Advent Calendar 2024 – Day 9

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Day 9

The worst feeling in the world is jittery. I used to hate it, but as the years have gone by, I’m not as jittery as I was when I was younger. I still don’t like giving speeches or talking in front of a big crowd. Talking to strangers is easier the older you get. You don’t have anyone who could speak for you. If you’re worried about talking to people, you don’t get anything done. I thought I would never get over my jittery when I was a child and a teenager. Even when I went to the store, I wanted to leave there as soon as possible. The more I interacted with other people, the less jitter I felt. Life experiences also make you feel confident and care less about what others might think about you. I still get jittery when I should call a stranger on the phone, and that’s something I should work on. I’m worried they won’t get the message I want to say, and things won’t happen as they should. That’s one of the reasons why I prefer writing an email. But you need to call on the phone for certain things.

Life is easier when you don’t feel jitter, but a little jitter isn’t bad. Everyone can feel it at first. Even people in the public eye might feel jitter in their stomachs before a speech or standing in front of an audience. No one has died of jittery. It doesn’t matter if we make mistakes. We’re human and not perfect. It’s not the end of the world if you screw up. Next time, you can do better. Besides, no one really cares if you make mistakes, and they might not even notice. Things feel much better once you no longer have that negative jitter in your stomach.

Not that fearless any longer

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I used to fear things but became more fearless as I got older. I guess it was because my mother died and I had to be. I didn’t like to talk to strangers, so I didn’t speak to them. It wasn’t because of fear; I felt awkward and wanted to leave. Still, there are days when I don’t feel like talking to anyone, but it isn’t about fear. It’s about being an introvert. Or maybe I don’t have the courage on that day. I think before I speak. Some days, I’m fearless and have no trouble talking to a stranger. The only thing I still fear is talking on the phone. No way I want to do that. I prefer Emails. I don’t answer unknown numbers. Unless it’s essential.

I’m also fearless when I drive a car. I’ve had my driver’s license for almost 3 years and didn’t know if I dared to drive alone. My dad was always with me, but now, when I had to drive alone for a month, I realised it wasn’t that bad. I guess I’ve learned to drive the car. That’s what experience gives you. I still don’t like driving in traffic or on the highway, though. I fear I get in the way or I crash into someone. I drive my dad’s car, which is an older car, so I had to learn how to drive that; it’s only now that I have enough confidence to drive it. The car was a new model in driving school, so driving was different. Both vehicles have a stick shift, but there were 6 gears in driving school when my dad’s car had 5. Driving is fun when you’re fearless.

I can be fearless when it comes to trying new things. Like food, but I want to know what it contains. I’ve cooked new things, and some of them have been good. I have even cooked it again. My mother and I used to try different recipes. She’s the reason why I know how to cook. When you cook yourself, you know what you get. The two ingredients I dislike the most are mushrooms and broccoli. I’m not so fond of cheese either, but in certain foods, it’s alright. I can’t stand it when they put mushrooms in many things. If there are, I take them out. I’m not that fearless that I eat anything.

Being fearless doesn’t mean parachute jumping or rock climbing. It can also be mentally fearless or being fearless in everyday situations. It can be a temporary feeling that might come back, or it may not. We’re all different and see the word differently. That’s something we have to appreciate in other people. You shouldn’t understate opinions about what the words mean to them. You can agree to disagree, but it’s pointless to argue about it. No one should be that fearless to hurt feelings.

Bloganuary: Asking Help with iPhone Bluetooth problem

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What could you do differently?

Bloganuary 2024

What I wish I had done differently was getting that package I ordered to the post office instead of pick up point. My Bluetooth doesn’t work on my iPhone, so I can’t get it out of the locker. I’ve tried a lot of different ways to fix the problem. Updating the software, and reloading the phone. It seems like I’m the only one with the same problem. I even went to the store where I bought my mobile, but they didn’t know what to do either. They gave me a number to call, but what good will that do? I have time until January 12 to get the package or it will go back to the sender. Sigh, I’m lost. I doubt anyone here can help how to get my Bluetooth to work on my mobile. It goes on and off again. The Bluetooth, that is. If something is broken, I’m not gonna buy a new phone just because of that. I reset the network connection, but still Bluetooth won’t work. If I factory reset the mobile, I must start again. All the fuss with the apps and passwords. Seem too much work. It might still not work. Sometimes, technology makes me crazy. Why aren’t these things never clear?! Since the Bluetooth doesn’t work, I can’t download photos to my Mac laptop. Maybe it’s a total lost cost. Does anyone have any ideas about what to do? Or are you as lost as I am about this problem?

What irritates me the most is the package that I can’t get out of the locker because of a Bluetooth problem. I was so looking forward to the product I bought. If I only could get it some other way, but I guess it’s too late. The product is sold out, so I can’t order it again. Not a very fun way to start a year. No Bluetooth, no ordered package. This is not a problem I wanted to start with, but there you go.