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Only 2 days left

I probably won’t have much use of this photography course in Helsinki Design School when it comes to jobs. But at least I’ve done something. It was fun meeting nice people but after this is done, I probably won’t see them again. I haven’t got any new friends. Most of them live in Helsinki anyway.
There were a few disappointments. The school promised things but they didn’t come true. It wasn’t a waste of money though. I did learn new things. Like how to work in a studio. I used to study photography in 2001 but I never got that far. We also had film developing and taking photos with a film camera. I still prefer digital film. It’s much easier. There’s no need to use chemicals and stuff like that. That was the part that I didn’t like and still don’t.
So when this school is over there’s nothing to do. In a way I will miss travelling to Helsinki and back. Also my class mates even if I never got to know them. They made the studying very pleasant. You could be yourself there. That’s something I haven’t experienced a lot. If the meetings would have been more frequent than maybe things would have been different. But since it was only two days (3 a few times) in a month, it was more difficult to get to know them. But still we had some fun times. A lot of laughs which studying more interesting.
So the last meeting is this Friday and Saturday. We’ll see if I get a diploma or not. I didn’t miss a day and I did all the assignments. That I know of. I’m still not sure. It would suck if I don’t get it. The course took almost a year and then if they say there’s one assignment I didn’t do, I would be really upset. I don’t think that diploma will get me anywhere but still it would make me feel I did achieve something.
“I’m a loser baby, so why don’t you kill me?”
First meeting in Helsinki Design School is over. Even travelling back and forth for 3 days, is exhausting. But that’s the only way. Especially when you don’t know anyone that lives in Helsinki. Hotels are expensive too. Rest of the photography course will only be for 2 days so it will be easier. First I thought, maybe I could sleep over at a class mates house but after meeting them, I rather sleep at home. I don’t think I will get that close to anyone. Since I don’t travel much anyway, a few days a month doesn’t hurt.
Finding the school wasn’t that difficult. Using Google Maps helped. I found the place almost immediately. I wasn’t nervous when I got there. When I was younger I was much more nervous going to a new place. Now I was cool as a cucumber. The class rooms had see-through glass so you could watch what other classes were doing. In the hall there were fashion students working. In the class room there were 5 and a half rows of long tables with chairs. All white. People had already arrived and it was quiet. Only a few were talking so maybe they knew each other. Everyone had a file folder and 2 pencils for jotting. When the class started, the Director of Education talked to us about the school and about assignments. Just the basic. We were about 40 student so photography is very popular. There’s only 3 guys and the rest is girls. There were more applicants that they could take. Good I was the lucky one.
The most nervous thing was the introduction about yourself. A total hell for an introvert. I totally screwed that up. I was so nervous I didn’t even know if they understood what I said. Hearing what fellow student told about themselves made me feel like a loser. Most of them were younger than me and they already experienced a lot. Some had been living abroad and some had an own company. Most of them also live in Helsinki area. There’s was one who was from my city but had lived in Helsinki for some time. I felt like an outsider at that point.
As the time processed to Saturday, we already had a team work under our belt. That didn’t go too badly. I usually fear team work. Bad experiences I guess. On Saturday we had another teacher so we had to introduce ourselves again but this time it went better. I was still nervous but at least I got to say something reasonable. We had another team work. Twice. Won’t go into detail. Something about making your own Brad Pitt. OK, that was just my group 😀 That was much more fun.
I’ve always been bad with names but I do remember faces. Being in a big class like this, it’s natural you won’t get to know all of them. I hope I didn’t give a bad first impression. I might be drawn and keep to myself (liking eating alone) but it doesn’t mean I want to be like that all the time. I don’t really talk to anyone. Just when it comes to school work. I don’t really look for a friend. We don’t meet that often and they live in another city. It’s still early days so you never know. We already have a group on FB so that’s a start. It’s about assignment and school things mainly.
Next meeting is October 24. Before that doing assigments. 2 of them. I just hope my printer have color. They are suppose to be printed on a paper which is a shame since my photos look best on screen. Oh well the teachers better accept the quality they become.
