It takes skill to keep up with all the bull

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It’s been a hell of a frustrating time. Problems with internet connections. Feeling untalented and unwanted. It takes skill to keep up with all the bull. One of these things is social media and pain in the butt, Instagram. I found a way to post from the computer. Read about it here. But no one likes any of my post I’ve done so far. Maybe no one is seeing it. I guess you have to be an attention seeker to get you a like. I could do with one or two but now I don’t get any. Maybe I’m untalented and no one cares. Instagram is the worse social media platform I know. I’m thinking of deleting the whole account. What is the point of posting anything there? It’s so frustrating. Tags don’t help either. I don’t get how you can promote your business on Instagram. It’s all fake with all these empty promises they make. All you do is get lost in the jungle of all those photos. I was totally against the whole place but yet I still joined it. I wish I didn’t. It’s a depressive place. Other social media platform are no joy either but at least sometimes someone does see what I post. Even though it feels like talking to a wall. This post will be on Twitter but does anyone care?! NO! It’s only boring stuff there too.

I would probably lose my mind if I didn’t have the skill to keep up with all the bull that is going around. Stupid people everywhere. People with no common sense. Sometimes I wish I could throw a rock at them. The news is full of crazy people. Or celebrities having an age crisis. All you can think is, it has nothing to do with me. I have a life of my own. People can do whatever they want. It’s no concern of mine. It’s the world that has lost its mind and not me. I’ve been through so much in my own life so nothing shocks me. If it’s about death or drawbacks in life, nothing really surprises me. There is so much sadness in the world so you need to think about what’s good about it. It doesn’t really matter how many likes you get on social media or how many followers you have. It’s the people in your life that matters. They can give you a hard time too but everything doesn’t always be the way we wish. So I should really stop worrying about if someone likes my post on Instagram or not. Or any other social media platform for that matter. Like my dad usually says, take things like humour. In other words, don’t stress about things. There will always be idiots in the world and you shouldn’t take it personally.


Feast your eyes on this post

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Got your attention? This post is not really a feast though. Boring more like it. Or it depends what boring is. For me, it’s reading uninteresting things on social media. Using it is like talking to a wall or like space where no one hears your screams. I don’t know why I bother posting on Twitter. It’s really rare I get any reactions. Maybe my posts are only interesting to me. People expect you to comment on their posts but they don’t give any to you. The Internet can be so frustrated. You never know if someone reads your things. Like this blog. Sometimes I’m paranoid people like a post only because of the blog title photo and don’t read the post at all. Of course, most do. At least I hope so. Thanks if you do.

Searching for advice from the internet can be annoying too. There are so many different ways to say things. But all this advice doesn’t work for everyone. How to get a job. What to wear on a date. How to start a business. How to get more followers on your blog/social media account. And so on. Everything is romanticised. Real life is different. Things don’t work for everyone. Some people’s lives are destined to fail. They don’t win money. Get their dream job. Find Mr/Miss Right. Travel the world etc. There’s a lot of experts out there who give advice to other people but everything won’t work. You need luck in this world. Even better if you’re young and pretty/handsome. You have to look and be in a certain way to get accepted. Sometimes I hate people. There are so many stupid people out there. Before searching for intelligent life outside earth, maybe they should find them on this planet first. Maybe stupidity is the new sexy. There have always been stupid people but now there seems to be born one each day. Smart advice can look stupid too.

People might not be stupid but they take photos where they look stupid. You see a lot of selfies like that. Someone actually wants to make a fool of themselves in public. You see them in reality shows that I absolutely despise. Programs like that make people stupid. If you want to rest your mind then watch cat videos on Youtube for example. At least those are fun unlike shows like Big brother and crap like that. But who am I to judge. People have the right to watch what they want. If they want to use their energy to that then so be it. As long as I don’t have to watch them. Any reality shows where people make a fool of themselves are in my ‘no way’- list. I’ve got better things to do than wasting my time on those things. People post so many stupid things on the internet because it’s so easy. You can post your opinions anonymously and no one would know who you are. That’s why bullying is so easy. It’s online and it stays there. If stupidity would be a crime, there would be a lot of people getting arrested right now. All we can do is not acting stupid or say stupid things. If we act like any other stupid person there would be no smart people left. So try to be smart about, OK?


The invisible woman

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There is a song by Queen called ‘The invisible man‘ That’s what I feel but as a woman. I’m an invisible individual that no one seems to care about in real life. Except for my dad. I’m totally fine with that because I don’t want that much attention. But when it comes online, I want someone to notice me. Not like notice, notice. I’m not looking for fame. I just want to touch at least one person’s heart. I especially feel invisible when I post something online and no one pays attention. The Internet is a big place and everyone can’t get the same amount of attention. But yet it feels a bit depressive.

When I started blogging, it felt even worse. I did get followers in the end but the beginning wasn’t really pleasant. I didn’t know what I did wrong. Maybe my blog was too different. It doesn’t have what other blogs have. The subjects weren’t ‘sexy’ It isn’t about food or fashion. It doesn’t even help people. That’s what people look for on the internet, information that helps them. I’m the kind of person who searches for answers and not giving them. I don’t have enough of patience to teach people. Even helping my dad with the computer is a pain. If it was a stranger, I would probably get irritated and yell at them to fix their own problem. As the years of blogging has gone by I’ve told myself, so what if I’m invisible, I write anyway. Someone will always notice even if they don’t show it. Maybe I have helped someone but I don’t know it. If you’re a new blogger, don’t worry if you don’t get followers after your first post. If you wait long enough and keep writing, they will come. Some bloggers just get there faster than others.

I wish I could believe in my own advice. I think to myself I’m probably just a boring person that no one takes an interest in. If it’s about writing (blogging, fan fiction) or posting on social media. It’s like talking to a wall. If something good or bad happens in my life and I post it online, I get no reaction. It’s nobodies fault really, it’s just my paranoia talking. Sometimes my pessimism gets a hold on me. I always think what could go wrong instead of taking a chance. It shouldn’t matter if not a lot of people take notice. But that’s the whole point of being online. If you can’t get attention from others, you might just be invisible. I don’t completely trust my online presense when it comes to marketing my skills. It seems everything I do, goes down the drain. It feels like I have no talent and my destiny is to be ignored the rest of my life. If only I could get paid to be invisible and I didn’t need to do anything. Maybe going around poking people and they would wonder what it was all about.

So that this post wouldn’t sound so depressing, this video will make you feel a lot better.