haven’t had short hair for years.

I get temporarily confidence. When I pick up the courage to talk to strangers, I feel confident. When I studied graphic design I got support from the teachers and class mates. That made me confident. But only for a while. I think, if I had a job, I would get more confidence. My mother used to say that the reason why I don’t have enough of courage, is because I haven’t been around people enough. And she was right. She used to be introvert when she was younger but she became more extrovert when she got older. She had a lot of different jobs and met a lot of different people. So being around other people helps to get more confidence.

I just need someone to push me forward. Someone else beside my father. Writing a blog is one way to get support and confidence. But it doesn’t have the same effect as having someone in the flesh so to speak.

If I had 3 wishes, confidence would be one of them.

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Focus now. As this week’s IBQ Writing Prompt is about.

When I was a child, focus was not one of my strongest points. Especially when it came to school. I just wanted to play instead of studying. I never wanted to do things I didn’t want to. Homework was one of them. I was good at some things but a subject like Maths was a pain. I’ve never been good at that. I just couldn’t focus. Never been good with numbers. The weird thing is, I do remember numbers but I never seem to be enough focused with the counting part.

I’ve noticed in recent years that even if I’m focusing on something, I still can focus on my surroundings. Multitasking in my head, I would call it. People think I’m not listening while I do something else. But I really do. For example, if I’m using the internet and someone is suddenly talking to me, I can still hear them.It’s not like I become deaf if I’m focusing on something else at the same time.
When I’m writing fiction, I’m so focused on that so I forget my surroundings. But that’s probably the only time I’m not listening if someone is talking. Or I get irritated if someone interrupts my train of thought.

I’ve always seen myself as a creative person. I made scrapbooks of a few bands I liked and later one with a Formula One team and the other two drivers. I had text and pictures in them. I think I could be quite good at making websites. But I don’t think I could keep my focus on that for too long. I just get bored easily. Even photography gets boring after a while. I’m just interested in different things so my focus is not on one thing only. Maybe that’s the reason I don’t know what I want from life. Career wise that is. I just focus on so many things at once.