Going crazy with all these problems

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With money, you have problems, but you also have trouble when you don’t have much. It’s crazy how much things cost, and when you don’t have any income, it’s even worse. You have to save money for important things like rent and bills. I’m going crazy with these problems. Soon the savings are gone, and what to do then?

It shouldn’t be like this for anyone. Some people got it worse than me. I’m not the crazy one; the world is. The uncertainty is the worst. Will things never get better? I shouldn’t have these problems at this age. Being unemployed isn’t a picnic. Some people think it’s easy to get a job, and those without one want to stay out of work. Most unemployed people want to earn their own money. You don’t live on welfare forever.

I would get money if I sold my flat, but I need money to hire a cleaner and moving help. But since I don’t have any income, I can’t afford it. My car doesn’t work, so I can’t fix it. Luckily, I don’t need the car right now. I still need to pay car taxes. It would be nice to have money to go on a cruise, go to an ice hockey game, and not worry about money in the first place. Not be worried that I don’t have money to pay bills.

I want to become an entrepreneur, but I’m afraid of starting because I haven’t found any clients. I’ve tried a lot of things, but no one’s buying. People only want free things. I need something right now and not in a few years. I’ve been on many paid courses about digital marketing, but none of those tips have worked. Perhaps it works for people who sell courses. I sell graphic design services. It feels as if I’m wasting time on trying to write a post that would attract clients. I don’t have the money to hire someone to do the marketing part. Now I have to do everything alone, so I don’t have time to design.

It’s a perpetual cycle. Problems come, but none are solved. All you can do is hope things will get better and try not to go crazy. People talk about how much money they have, but not many talk about the lack of it. It’s as if it’s taboo. If someone is saying they are working because they love the job, they’re not totally honest about it. You need money to survive; it’s a bonus if you love what you do.

I love designing and photography, but that doesn’t pay the bills. It would be nice to earn money from it, but without clients, it’s impossible. Right now, I need to hang on and not give up. That never makes me feel better, but I have to believe it somehow.

Climbing the mountain of social media

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When you try and try but you still fail. Or feel like you do. Having success is like climbing a mountain. The difference is that if you fall of a mountain, you get killed. Success doesn’t mean fame and fortune. I’m talking about something as simple as posting on social media. You can plan in advance. Take courses about how to get followers and how to turn them into clients. But all that hard work doesn’t pay off, no matter what you try. You want to give up because you feel it’s a waste of time. They say it takes time, but how long does that mean exactly? I don’t have years to wait for something to happen.

There is mixed advice available online regarding social media. Some say you don’t need a lot of followers, and then they offer advice on how to gain more followers. Using social media for business and personal use is different, but having followers is important in both contexts. I have a feeling I only attract weirdo’s or people who aren’t very active. I have two Instagram accounts: one personal, which is in English. The other one is a business-related one, which is in Finnish. I feel I’m the only one liking my posts on my personal account, and the same goes for the other. I don’t get any comments either, even if I ask for them. Perhaps my posts are boring and no one notices.

Climbing the mountain of social media takes too long, and it feels like it will never yield any results. You should post regularly and comment on other people’s posts. I know I haven’t done it much, but I have nothing to comment on. Writing posts isn’t easy either. It feels like a waste of time when I get no reactions or a lot of them. I want to find graphic design clients on social media. I even tried to sell digital products, but no one seems to care about getting the link to the store. Social media is a mountain that many want to climb. However, since millions aspire to reach the top, you must stand out.

Posting online doesn’t pay you the bills, and that’s all I get. I can’t start a business without clients, and there are no jobs to apply for. Some people have found clients on social media, so it’s not impossible. I just need to be a little bit more patient. I hope it won’t take years because I won’t have it. I need to set some goals in life, rather than staying stuck in one place. Everyone needs an income from something, and I hope it’s on the mountain of social media.

Just need to withstand the lack of reaction from others

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Nothing seems to work, no matter how I try. Perhaps I just need to withstand the lack of reaction from others. I have made up a new fanfic, but no reaction to that. Not even views, or they come slowly. I spent hours writing it, and I think it’s good. Then none. But it doesn’t matter because I like what I write, which matters. I did get a compliment from someone who said I’m a talented writer. They suggested they would make a comic of it. But I can’t afford it right now. It’s a nice gesture, though. At least some are reacting. Some fan fiction succeeds better than others. I have a lot of fiction. Maybe it’s only the subject that people don’t care about, or a lack of coitus.

I’ve started a faceless account on Instagram in Finnish. It’s IN right now in Finland. You can sell digital products made by someone else and then resell them. There are MRR (Master Resell Right) and PLR (Private Label Right). You can make them your own or resell them as they are. To start somewhere, I bought a package with Instagram Stories and Reels and resold it. But when trying to sell a digital product, you need to advertise. So it’s not get-rich-quick (I don’t even want to be rich), but it is frustrating that it takes ages. I won’t earn anything. Some have waited for months and still haven’t sold anything. I was initially excited about faceless marketing, not having to show my face. Many faceless accounts sell courses about digital marketing and how to start faceless marketing, but I’ve already studied digital marketing and visuals. I’ve used a lot of money to study those things. Even if I did buy the course, there’s no guarantee I would profit from it. As a graphic designer and photographer, I want to make my own digital product. The best thing about selling digital products is that you don’t have to contract with a client and wait for clients to contact you. What if I don’t succeed, and I’m wasting my time? I need to withstand the negativity from my mind that it won’t work. I need to be more patient.

Lastly, about this blog, I don’t feel like blogging the way I used to. The last post about the Duran Duran concert was ignored, but I guess people are too busy. Or maybe reading blogs and blogging isn’t as popular as it used to be. I just need to withstand the lack of reaction from others. I’m writing for myself anyway. How else will I learn to write in English if I don’t blog? That’s why I’m here; the same goes for writing fan fiction. I need to get my thoughts written down somehow.