Blowing one’s horn

Musicians blowing in traditional German horns
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Blowing my own horn is not my thing. That must be one of the reasons why I can’t find a job. I don’t know how to brag about myself. It’s also a Finnish thing. We’re not good at it. It’s also an introvert thing. We don’t want to brag about ourselves and make ourselves something special. We like to be low key. But that doesn’t seem to be acceptable in the world. You’re nothing if you don’t want to blow your own horn. It shouldn’t be that way. We should be allowed to be ourselves and not pretend to be something we’re not. Some people seem to have problems with quiet people. Only because you don’t want to be a blabbermouth doesn’t mean you’re strange. Listening to people talk about things you don’t care about is stressful. Noisy people have the same effect.

Because I don’t want to blow my own horn, I don’t know if I could be a good entrepreneur. You need to be a lot of different things. A marketing person, a salesperson, a public speaker and someone who doesn’t give up easily. Most importantly, be good enough at what you do. Maybe it’s only me who thinks I’m good at something. Perhaps the reason why I won’t get hired is that I’m not good enough. They instead take someone with natural talent. I don’t have an impressive portfolio, and I don’t have what the employers are looking for. I’m not confident in blowing my own horn. No matter what I post on social media, I get some likes and sometimes nothing. If I don’t get much attention in my personal accounts, how can I get it on the business one? If I get any comments, it’s usually spam. I wouldn’t trust anyone. I feel it’s unnecessary work if I promote things on social media. It’s not easy to be ignored as a job seeker or/and an entrepreneur. I don’t know how to say something about myself or what I can do. At least when it comes to making it to words. It’s incredible how things disappear from your head when you should think about them. It has nothing to do with memory problems. I tend not to think about complicated stuff like that.

Maybe I’ve chosen the wrong path when it comes to careers. It seems you need to blow your own horn because the competition is tough. There are so many people in the design business, and I don’t know how to stand out. Maybe my destiny is to be without a job. I never wanted an ordinary job, but it has backfired. Only because I don’t know how to blow my own horn.

The impetus in a labyrinth of life

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Using two different Ragtag Daily Prompt words today. When there are two words that you can have in the subject, you can have them in one post. Life is a labyrinth, but it’s easier to bear with some impetus. I haven’t had much time to blog because of the career coaching. I’ve also been tired to write anything. Actually, I haven’t blogged as much as I did in January. The months go so fast. I have had so many other things on my mind. I have updated my CV and written an open application. I have sent them to two businesses. On Monday I send to another. You never know if you ever get any replies. But at least I’ve done something. Job search is a labyrinth. You may get out of it, or you may not. You just need another plan. I’ve had so many goals in my adult life I don’t know which one this is. Even if I got encouragement on the career coaching course, I still feel there is no impetus inside me. I’m not confident enough I’ll get anything. I might have an OK looking CV and cover letter, but I will probably screw up the job interview if I get one. I’m not gonna think that far. I will see what happens gradually.

Life is about getting through difficult times. During Covid, it has shown who is good at a crisis and who is not. It shows how people behave. Some are probably too dependent on other people, so they can’t take it when they can’t be with their friends. You get mentally stronger when you get through bad times. Life isn’t always fun. People should learn that. Everyone needs alone time no matter what kind of people they are. Get through the labyrinth and find the impetus within you.

The apprentice online

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I don’t mean the reality show The Apprentice. I mean me, the apprentice. I’m taking part in a career coaching course that happens online. For now, at least. The last week of the course is going to be live. The course is 5 weeks, and it started this Monday. It’s an early morning for me. It begins at 9 am. It’s about job search and all that. For example, how to find hidden jobs and write resumes. There are assignments to do. The course is online from 9 to 12 am, and the rest of the day, you work on the tasks by yourself. You can do them when you want. There is a lot of thinking. It’s about what you do best. Then there are 2 weeks of getting to know a job in a company of your choice. I’ve already contacted one. I didn’t get anything the last time I went to career coaching, so I hope I find one this time. It doesn’t need to be something you studied. It can be from a field you don’t know. I would prefer it if it could be something I’ve done before.

This course is not only about job search and careers. It’s also about getting to know yourself better. In a way, it’s life coaching at the same time. Maybe it’s a bit too optimistic at times to think you get to the place you want with the tips. Things don’t always go the way you’ve planned. But that doesn’t mean you have to give up. You should think primarily about your strengths and what you’re good at. Things you can’t do, you can learn. If you’re interested in it. You shouldn’t do it if you don’t care about it. Some might think I’ve given up my dreams. But it only takes a bit longer. What is the hurry anyway? I take one step at a time. Tomorrow is another day.