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Building a boulder

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pile of rocks and swans
Photo: Taken by me in 2022

Building a boulder is like life. You start with one rock, and as you get older, it gets bigger. But if you put too much at once, it might collapse. Then you sometimes want to take one of those rocks and throw it at someone. But you don’t throw it because you’re not a barbarian, and you don’t want to go to prison because of some idiot you can’t stand. The anger is temporary, after all, and you move on. If something doesn’t work, you do something else.

I’ve built many metaphoric boulders in my life, but I’ve always been careful that they don’t collapse. You cannot manage life if you only have good things. It’s better to be cautious than sorry, though. You live longer, too. Many do stupid things when they’re young and regret it later. There is nothing wrong with living an eventless life, but it doesn’t mean you shouldn’t experience things. I have never had a list of what to do before turning a certain age because of what you wanted to do before 30, you can do when you’re 40, and so on. It’s not the end of the world if you don’t experience things. Maybe it wasn’t meant to be. You can’t regret things you have never done. Life hasn’t been worthless even if you haven’t done anything special. Everybody doesn’t want to do things other people do. Life can still be fulfilling if you haven’t travelled, got married, or had any other experiences. If you lived your life without leaving your house, that’s another story. That’s not living, that’s wasting life.

No matter what has happened in my life, I’ve stayed above water. It seems young people today haven’t had a bad experience to handle life, so they get depressed or aggressive because things don’t go their way immediately. Life isn’t about having fun all the time. You need to do boring stuff and have adversity, or you don’t learn and become a stronger person mentally. Building a strong boulder of life will make it more bearable and make the most of it.

Stubborn as a mule

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Zoomorphic sounds like a zoo with terrifying animals. But when I looked it up, it’s not. I like metaphors, so I chose to see myself as stubborn as a mule. But I could also be a scaredy-cat because I’m scared of doing anything brave. Cats can also be stubborn. In some things, no one wouldn’t know I’m stubborn because I give up easily. If I had been bolder, things would be different. I’ve strong-willed when it comes to choices. You can’t make me do things by force. I do them when I feel like it. For example, if you say to me to clean the flat, I won’t do it because someone says I should. I do it when I want. I need to have the motivation to do it. I haven’t studied for occupation because there are jobs in them. I’ve studied things I wanted to. My parents never told me what to study. They have suggested things, but I’ve always followed my guts. I wouldn’t be happy if I had to do something I didn’t like. It hasn’t paid off, though. I instead am without a job than be in a position I don’t like. No matter how big the salary is.

You need to be stubborn to find a job. If you get rejected, you don’t stop searching. But I don’t have that in me. I’m both a stubborn mule and a scaredy-cat. I wish I was brave as a lion. I won’t hold my breath to get any contact from the companies I’ve sent the open applications to. I’m gonna move on. I’m not sure what to do, but I’ll let it be for later. I’m stubborn, so setbacks won’t make me give up. It’s the world that is in a hurry, not me.

From a circle to a spiral

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So back to work on Monday won’t happen. Now it’s pushed back to August 2. Oh, well at least I don’t have to go anywhere. There is no summer holiday after all. Only ‘holiday’ as usual. How things change, from a circle to a spiral. The circle being the straightforward thing. While the spiral is not knowing where to go or do. Nothing new will happen. Things will be the same as they always been before I had this part-time job. I won’t get any job experience. A lot of people have needed to change things because of the coronavirus. At least I’m financially secured so I have no problems with that. Now I can concentrate on things I usually do. I don’t get paid for it though. Right now it’s good to live in Finland. The coronavirus here hasn’t been as powerful as in other countries. Even the restaurants and other places are being opened next week. I fear there will be more sick people after they open them. We can only hope this virus won’t be around forever.

I have always had trouble concentrating on one thing at the time. Even if I hear a sound elsewhere, I get distracted for a while. I also have different thoughts in my head. It feels like a spiral in my mind. I can have one thought and then it changes to something else. It’s like my brain has ADHD. I have a mild ADD (never officially tested) but I don’t know if that’s the only reason. Even when I write this blog I get distracted. I could write one thing and then the subject would change to something else. I do try to stay on the subject though. My mind is mostly more spiral than a circle. Maybe that’s one of the reasons why I have a vivid imagination. I have a knack of making up stories, a.k.a. fiction. Sometimes I get totally in the story and forget the time. Then other times I get nothing and I get no ideas. When I do, it’s back to the spiral mind. If I didn’t, I would get bored very quickly. Days just fly by even if the days are the same because I still get things done. It might look like I don’t do anything but my mind works all the time. If that was a job I would probably have more money than I do now. I never let myself get bored and it doesn’t matter if I am because a mind needs to be in a circle once in a while.