Bloganuary: Wouldn’t be good

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A song that speaks to me is Nik Kershaw’s ‘Wouldn’t be good’. It’s one of the songs of my life. My life is never easy. People don’t understand me; if they walked in my shoes, they would. They think their own life is easy, and they’re all happy. Life isn’t and shouldn’t be easy. We all have our ups and downs. People who have never been through the way I have don’t understand how it feels. I have days that feel like, what’s the point of doing anything. I could sleep all day and only have my hobbies. People who meet me think after the first impression they know me, but they don’t. Strangely, you should be yourself; it’s not enough when you are. I’m reserved because of the things that happened in the past. I trusted someone, and then they deceived me. That’s one of the reasons why I don’t trust people. I need to know the person a bit better before I can put my trust in them. Most of the time, they’re not patient enough trying to get to know me. They only assume what I’m like. Sometimes I wish I could be somewhere else instead.

Wouldn’t it be good by Nik Kershaw

I love 80s music, and this song is one of them. It’s my power song. The lyrics give me good feelings. It makes me think I’m not the only one that feels this way. No matter how you see the lyrics, you have to agree the grass is not always greener on the other side.

Bloganuary: A billion dream

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Blogaunuary: If you had a billion US dollars, how would you spend it?

In my case, it’s in Euros. But money doesn’t make you happy. Having money is good, but having a billion would be a nightmare. Many problems exist worldwide, so I wonder if a billion is enough. It’s hard to imagine what to do with all of that money. Many homeless people would have homes, that’s for sure. The way people treat poor people is appalling. Greed is a terrible thing. Many problems would be solved if people with lots of money would give something back to society. Now they only use the money for their own amusement. Certain people shouldn’t have all that money.

If I had a billion, I would try to get rid of it as soon as possible. I would keep enough so I wouldn’t need to find work and have no money issues. The rest I would give to different charity organisations. One of them would be for cancer and other deadly disease research. The other would be for saving the whales and other sea creatures. There are so many ways to get rid of that billion. But there is no money, so there is no help. It’s all a billion dream, after all.

The impetus in a labyrinth of life

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Using two different Ragtag Daily Prompt words today. When there are two words that you can have in the subject, you can have them in one post. Life is a labyrinth, but it’s easier to bear with some impetus. I haven’t had much time to blog because of the career coaching. I’ve also been tired to write anything. Actually, I haven’t blogged as much as I did in January. The months go so fast. I have had so many other things on my mind. I have updated my CV and written an open application. I have sent them to two businesses. On Monday I send to another. You never know if you ever get any replies. But at least I’ve done something. Job search is a labyrinth. You may get out of it, or you may not. You just need another plan. I’ve had so many goals in my adult life I don’t know which one this is. Even if I got encouragement on the career coaching course, I still feel there is no impetus inside me. I’m not confident enough I’ll get anything. I might have an OK looking CV and cover letter, but I will probably screw up the job interview if I get one. I’m not gonna think that far. I will see what happens gradually.

Life is about getting through difficult times. During Covid, it has shown who is good at a crisis and who is not. It shows how people behave. Some are probably too dependent on other people, so they can’t take it when they can’t be with their friends. You get mentally stronger when you get through bad times. Life isn’t always fun. People should learn that. Everyone needs alone time no matter what kind of people they are. Get through the labyrinth and find the impetus within you.