An old proverb says a rolling stone gathers no moss. It means don’t stop or you’ll get fusty. Well, in my words at least. In this modern time, you need to keep up with the times. It doesn’t mean you need to buy the latest technology. There’s always something new on the market but you don’t need to buy new things every year. You need to think about the environment, you know. Besides, if a gadget still works it doesn’t need to be replaced by new things. Not stopping also means to learn new things and get better at it. If you get stuck in one thing all your life, your mind will get fusty. Having several interests is both a blessing and a curse. But when boredom hits you, you have at least a change to your routines.
I wouldn’t know where I could be if I didn’t study the things I’ve did. If I didn’t do any of it, my life would have been empty. Many people who can’t find a job, don’t do anything that could keep them occupied. They stuck in a rut instead of studying something new. You don’t need to go to school to learn things. In a library, for example, you can read books for free about a subject you like. I haven’t been in one for a long time so I don’t know what they have there. Life shouldn’t be about feeling sorry for yourself. Work shouldn’t be everything. Even if you have a job, you should learn new things. You should keep up with the times no matter what age you are or where in life you are. Even if you think you don’t need it, still you should be open-minded about it. Keep on moving or you get fusty.
Sick and tired of selfish people
Sick and tired of people who don’t care
Sick and tired of noisy neighbours
Sick and tired of racism
Sick and tired of narcissism
Sick and tired of sexism
Sick and tired of celebs who think they all that
Sick and tired of negative comments online
Sick and tired of people who litter
Sick and tired of smoking fools
Sick and tired of people who only think black and white
Sick and tired of repeating myself when I talk
Sick and tired of ignorant people who think they know it all
But most of all I’m sick and tired of not be able to do anything about it alone
So another education passed. Eleven months went by like a breeze. Like I posted yesterday (Sunday) I passed the graphic design education in Helsinki Design School. The portfolio presentation was awful though. I had written on a paper on what to say and had it with me in front of the class. But then I panicked and it went like this. “Here’s what I’ve done and that’s thank you” I didn’t say anything about the projects so I didn’t get any feedback. Only what kind of graphic design I would want to do and that I should make more projects to my portfolio. The others were much better at their presentations. Even them who felt nervous before. I just don’t know what happened to me. I wanted to get out of the situation as quickly as possible like many times before. I was so nervous and felt uncomfortable because people were looking at me. I was so disappointed by my presentation but the other student’s work was so much better than mine so I felt ashamed for mine. It felt I had no skills whatsoever. Some of the students hadn’t done any graphic design before school. Since I didn’t get any decent feedback I don’t know what my strength is in design. I don’t know what they are and I guess no one else knows either. Maybe my style is boring and amateurish. What was the most disappointing thing in Helsinki Design School was not finding my style. I don’t know if I have potential or should I quit with design altogether. I will regret my portfolio presentation forever.
Maybe finding a style doesn’t happen in 11 months for everyone. I develope slowly in everything and might get old before I find anything. Or even worse, never. My goals for this education didn’t actually come true. I learned new things but if I can use that knowledge in a job is a different matter. There were times when I felt really excited to be in this school but now not so much. I knew I wouldn’t become friends with anyone and also that I wouldn’t get connections. Honestly, I think the whole school flatter themselves too much. Don’t get me wrong. The school is good to learn new things and the atmosphere in the class is good. But it doesn’t get you discovered by employers. One of my classmates did get an internship through a teacher who taught there but she was the lucky one. I didn’t get a job after I studied photography in the same school and I’m sure I won’t get one this time either. You won’t find any magic beans there. It only makes you feel abandoned.
This experience shouldn’t discourage me but it does. Why should I even need a certain style? I like to do different things or I would be bored. I know what my style isn’t. That’s the easy part. The problem with the assignment was we only got feedback and after that nothing else. If you work with a client, you get several comments and that way you can make your design better. But with a teacher, you don’t get that. In the end, it doesn’t matter what feedback you got during an education because that’s only one opinion. It’s really about what kind of work you want to do. I know one day what my style will be and it will change many times. I work with what I’ve got. You never really graduate in this life because there’s always something new to learn. Knowing that Helsinki Design School was just one journey that now has come to an end. What will happened next is a mystery.