The Daily Prompt – Page 66

Fragrances

The worst smell in the world is smokers. There lives a few in my building and in my dad’s as well. You can’t be in peace anywhere. Even sweat smell better than cigarettes. I wrote a post about that before. This post is the 2nd part of it.

The other disgusting fragrance is people who wear too much of it. I have an atopic skin and strong smells are bad for me. I have to hold my breath and I start to sneeze. I get eczema if I’m around strong smells for too long. That’s one of the reasons I can’t work as a cleaner or in a working environment with strong detergents. It’s the same with cigarette smoke. I just can’t be around smokers. When smoking was allowed in restaurants or pubs, I couldn’t be there. Now they all outside so I can’t be there either. Either way, I never go to pubs anyway because they’re boring.
Some people have no respect for others. They splash their perfumes like they haven’t showered for years and then they get out in public to spread their odours around. I can’t even walk past a perfume shelf in the store without feeling a headache. I always walk pass them while holding my nose. Even if I used perfume on myself in the past, I always sneeze so I don’t use it anymore.

I don’t know what kind of poison people use when they wash their clothes. Every time I go to the laundry room in my dad’s building, there’s always an awful smell in there. There are washing powders that don’t smell but some seem to buy something cheap. Maybe they put more than they should. It’s probably something that is bad for the environment. That’s the problem with having to use the same laundry room as other people. Sometimes I wish we had a washing machine of our own but the problem is a lack of space to put the things to dry. You just have to accept how things are. So far I haven’t got any other symptoms than eczema. Some people are even more sensitive to strong smells than I am. For them, fragrances are a nightmare. If people would be more considerate of others, then people with hypersensitivity of fragrances could enjoy life more. Instead of using perfumes or aftershave for men, how about taking a shower instead. Clean is the new fragrance and the ozone layer will thank you.

white gate You might know the saying, ‘When one gate closes, another opens’ I’ve had a lot of those but unfortunately none of them has been the right one. If it’s about what schools I’ve attended, places I’ve been to or the people I’ve met. I’ve learned through life that it doesn’t matter what you’ve done in the past. All you can do is look forward. At least to the near future. People I’ve met when I was a kid doesn’t matter anymore. That’s why it’s called the past. I don’t want to keep in touch with people who didn’t appreciate me and I don’t care what they do today. They’re irrelevant.

If I had a time machine, I wouldn’t want to go back. It would have been nice to keep my mother alive though. But you can’t change the past. Maybe I’ve said this before in some post but if I hadn’t been through what I have, I wouldn’t be the person I am today. Things you go through in life are a lesson you learn and you do things a different way. There are mistakes I’ve done several times just to make sure and I’ll continue to do them. It’s a mistake I make every time I meet new people. Maybe they’re not mistakes but a part of my personality. First I decide to be brave but when the time comes, I get back to my shell. I just don’t feel secure enough around people I don’t know. I’m not an open book but still, people notice I’m an introvert. In their eyes, it’s shyness since the word introvert is not a familiar word. I shouldn’t need to explain myself to others. It’s their problem if they don’t want to approach me because I’m reserved.

The most difficult gate to open is finding a job. You would think someone with different skills would get a job easier but it’s not. The older you get, the worse it becomes. A real job with real pay and not an internship where the employer gets cheap labour force. I can’t seem to get my foot in the door of any company. What’s the point of having a couple of degrees when you can’t impress anyone who could hire you? I do admit I’m a bit lazy to send out applications but when you can’t find anything suitable to apply for, then I can’t find the point of applying to just anything. I’ve applied to two companies who do web design but no luck. I’ve had problems of finding my niche in careers and when I finally find one, it’s not good enough. Maybe it would be better to start working for myself instead of working for someone else. It’s getting more tempting as the autumn gets closer. I did enjoy the time when I worked for a client on the job learning. Having a choice when to work was freedom. I’ve always wanted to work on the internet so maybe web design is the answer to my wishes.

I’m actually bored with trying to find the right gate of life. My sin is laziness. I lack ambition and I’m always been afraid of taking risks. There are things in life that I will miss having to experience but I’ve settled with my destiny. Even there’s still time, the fact is I’m not getting any younger. If they made a movie of my life, it would be the most boring movie ever made. On my tombstone, it would probably say, ‘She lived’ and that’s it. The harsh truth is some gates will be unopened and that’s something you just have to accept.