“Our list of allies grows thin”

May 16, 2018 Mia3 Comments

In this case, my allies grows thin. I have no plans what to do next. Except for that graphic design course in Helsinki Design School. This heat we have now makes me tired and I can’t concentrate. It’s only May but it feels like summer. I just hate hot weather and I wish it would be over for good. At least there will be some release soon. Summer also mean summer jobs. For young people that is. People go on their holidays and you can’t contact any of the employers. Companies have their substitutes already. Time just isn’t on my side. So isn’t my age.

I’m turning 41 in June and the older I get fewer changes I have. It gets thinner and thinner. It doesn’t help last time I had a job was in 2012 and it wasn’t even paid. I had that on-the-job learning thing but I guess that’s not appreciated either. Employers probably think I’m lazy because I haven’t bothered getting a job. It doesn’t help I’ve studied things. They want people with jobs and not a long-term unemployed person. Not only that but also people with talking skills. I fail at job interviews because I’m an introvert who can’t act extroverted. When I try to find a job to apply for it’s in a different city and I’m under qualified. I got so many flaws and feel I failed at employment altogether. There is no use crying over something that has already happened. I should look forward and keep the faith.

I wish I wasn’t such a dreamer. I should do something about my life instead of complain about it. I just feel I’m a misfit for everything. There are times I’ve felt I belonged. Like in studying but when it comes to making things for a living, I’m totally in a different universe. Once in my life, I want to do something brave and being an entrepreneur is one of them. But it’s so hard to decide to do it or not. I did the course but it doesn’t mean I can really do it. I don’t want to fail and start all over again. I lack the experience of a real paid job but a lot of young people start a business without any experience so that shouldn’t be a problem for me. There are so many questions and thin answers that I don’t know what to do. I read about blogs about entrepreneurs who’s been doing it for years and they make it look so easy. They have their problems but they solve them. It feels like I don’t really belong to that brave bunch. Because they are brave unlike me who do anything to avoid problems. I don’t seem to have that entrepreneur mindset either.

Every time I look for a job to apply for I don’t find anything suitable. I want to give up the job search altogether. Especially that active model Finland has now where you have to get a job or else you lose part of your unemployment benefits. Entrepreneurship looks so much more tempting. Starting one isn’t the hardest part though, it’s what comes after it. My problems are really decision making. As long as I’m healthy and vibrant anything can be possible. If you give up and start thinking you’re not wanted anywhere, it’s then you lose yourself and your hopes will be dashed. Allies might get thin but you can always find new ones. There’s always someone with the same kind of problems. You can find a solution one way or another. The best feeling is when you can share your thoughts with other people and they can relate to it. I really hope this post has had that same effect.

Trash belongs to the bin and not in the forest

May 11, 2018 Mia1 Comment

Imagine, you take a walk in the forest. You hear the birds and the wind. The fresh scent reaches your nostrils. You enjoy the silence and feel relaxed. You’re just minding your own business. You think everything looks so clean. But then while walking down the path, you see someone has thrown something on the ground. It’s probably candy paper or even worse, a plastic bag full of trash. You keep walking and then find another one. Maybe some hiker has left it behind. You’re appalled at the behaviour of some humans. You’re there to enjoy the forest but this untidy person has spoiled your day. Trash belongs to the bin and not in the forest. What kind of moron get to the forest and leaves their trash behind to spoil nature? If you can’t pick up your own garbage, why go to the forest at all? They might just stay at home. There they can throw trash anywhere they want.

People only not leave trash behind in the forest but also in the city. If it’s in a park in some festival or even if the trash bin is close by, they don’t bother throwing it there. The worse thing is the cigarette stubs. There are those in the forest too. It’s so disgusting walking around and then you see that crap on the ground. What is wrong with people these days? Especially in Finland where nature used to be important. There is no respect anymore. I wonder if parents let their kids do whatever they want. When I was a child, we put our trash in our pockets if there weren’t a bin nearby. People have no common sense. The litterbug’s motives are probably to make the world a big garbage bag. Or they expect others to pick up their trash. That’s laziness and uncaring about their surroundings.

Finland is really lucky to still have forests and clean air but that’s something people have no respect for. It should really be banned to throw trash in nature but that’s difficult to control. You don’t even get a fine if you leave trash behind. Also, some dog owners don’t pick their droppings from the ground. Most disgusting thing ever. If you can’t clean after your dog, why have one in the first place? Some people shouldn’t have pets at all. Like people who litter shouldn’t be able to buy anything. The way things are going, nature will be full of garbage and no fresh air anywhere if the attitudes won’t change. Doesn’t humans have any shame? The future children won’t have anything but dirt around them.

Nothing beats fresh air and clean shores. Nature is good for your mental health and keeps your stress away. I love going to the forest where I can be alone. I live in a city where the forest isn’t far and you can cycle there. The best place is in Lapland if you want fresh air. Both winter and summer. Beware of the mosquitos in the summer though. They’re little irritating buggers, I tell you that. Especially the buzz you hear when they’re close to your ear. The fresh air also is good for your skin. The whole atmosphere there is totally different than in polluted city air. A lot of tourists who’s visited the place have noticed the clean air. Well, it’s still clear but for how long, I do not know. The way some are littering in forests and other places, it can be over any day. So please, let’s not litter, OK? We need to leave something for the future children. The forest is our natural resource so let’s not take it for granted.