Maybe it’s the hot summer or because I don’t get many likes with newer posts, but blogging isn’t the way it used to be. I don’t know if if I should break the silence or put on the brake with the whole thing. There are days I think I might write something, but other times I think why I should bother. It isn’t only blogging but writing in general. It feels like all that writing work are a waste of energy when it doesn’t get many likes. I don’t only write for myself. I also want others to read them. I wouldn’t put them online if I didn’t. It goes with blogging and posting fiction, also with social media. Sharing is caring, after all. I could just write things down on paper or private blog. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t post things only to get likes. Internet is a big place, and you never know if anyone actually reads or looks at what you post. They might only click on like by mistake.
I haven’t found a cure for cancer or any other great achievement, but I wish my posts would have more likes after nine years. At least older posts get likes from time to time. Sometimes it feels I’m only starting with blogging. I didn’t expect my blog would attract the same kind of attention as some other blogs do. My life is boring, so I have nothing existing to share. Getting likes or not is not the issue. I don’t know what to write in this blog anymore. Maybe I just need to put on the brake and have a break from blogging a while. Summer is a time when people are outside, so they don’t have time to read blogs. Especially when it’s hot, I’m too tired to think about anything important. When the hot weather stops, I might continue blogging. But you never know, I might still do it. I never know when inspiration strikes.
I haven’t been writing this blog in a month. How fast time goes. There are several reasons. Summer heat (which I hate) Then driving school. The UX/UI design course. And frankly, I’ve been too tired to think about writing anything. It’s been too hot inside, so I’ve been outside where there is wind. I wish this heatwave would be over, but it’s getting hotter at the weekend. Maybe it will cool down next week. I don’t mind warmth, but when it’s over 25 celsius, it’s hell. At least it’s not about 50 like it is in Canada. I would feel like dying if it was like that over here. I wish I could hibernate until the heatwave is over. I wish you could control the weather. I just have to pull through. It can’t last forever. Days like this, I miss being cold.
I wouldn’t say I’m off from the blogging break. It’s only this post, but the next time can be any day. In other news. I will finally be doing the driving test on July 15. I will have a driving lesson before that on the same day. I hope I will pass on the first try. I’ve been watching videos and stuff. The driving lessons are pretty expensive, so I hope I don’t need to do them again. I started in February, so it would nice to finish driving school soon.
I’ve been a bit dreamy lately. The heat, things on TV and just laziness has been on my agenda lately. And writing fan fiction. Sometimes I don’t feel like doing things. But it’s summer and who have time to stay inside to read blogs. Or write them in this case. At least write decent blog posts. I also sleep late so I don’t have the time to do anything during the day. Besides, cooking dinner and sitting on the balcony because it’s too hot to sit inside, has taken all my time so I have been too tired to write any blog posts. Heat just makes me tired altogether.
Also, the movies theatres were opened again. I won 2 movies tickets earlier this year so I used them both. I went to see Star Wars: The empire strikes back and Bad Boys For life again. I’ve only seen the Star Wars movie on TV so it was nice to see it on the big screen. The safe distance in the theatre was 2 benches apart so you didn’t need to worry about the coronavirus. They don’t let in the same amount of customers inside the theatre as they normally do. I actually like this safe distance thing. I don’t like sitting close to someone else. You always only get one armrest and then you sit there feeling uncomfortably the whole movie. I usually go to the movies when there aren’t many people there. I buy my movie tickets online so I can choose where to sit. Or I get tickets for free. It’s not cheap to go to the movies. I belong to a movie club where you can get tickets a little cheaper from time to time. I also take part in a movie panel where you answer surveys and then you get money. They’re small amounts. Mostly under 1 euro. When you have at least 10 euros, you get a movie ticket. That’s how I got to go to the movies more often. I only watch movies I’m interested in.
And the last update of what I’ve been doing lately. I’ve been twice on a bike trip to pick up blueberries from the forest. They say there are a lot of blueberries but I didn’t find that many. It’s much harder to pick up berries than you would think. It would be easier to go to the store or the market to buy them. But when you pick them up yourself, you feel you’ve accomplished something. I got enough to put blueberries with vanilla ice cream though. When you walk around in the forest and try to search for berries, it takes time. Especially when you do it with your bare hand. The berries were quite small so I didn’t take them. It was like searching for a needle in a haystack. You almost need to crawl on all four because the berries are hidden under the leaves in the blueberry plant. There is a lot of bending down and then you’re not really alone. You get to fight off flies and mosquitos flying close to your ear. Then there is no wind in the deepest forest so you get sweaty as well. It’s totally exhausting to pick up berries. Somehow blueberries taste better when you picked them up yourself. I might go tomorrow for blueberry “hunting” to another place. Maybe they’ve already been picked. You won’t know if you don’t go and have a look.