I don’t have the slightest inkling how the presidential elections in Finland will go today but I hope there won’t be a second round.
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Mysterious ways
Inscrutable, a word I learned today. One of the synonyms is mysterious. I looked it up. In this self-possessive age where people post anything about themselves online, there is no mystery left. It’s like marriage. If you tell everything about yourself at once, there’s nothing new to know about the person. You should get to know a person little by little. On the internet, you have a choice. You neither choose what you post or do the opposite. You also don’t need to follow the crowd. Daring to be different should be the new sexy.
I think it’s easier for an introvert to keep things to themselves. People might say you’re weird but what is so wrong with that? That what life is about, different people. What is weird to one person, it’s normal for another. Before judging, we should respect others for what they are. If someone wants to post everything about themselves, they should be allowed to. But they also need to think the about consequences. Thinking before posting is a better option. If someone wants to keep things private, they should be allowed to.
I don’t have the need to tell things online. I like moving in mysterious ways. Some things I can reveal about myself like I have on this blog. But I don’t want unnecessary attention. There’s been enough of attention in the past in real life. The internet is a big place and there is a lot of bad people. I’ve had to handle with a lot of a-holes and I don’t want to meet them online. That’s not the reason though. I’m just a private person. My parents gave me enough of attention so I don’t have to search for it elsewhere. I can share opinions and about experiences but that as far it goes. Honor the inscrutable, I say.
Walking in the shadows
Maybe I should stop using social media altogether. I don’t get much reaction very often from what I post there. It feels like walking in the shadows. Not even a single silhouette of me. It’s like talking to a wall or myself. Then again talking to myself isn’t bad. How could I have an intellectual conversation otherwise? A lot of people post things I don’t really care about. Comparing my life with theirs, at least they have an exciting one. Nothing much happens in mine. Social media can be a very depressive place. If you feel down, it’s better to avoid it altogether. I rather do something else than be online.
They say you can use social media in a job search. Oh really? It doesn’t work for everyone. LinkedIn is quite overrated too. I’ve only got one message from a recruiter and that was last year. I think using your energy to something else is a much better choice. Maybe it can work for some but I’m walking in the shadow where no one notices no matter what I do. My network only got 5 people which is even less effective. Apparently, I’m not that interesting to recruiters. But that’s no surprise. They say job search is like dating but I have no luck in that either. At least I’m not alone. A lot of other people have the same problems.
Self- employment is the other option. What worries me about having an own business, is how can I find clients, if my personal account doesn’t get much attention? Getting yourself out there shouldn’t be this hard but what can you do when there are a thousand of others trying to do the same.
I wonder if I chose the wrong occupation, design (web and graphic). There are not many job offers for someone who hasn’t had that much experience. Young people who started in their teens with design versus someone who changed careers at 30 something. Who gets the job? The young person because they’re the future obviously. That’s what the employers are looking for. It’s not just design but photography as well. You must be quite good to get hired. With my skills it’s impossible. I’ve tried to practice drawing lately but I feel it’s a lost cause. Honestly, I’m not that excited about drawing. I would definitely not get a job where it’s required. At least not with this one I drew last night.
My father is a good drawer so he said practice makes you better but I don’t think that works for me. You need the passion for it. I wish I could be as excited about it as I am in fan fiction writing. Other jobs seem so boring. At least in design, you can do the job anywhere. Whatever others say, this is my final decision and nothing will make me change my mind. Then again, that’s what I thought about photography too and that failed.
If I didn’t have this blog and support from you, the reader, I wouldn’t have the motivation to keep going. I would feel useless and untalented. I would probably be suffering from depression if I let negative thoughts enter my mind. I might feel down for a while but unlike depression, it’s just a passing feeling. I don’t want to be famous, I just want someone to believe in what I do. Walking in the shadows should be temporary but no one seems to have the courage to speak up. I rather hear negative comments about my skills than hearing no comments at all. But they don’t need to be criticising. You can say things nicely. If no one never gives advice or comments about what they like about your work, how can you get better? I just want to know if I really have the skill I think I have. I don’t want to continue something I have no future with. That goes with anything life has to offer.
In my world 