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Give me at least one tiny chance

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tiny statueIt seems I never get even tiny chances in anything. If it’s a chance to get someone to like you romantically or getting an internship in a company. The latter is the most important thing. I don’t seem to get any foot between any door. No matter how many times I send applications or ask through email, I never get any replies. We are supposed to find a client or an internship in a company in our web design education which begins November 14 and is to December 11, 2016. I have no luck to find anything. Even social media hasn’t helped. I’m probably the only one in my class without anything. Maybe web design is just not my thing after all. I don’t even think I could make any sites without help. I already struggle with it. If I can’t make one to myself, how can I make for someone else? That’s the reason why I would prefer a company where they make web sites. It seems I never even have a tiny chance. It’s hard to keep up the motivation when I feel like I can’t do anything.

These are times I wonder what’s wrong with me. Why doesn’t anyone give me a tiny chance in anything? Am I too ugly to get hired? I have studied different things but it’s not appreciated enough it seems. Maybe I’m just not good at explaining things. I’ve been on job search courses but those were no help. It doesn’t matter what kind of advice you get, they won’t work. If they work, it happens to other people. Luck doesn’t seem to find me. I have skills but only I seem to know that. It’s not my fault I’m being overlooked. A lot of other people are too so I’m not alone with this problem. I’m old enough and confident enough to know it’s not me, it’s them. The only fight I’m gonna have is with myself.

Tiny things won’t let me down. I’ve learned to enjoy the small things in life. I love walking through fallen leaves. I love the rain. I don’t care if it’s dark outside. I put my rubber boots on and take my umbrella to take a walk. I jump in the puddles like little kids do. In the winter if there’s snow I take long walks. I don’t mind the cold. That’s what warm clothes are for. I take some snow and try to make a ball. I throw it away and maybe I hit a tree. That’s what life is for. Why do adults stop doing these things? You’re never too old. It’s only stuck up people who thinks so and there’s a lot of those people.
I love writing fan fiction. I won’t stop just because someone doesn’t like them. I’m not the best writer out there but that’s not the reason I do it. I write them because it gives me a chance to escape the world for a while. Sometimes I’m so into them, I forget the time. I hate to stop when the words are flowing. When inspiration struck, you don’t want to stop or you have to catch the train of thought again.

Always do what you love the most. That’s how I go by. Tiny stuff but big thoughts. Life would be empty without them.

Job Search Campaign

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A lot of people have tried to campaign their job search so why not me. But it’s not as easy as you think.
First of all my line of work, which is photography, is not the same as for someone who works for marketing for an example. Secondly my photography skills are not on a professional level. I’m still an amateur. I don’t think this kind of campaign will work either. Photographers probably find jobs by themselves. Even getting this blog attention, is hard work. I’m not exactly popular on social media either.

It feels I’m alone in this whole job search. I don’t have any connections with old work mates since I’ve never had a paid job. I also have no former school friends. Not even relatives who could help. The only connection I have, is the job center but I have never got much help from them. In other words, my list of allies grows thin. Making new connections online is difficult. No matter what the tips say. It just doesn’t work. You really need to be active all the time.

It might sound pessimistic, but it seems I’ll never get a job in photography. I don’t even have a driver’s license which seem to be a requirement. I’ve even thought maybe I should just keep it a hobby.
Being unemployed is not a problem. I’m single and all I have to support is myself. If I had a family of my own, it would be different. Maybe then I would worry more about it. I don’t want to be one of those who’s given up to find work. Living on well-fare is not a way of life. You can’t live like that until you die. There’s more to life than that.

The problem I’ve always had, was giving up too easily. I just don’t have patience enough. I know what I like and if I don’t like something, I don’t bother continuing. The same with my job search campaign. If it won’t give any results. With that I mean, traffic on the blog or on Twitter, I’ll won’t continue with it. It’s just a waste of time to spend your time on something no one sees or cares about. It’s still early though. I just started on Tuesday.

Since I write the campaign in Finnish, you won’t understand what I’m saying. I’m also looking for a job or internship in Finland so it will only apply Finns. All you can do is wish me luck. I’ll need it.