Tag: motivation

Is this boring or what?

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This blog, boring or what? Today especially. So here I am again, writing something no one really cares about. Not even me would read it. Or maybe it’s just me being lazy today. I shouldn’t really mind if this blog won’t get lot of comments or a lot of traffic. But somehow looking at the stats of this blog makes me wonder what should I write about so people will notice it. I know I shouldn’t look at the stats that closely but that’s what motivates me. I don’t keep up the blog only for me. If it was, I would keep it private.

I  read an article about bloggers getting paid for their writing. I think those people who wants to make it as a living, seems to want their 15 minutes of fame as well. Not everyone wants to make a business out of it, including me. Most people keep up a blog as a hobby. All I care about is people reading and liking what I write. And occasional comments/feedback.

Back to the stats. The most popular post so far seemed to be the one about Benedict Cumberbatch (damn what a difficult last name to spell but I can finally do it :D) when he paid a visit to Finland. If that’s gonna be the most popular subject then I should change the blog’s name to “Hell with everything else, time for your daily Benedict Cumberbatch fix” Speaking of which, he will be a presenter at the Oscars on Sunday. I’m sure that one will appear on Youtube one day. I hope since I won’t be watching the awards. It’s just takes too long.

So what do people really want to read about on this blog. If I asked, would anyway post a reply? Or just shrug and move on? I could ask questions all day and still no one would have anything to say. How many actually visit frontpages on blogs? Is the poll on my blog too boring? Isn’t it obvious that people find my blog on WordPress? So many questions but so little time.

A fresh start

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2014, here I come. I’m such a lazy writer. But I have a good reason. My motivation has been low. It has nothing to do with not having a job. It has never been something I stress about. And has nothing to do with my mother passing away on December 15, 2013. She had cancer. She had been sick about a year. There was nothing the doctor could do. That’s just life. Some have the luck of surviving but she wasn’t one of them. Unfortunately. After having a cry 3-4 days in a row, I have started to feel better. It’s never nice when someone close to you dies. You just have to continue. There are times when those memories comes back to your mind. Maybe you cry and wish that person was still around. You never get over it, you just move on.

Anyway. I have always had motivation problems. Maybe because I like so many things. I need someone who lifts up my spirit. Encouragement is the word. I get bored easily. Sometimes I feel like a failure. Lot of people in my age (30+) already have careers but I have nothing. I don’t compare myself with others though. They also have families but that’s not what I want from life. Maybe I’m like Peter Pan, never want to grow up. I just have to be more brave. I’m not very sociable. Never had lot of friends but I don’t need much either. It might sound really sad that I have no one (except my dad) but that’s something I’m not depressed about. What’s more depressing, is that I can do lots of different things and studied but still can’t find a job. That’s my goal for the year. I want to earn my own money so that I can pay the mortgage (the flat I live in, was owned by my mother) and that I can buy a new flat somewhere else. I’ve told too much already 😉

Until next time. Might be tomorrow since I’m taking part of this Zero to Hero: 30 Days to a Better Blog