Bloganuary: Step back in time

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Day 21. If I could step back in time, I would return to my childhood at the beginning of the 1980s. My family was complete then. Both of my grandmothers were alive, and my sister. I would relive those times when I was a small child. You have no problems, and you live a carefree life. I don’t remember much about that time. There are bits, but it would be nice to see how it was then. I miss Christmases the most. We always spend it within the family, and when my sister died in 1983, things weren’t the same again. Our family got smaller and smaller. It’s only me and dad left now. We have different videos of the times we spent together, so I can go down memory lane when I want to remember how it was. And photos, of course.

I would also like to see how my life would have been if things had turned some other way. How my sister would be like as an adult. Maybe the death of our mother would have been a bit easier. Or what if mother hadn’t died so soon. Thinking about these things are needless because life is what it is. Everybody dies one day. It would be nice to go back in time, but what happened then is in the past. You should live in the present because that’s something you can control. But playful thinking has never done anyone any harm.

Forward with the time

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I wish I could forward the time. Skip all the boring parts of life, like with blogging and starting a post. Sometimes I don’t know how to describe things in words. No matter what language it is. How to find the subjects is probably one of the most boring things. I don’t know how pro bloggers do it. At least I don’t have the same pressure to blog. I can write when I feel like it. But still blogging is hard when it comes to finding subjects to write about.

Sometimes it feels I’m repeating things. I don’t want to sound boring or uninteresting. More importantly, not to bore me. I still blog for my health. Therapy session, if you like. The only difference is that I share it with other people.

Sometimes I wish the time wouldn’t go so fast. When I started to write this blog post on my phone, it was close to 4 pm. Now it’s already over 10 pm and the time is going too fast. I had other things to do in between. I write the rest on my laptop. So that I have time to do something else before bedtime, I end this blog post here. Good evening and goodnight.