promises – In my world

This is the last post of 2014, and a new year is approaching. It’s my first New Year without anybody, but I don’t feel lonely. I might be alone but not lonely, so don’t feel sorry for me. I’m a loner, and a new year won’t change that. People make New Year resolutions, but I don’t because you never know what will happen. I don’t make them because why should I lie? You shouldn’t make promises you can’t keep.

My New Year will be as it has been for a couple of years. I’m going to see fireworks for children in the park nearby, then get back home and watch TV. New Year’s Eve isn’t a big deal to me. It’s a typical day, except there are fireworks outside and the World Ice Hockey Junior Championships on TV. When the year changes, there will be a lot of fireworks outside that I can see outside the window, so I don’t need to go anywhere. When you’ve seen one firework, you’ve seen them all. As a kid, they were a big deal, but not anymore. They should ban fireworks for people altogether. They pollute and scare animals, and a lot of idiots shoot them days before the new year. Every year, there are eye injuries because people are too stupid to wear goggles when they handle fireworks. Then, vandals use them in places where they shouldn’t, and hell breaks lose. There should be other ways to celebrate New Year without fireworks. Only the authorities should be allowed to shoot fireworks, not the people.

So, have a Happy New Year 2025 (with or without fireworks). Let’s hope it’s a safe one.

Life is like a TV commercial, promises that are said to help you. But the truth is they’re just a shell with no substance. You should do this and you should do that and a miracle will happen. I’ve had so many disappointments in my life I just want to throw a dart at empty promises. One of the promises I dislike the most is these networking channels like LinkedIn. I’ve been there for 5 years and I only have 7 connections. I think it’s just a place where popular people get noticed. Maybe the service just isn’t for Finnish people. Our country is too small for this kind of thing. If you don’t have connections from your past, there is no use for it. Then you hear stories from people who actually have to find a job through LinkedIn and you just think who did they bribe because that person must be really lucky. It’s just too good to be true. LinkedIn in a job search is useless. I will only keep it as a memo for my past educations and work experiences to remind myself. It doesn’t matter if my CV is in this service or sending paper versions to employers. The result will still be the same, no job.

The other empty promises are education. They say it’s important because you have a better chance to find a job. That’s just BS. All these qualifications are useless. You can have hundreds of them but still, no one wants to give you a chance. The same with internships. If you get one you can get your foot between the door, you might get a job there in the future. Yeah right. All you get is a good luck and they shut the door behind you. Then when you get older, it’s even harder to get “your foot between the door” You don’t even have a look in. The the only use you have for your qualifications is keeping you sane. If I wasn’t used to being unemployed, I would be worried and feel unwanted. Lucky for me, I’m alone and I don’t have to support anyone. It’s different for those who have a family. Some of them can’t even afford food. It’s really difficult to stay motivated when there’s no light at the end of the tunnel. All these tips about how to find a job are empty promises. I’ve never got anything by chance. I’m never in the right place at the right place. There are times I just want to give up and live on well-fare the rest of my life. But I want to have meaning with my life. I want a job and not become one of those lowlives who doesn’t even bother looking for a job. But because I’m not suitable for companies images, I don’t get anything.

You shouldn’t give hope to a person who’s been disappointed so many times. Nothing is worse than empty promises. Telling them to be patient doesn’t help either. How much patience must a person have anyway? Will it take years, decades or never? Politicians are known for their empty promises but it shouldn’t happen in daily life. You learn from empty promises by not getting your hopes up. That’s probably the only good thing that comes out of it. If it’s even good. Next someone promises me something, I’m just gonna ignore them because once you lose trust, it’s hard to get it back. Sometimes it’s gone for good.