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Advent calendar Box 23

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advent calendar 23Getting close to Christmas. So close it’s already tomorrow. Also, this advent calendar is coming to an end. Tomorrows One Line Sunday post is scheduled. But don’t let that stop you if you want to comment. I’ll read them when I get back home. I won’t use the internet at all the whole holiday. I’ll be too busy doing other stuff.

I want to thank all the likes and comments on this year’s advent calendar. The blogosphere is a great communal place. I’m glad I continued to keep this blog up. There are still days left in 2017 so there will be some more posts before the year ends. Of course, I’ll also tell you how the job interview went.

It’s time for me to take a break and so should everyone else. Everyone have a safe Christmas and be nice to everybody. Let the holidays gather your mental strength so you can cope with the rest of the year.

Advent calendar Box 22

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advent calendar 22Torn

Torn between two worlds

The dream and the real

The fake is better

It’s a world with no worries

There are people in it but they’re nice

In the real, it’s all sorrow and pain

Torn between this and that

In a dream, you get what you want

Everybody follows the script

For real it’s not like that

People hurt you on purpose

Torn between two worlds

I want to live in both

An escape from this one is good

It makes you feel mentally stronger

It’s a gift and not a torn between two worlds

Advent calendar Box 21

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advent calendar 21

Christmas is a miraculous time. Like the job interview, I got yesterday. I’ve never thought anyone would see my LinkedIn profile. That’s how the person who hinted at the job found me. Things like that always happen to other people. I didn’t think LinkedIn, in general, was very useful in job search. It’s for those who have a wide range of connections and had former jobs. I also don’t want to use the premium version that probably could open better options. I used the trial version but it wasn’t really for me. I don’t know how many Finnish employers actually search for future employees there. There are job offers in Finnish but much more abroad. Either way, it really is miraculous that I got a job interview in the first place. That doesn’t happen every day. I didn’t even believe it before I actually read the confirmation email that it wasn’t a dream.

If I get the job, it really will be miraculous. It’s not that I don’t think well enough of my abilities but I still doubt. When you go through life that hasn’t had much luck, you think you’ll never get anything good. As you get older, you realise things could be worse. You don’t need to live like anyone else. Have the courage to stay true to yourself. If you don’t believe in yourself, no one will. I wouldn’t want to go back to the past. There are things that I could tell my younger self. But then I probably wouldn’t know what I know now. You live and learn. Learning from your mistakes is the best education you can get. I wish I would have done things earlier but it’s still not too late.

My goals have changed many times.  As a teenager, I had a feeling I needed to rush things. I wanted to do so many things before 25 and when I did turn that age, that so-called life crisis kicked in. I was so disappointed I hadn’t accomplished a thing. I didn’t even know what I wanted to do. Others had a job and a family to support. I spent all my time thinking about career choices. You hear about 30’s crisis and 40’s crisis but I didn’t have any of those. Maybe I feel attracted to younger men but they just happen to be younger. Nothing to do with age crisis. When the time has passed, I don’t really want what others have. I’m totally fine to be free. I can do what I want and I don’t want to lose that. Maybe it’s selfish but so is having something just because the society expects it. I didn’t rebel when I was a teen like most do. In a way, I do it now. I like being different. People can live their life the way they want. I’ve made a choice how to live mine.