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10 years anniversary

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anniversary

Even if this blog has existed since 2013. My time on WordPress is 10 years. The same as in Facebook. It’s such a long time, it always feels less than that. Blogging is an amble and it doesn’t succeed over night. I don’t know how many times I’ve thought of deleting my blog. It has been a bumpy ride. My first blog was called ‘Not one of the gals’ It was supposed to be about F1 but like my ideas mostly end up, it didn’t go very well. I also didn’t have the motivation to continue with it. At the time I was still looking for my niche and blogging, in general, was new to me. I’ve learned a lot since I started and that’s the main thing. It’s part of learning new things.

Even these days I have thoughts about not continuing posting on my blog. But why should I stop if I really like writing in it? Like I’ve written before, this is like therapy. I can’t please everybody about the subject I write about. I’ve learned to appreciate what I get and what I have. This blog will never be in any special category and it won’t become a blog that gets 1000+ followers. I like small groups anyway. People that do have a lot of followers, usually don’t get personal with you. They might not even read your blog. No one has that much time to read every follower’s blog they follow. I don’t really know why some have the policy, if you follow me, I follow you. Blogging is not about how many thousands of followers you have, it’s about the quality you write. Especially young people think they get respect by having a lot of followers. It’s like going to the store and buy the cheapest item you can find. If you sell yourself cheap, you get cheap in return.

I’ve never really had a goal about this blog. All I wanted was to write my thoughts down and share them with others. I didn’t want to have a blog that is like any other. There’s a lot of fashion, food or lifestyle blogs but I wanted to be different. It has taken a few years to get where this blog has gone. When I started, I did get disappointed I didn’t get enough of traffic and stats were important. Now I’m glad to get at least something. Some people get their blogs out there faster than others. But like in real life, you shouldn’t compare yourself to others. It’s easy to lose motivation if you think no one is reading your blog. But there’s always someone. That’s what I’ve learned from blogging. I’m not good at giving advice but I tell you this.

If you’re new to blogging, don’t give up. Good things come for those who wait. You will get your blog out there one day. Just keep writing and learn new things. If I had given up blogging 10 years ago, I wouldn’t be here writing this. I’ve got a lot of encouragement from other bloggers and that gives me the motivation to continue blogging. Thank you for your time and thank you for being you. Let’s get another 10 years.

Partner in crime

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two lionsEveryone seems to have that one person in life they feel most attached to. If it’s a partner in an intimate relationship or friendship. I’ve had my share of friendships and even a few so called flings. Online mostly. I wish I’ve had that partner in crime I could open up to. Tell them secrets no one else knows about. Doing things we both enjoy. I’ve never had that best friend I could confide in. But I’m a loner and I’m quite used to it. It’s one kind of freedom. I can do what I please and I don’t have to wait for another person if we’ve arranged a meeting. Not having that friend, does have its disadvantages though. Especially when going to the movies. It would be nice to have someone to discuss it with afterwards. There’s a lot of people online who has the same favourites as you but it’s not the same. It lacks the human touch. Friendships seem to walk past me.

I can hear someone suggesting I should find some organisation (or something like that) where I could meet other people. But the problem is, it’s not my cup of tea. Finns especially are hard to become friends with. I know since I’ve experienced it a lot of times. When I studied web design, it showed how much difference there is between Finns and foreigners. They’re more talkative. The Finns didn’t talk to me that much, except one. Finding friends is much easier than finding that partner in crime. I can never found a friend who I have something in common with. Most people at my ages have families or are married. They discuss things I don’t know anything about. Being an introvert makes it even harder to talk to strangers. If I do talk to them, it doesn’t become a friendship.

People look for the one to share their life with but I’ve looked for friendships my whole life. Maybe my destiny is to be alone and I never find that partner in crime. It’s a bit of a dilemma. I want to be alone but sometimes I wish I had a friend to share things with. It’s just that I can never find a person who’s at the same wave length as me. It feels like my life hasn’t changed much. It’s like I mature slower than most people. I’m mentally 16 but others are at their real age. I’ve always felt I was smarter than other people at my age. I’ve never been experimental because I didn’t find anything fun about it. I don’t feel I’ve missed anything. You can’t miss something you have never experienced. I won’t get depressed about how my life went when I get old. I’m not one of those people who will say, I wish I had done that. The same goes with the partner in crime bit. I like meeting different people and I don’t necessarily need a special person in my life.

I’ve mentioned in a few posts on this blog how easily bored I get. The same goes with other people. I don’t want to get attached to people too much. I’ve had too many sad moments in my life. My biggest fear has always been losing a loved one and they all came true. No one lives forever but they were taken too early from me. I’ve also got hurt too many times, my trust is limited. I don’t want to admit it and less think about it. But deep inside I know the reason why I always like someone I can’t have. It’s because it’s easier and you don’t get hurt or rejected. Sometimes it’s hard to like someone from a far. You wish they could know you but you’ll never meet them. A fantasy does never become reality. You can’t make someone like you the way you like them. Life is not a soap opera where you do anything to make that person yours. I don’t even think I could stick to one person the rest of my life. No matter if it’s your partner in crime in friendship or an intimate relationship, it’s better to live alone than suffer from heartache. It might sound harsh but if you’ve gone through life the way I have, your trust in people is hard to get back.

Tallenna

Tallenna