No need to hold my hand

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Actually, this coronavirus is a blessing in some way for me. My free time from work is now extended to April 13. That means it’s also during my real holiday, which is Easter. No need to hold my hand because I always know what to do. It’s the same if I didn’t have a part-time job. The only thing that it’s different is that I still get paid. Another thing is that no one wants to shake your hand. I never really understood why you have to do that when you meet a new person anyway. The same with the hug thing. Then there are fewer crowds around and you can walk around in peace. I’m not a person who likes to show emotions in public. It depends on what it is though. Couples holding hands is another thing. Are they afraid they get lost from each other or what. I just see no pointing in it. Kissing in public is also gross. Each to their own. Personally, I wouldn’t do it in public no matter how much in love I was. You can tell someone you care without touching.

I don’t need to hold anyone’s hand when it comes to choices. I’ve chosen to go my own way and not depending on friends or classmates. I’ve studied things I wanted to study and not what others have wanted. Some teenagers who went to high school only because their best friend did. But I could never have done that. By the time I was 17 I wanted to get out of school. High school wasn’t for me. Besides, I hate reading and I hate Math too. I prefer doing things which is one of the reasons why I’ve chosen to study creative things. Even though was first education was in healthcare but I only went because my mother said it was at least something. I’m actually grateful for that now. Otherwise, things could have been different. Some people would probably say, at least you would have better job opportunities if I’ve continued to study health care instead. But I hate needles and not a fan of blood either. I always thought you should study things that interest you and not because it pays well or there are more jobs available. I will rather be unemployed than be in a job I don’t like. I don’t why you should be pushed to do something you know you’re not suitable to do.

Advice is always welcome but I rather do my own decisions. I’m not driven by money or ambition. I’m driven by independence and feeling good about the things I do. There is no need to hold my hand. I can found out things on my own. Maybe I need guidance at first but then I can do it by myself. Maybe not when it comes to writing articles or making leaflets about events at work though. I’m still not confident enough when it comes to that. I still haven’t got used to the workplace ways of doing things. Learning that is now on hold because of this crisis we have in the world at the moment. Who knows how long that will take. I don’t need any hand-holding to that either because bacteria are everywhere and washing your hands after you touch stuff is no brainer. Certain people just don’t see the obvious so you need to hold their hand. Metaphorically speaking of course.

Don’t stop or you’ll get fusty

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An old proverb says a rolling stone gathers no moss. It means don’t stop or you’ll get fusty. Well, in my words at least. In this modern time, you need to keep up with the times. It doesn’t mean you need to buy the latest technology. There’s always something new on the market but you don’t need to buy new things every year. You need to think about the environment, you know. Besides, if a gadget still works it doesn’t need to be replaced by new things. Not stopping also means to learn new things and get better at it. If you get stuck in one thing all your life, your mind will get fusty. Having several interests is both a blessing and a curse. But when boredom hits you, you have at least a change to your routines.

I wouldn’t know where I could be if I didn’t study the things I’ve did. If I didn’t do any of it, my life would have been empty. Many people who can’t find a job, don’t do anything that could keep them occupied. They stuck in a rut instead of studying something new. You don’t need to go to school to learn things. In a library, for example, you can read books for free about a subject you like. I haven’t been in one for a long time so I don’t know what they have there. Life shouldn’t be about feeling sorry for yourself. Work shouldn’t be everything. Even if you have a job, you should learn new things. You should keep up with the times no matter what age you are or where in life you are. Even if you think you don’t need it, still you should be open-minded about it. Keep on moving or you get fusty.

A journey to the unknown

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A journey doesn’t only mean travelling to another city or country. It can also mean a journey to a new life situation or in my case, learning a new skill. It’s not coddiwomple for me because I don’t really know where this road is going. Graphic design is not a new journey for me because I studied it before. But it was such a long time ago so things have changed. I haven’t worked in this industry so this is new to me. I don’t really know how it works. In every school, there are different teachers who have different learning styles. In Helsinki Design School, the people who educate us, have seen the real world in graphic design. Professional teachers don’t have the same experiences as they do.

After learning web design, graphic design seemed to be the next step I wanted to take. One of the reasons was that I wanted to hear professionals opinions about my skills. We have assignments we must do and then the teachers give us feedback on what we have done. At the same time, we learn new things. Last I studied graphic design, photography was my main thing which was the reason why I applied to the school. Things have changed since then and I want different things. I’ve always been praised for my visual skills. That was my strongest suit. Most people in my class haven’t experienced with web design so that’s my advantage. There isn’t much difference between them. The difference is web design is online and graphics in print. I want to concentrate more on the digital side.

Since I’ve had clients before, I’m not totally a rookie in that field. I did it for free so I don’t have experiences with the financial side. I wish I could get paid for doing design but I don’t know if anyone wants to buy my ‘product’ It’s not only about the work. It’s also about marketing which is something I’m not good at. Hiring an outsider to do the work costs money and I don’t have any connections who could do it for free or for a small fee. I don’t think I’ll find any in this school. Finns are not exactly easy with networking. You have to start a conversation to even get any attention but that’s nothing new. Fortunately, there are other ways to network and not just face to face. My classmates all seem to have a lot of experiences and they’re younger than me. The only thing we have in common is wanting to learn graphic design. It’s still early to say what’s gonna happen. It’s quite difficult to get to know people when there’s so many of us and we meet only twice a month.

This journey has just begun and there is a lot to learn. I hope I get better as a designer so I can make a living of it. I already know a lot about creativity. More I see graphic design, more I love it. There’s a lot of good ones out there and I wish I could be as good. When this school is over, I hope this journey will be a coddiwomple because so far my life has gone in different directions without a special goal. I want to combine things I learned in life and get better at it.