From a circle to a spiral

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So back to work on Monday won’t happen. Now it’s pushed back to August 2. Oh, well at least I don’t have to go anywhere. There is no summer holiday after all. Only ‘holiday’ as usual. How things change, from a circle to a spiral. The circle being the straightforward thing. While the spiral is not knowing where to go or do. Nothing new will happen. Things will be the same as they always been before I had this part-time job. I won’t get any job experience. A lot of people have needed to change things because of the coronavirus. At least I’m financially secured so I have no problems with that. Now I can concentrate on things I usually do. I don’t get paid for it though. Right now it’s good to live in Finland. The coronavirus here hasn’t been as powerful as in other countries. Even the restaurants and other places are being opened next week. I fear there will be more sick people after they open them. We can only hope this virus won’t be around forever.

I have always had trouble concentrating on one thing at the time. Even if I hear a sound elsewhere, I get distracted for a while. I also have different thoughts in my head. It feels like a spiral in my mind. I can have one thought and then it changes to something else. It’s like my brain has ADHD. I have a mild ADD (never officially tested) but I don’t know if that’s the only reason. Even when I write this blog I get distracted. I could write one thing and then the subject would change to something else. I do try to stay on the subject though. My mind is mostly more spiral than a circle. Maybe that’s one of the reasons why I have a vivid imagination. I have a knack of making up stories, a.k.a. fiction. Sometimes I get totally in the story and forget the time. Then other times I get nothing and I get no ideas. When I do, it’s back to the spiral mind. If I didn’t, I would get bored very quickly. Days just fly by even if the days are the same because I still get things done. It might look like I don’t do anything but my mind works all the time. If that was a job I would probably have more money than I do now. I never let myself get bored and it doesn’t matter if I am because a mind needs to be in a circle once in a while.

Summer bloom in Finland

white evergreen rose
White Evergreen Rose by ©Mia Salminen

Summer is coming to Finland or it’s actually here already. Today (May 26) it was over 20 celsius outside. People wearing shorts but they probably would anyway even if it wasn’t. Brave little folks, they are. The most irritating thing about this summer talk is the media bragging about how hot it’s gonna get soon. Well, I don’t want it and it’s not lovely at all. You can shove it up there with your heat records. I hate the word ‘helle‘, which means ‘heat‘ in Finnish. Every year it’s the same praising like that’s something new. There has always been warm weather here at this time of year. Maybe people forget so they need a reminder. I rather not hear about it, thank you very much.

Summer has it’s downsides but also good things. One of them is a bloom in a lot of places. Flowers, plants or whatever you want to call it. Also, there will be leaves on the trees so when it’s hot, there are shadows where you can go under. Summer used to be my favourite season but not so much anymore. When you’re a kid, things are different. At least you don’t have to feel cold. Summers would be nice if it wasn’t hot and the media wouldn’t go on about how lovely it is. If it rained all summer I wouldn’t care. I would welcome it. Without water, there wouldn’t be any blooms anywhere so people should stop being so morose when it rains.

Next week it’s my birthday (June 2) so after that, the Autumn can come. Nothing would matter after that. This summer will be different though because then I’ll be in my part-time job. If and when I go back next week. Then there is the 2 week summer holiday which I never had. Except in school but that was different then. I’ve been in a job in summer before but then that wasn’t a paid job. Holidays are just a time when you don’t have to go to work. It’s like being unemployed but you get paid for it. There won’t be much travelling this summer anyway. It would be nice to go somewhere but this summer you can’t. I wouldn’t even want to as long as the coronavirus is going on. It’s better to stay home than get infected. Either way, there will be a bloom everywhere that will keep our spirits up.

Domestic- the dark side of job search

man with a whip
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Even though the coronavirus thing is going on, people still need to find jobs. Especially young people who are looking for summer jobs. There is a lot of tips on how to make resumes. But the truth is, no matter how fancy your resume looks, if there is nothing to put in it, you won’t get the job. I don’t why people never talk about the domestic side of job search. These bosses probably have this fantasy that they want a young person so they can dominate them. Not literally but mentally. You don’t get your dream job without really good luck. All these job searching “tips” don’t work with everybody. The job courses are quite unnecessary too. It only gives jobs to the counsellors. The only time I had “luck” with these courses was when I found the web design education in 2016.

It’s been 3 years since that education but I haven’t done much web design since. I haven’t even got an internship in the field because you need to be young and/or study it. You can’t get experience if you don’t get a job anywhere. When you can’t practice at a job, then web design is not pleasant anymore. Maybe if I had found an internship after the education, maybe then I would have been more excited. Employers seem to want someone who is a “finished product” The same seems to happen to graphic design too. I wish I would have realised earlier what I wanted to do. Now it seems I’m too old. At least in the employer’s eyes. I wouldn’t even want to work for some domestic boss who tells me how to be. So maybe I’m just better off not having a job in design. At least I have a part-time job (might get back to work soon) or I wouldn’t have anything useful to do.

Then this LinkedIn business. If you do this, you get that and blah, blah. I think that platform is useless when it comes to job search. If you want domestic bosses and people, this is a place for you. You almost have to be popular if you get anything. What irritates me the most about LinkedIn is this how many new connections people get. I have only six. I don’t know how people get any new one’s. I doubt they know that many. LinkedIn is not like Twitter where you add random people. I don’t know anyone so therefore I don’t have many connections. It’s like school all over. I didn’t have many friends there either. Another thing is jobs you find on LinkedIn. Sometimes I get notifications about jobs I don’t even have any education in. If the jobs are about things I’ve studied, it’s always something I can’t do. You need 2-5 years of experience or more. You must be some kind of genius to find a job in there. Maybe LinkedIn works for some but don’t rely on it too positively.

If someone needs a good domestic spanking are those who think people are over the hill at 30+ in the working world. You don’t stop learning no matter what age. You should never judge someone by their age because all ages are different. You should never assume about anyone before you get to know them. The older you get, the harder is to get hired and only because some people think people are too old. Not just the age thing but also if you have a disability or gaps in your resume, some employers think you’re useless for their business. It’s all about the money and in a way, it’s understandable that they don’t hire just anyone. But you can’t generalise because not everyone is the same. The worst thing is an attitude problem. Then try to stay positive when these domestic bosses or hiring people don’t even want you in their company. Job search would be much easier if they had a heart and not only think about the money. Things were so much simpler when my parents were young. Then you could just walk into a company and ask for work. Now you have to fit in a mould to become anything. I won’t fall for that trap.