Abrupt for a moment

May 2, 2018 MiaLeave a comment

On Facebook there is a section called ‘Did you know’ There are random questions you can answer. You can also add questions yourself. So if I could abrupt you for a moment. I’ve collected 20 question below. It’s quite long so be prepared. So here we go, as The Joker says in ‘The Dark Knight’

1. The person I’d love to invite to my birthday party is…
Quite convenient because my birthday is in a month. I wouldn’t have a party. Maybe a party for two and that would definitely be with Tom Hiddleston 😉 And/Or Lee Pace.

2. Beard or no beard?
It really depends on the man. I prefer stubble the most though.

3. If I could be famous for anything, it would be…
A web designer or photographer.

4. I’ve never been able to correctly say the word…
Photographer. It always sounds quite awful when I say it out loud. Failure is also a difficult word to pronounce.

5. A dream trip of mine is…
New Zealand. Since I saw Lord of the rings. It’s quite expensive so it might never happen.

6. My favourite sport(s) to watch…
Ice hockey and tennis. I haven’t watched the latter lately though. I’ve seen ice hockey live a lot of times. The atmosphere is amazing.

7. If you want to make me happy, just give me…
Chocolate. Dark mostly would be good. It can be Toblerone or Finnish chocolate from Fazer.

8. I’d love to be an expert in…
I’m not really an expert in anything so it would be nice to be great at something. Probably in web design or something else creative.

9. When I can’t sleep, I think about…
A lot of things which is the reason I can’t sleep

10. I’m a huge fan of…
Music, movies, crime shows, British comedy.

11. I feel faint when…
When I see Tom Hiddleston and Lee Pace. It’s not just their appearance but also their personalities.

12. I deserve the award for…
My tolerance for idiots. They seem to be everywhere.

13. For me, there’s no better therapy than…
Writing. Fiction and blogging. Music is also helpful.

14. My first scare was…
I saw a real moose when I was 2 years old.

15. If I could bring anyone back to life, I would bring back…
My mother and my sister. Things would be different if they had been around a bit longer.

16. Thanks to the Internet, I have been able to…
Meet people from different parts of the world. That’s cheaper than travelling.

17. My hidden talent is…
I can make different sounds and talk in accents. Or some kind of accent that is. It might not sound real but still.

18. The subject that I was bad at in secondary school was…
Math and I still do. I had remedial teaching but that didn’t help much. I have a mild dyscalculia so numbers can be confusing. Especially when it comes to counting. I have to think really hard so I rather not do Math at all because it just stresses me out.

19. If I found myself on a desert island, I would like to be with…
Shall I say it again? OK, Tom Hiddleston and/or Lee Pace.

20. A good excuse for eating ice cream is…
Every excuse is good. I eat ice cream all year around. But of course in the summer when it’s hot, it’s the best reason.

In the shelter of my heart

November 7, 2017 MiaLeave a comment

two love locks — Blog title from ‘Shelter’ by Duran Duran

I get weak but I never faint. Even when I fell off my bike and fractured my elbow some years ago, I didn’t faint. I could have but luckily I didn’t. It would have been a bit embarrassing if I had. I was out in public at the time. There are people who can be so nervous so they faint. I had a classmate who did that when we rehearsed for a performance in 3rd grade. I don’t know if he was nervous though. When you faint it’s because of lack of oxygen in the brain. Sometimes I do feel like I could faint but that’s only because of certain people who I find desirable.

Yesterday when I was at the movies watching Thor: Ragnarok, I could have fainted of all the beauty on the screen. Well, Loki. I laughed so hard too, I could have fainted. Luckily I was sitting down. Actually, everything Tom Hiddleston does makes me want to faint.

Some people faint when they see blood. Even if needles scare me, I never feel weak when I see one. Uncomfortable, yes but that’s about it. Since I have never fainted, I don’t know how it feels. I hope I never experience it either.

In his deep blue swimming pool

November 2, 2017 MiaLeave a comment

sunbeam — Post title “I Believe/All I Need to Know” by Duran Duran

I have all these thoughts that simmer in my mind about what I want to do in life. It’s a deep blue pool but I don’t seem to find a lifebelt to save me from drowning. When I do get an idea out there, it seems to disappear into outer space with the rest of them. It’s difficult to stay positive when life gives you sour grapes. I keep searching for something but I don’t know what it really is. I used to have doubts about this blog too. I didn’t think it would get this far but I didn’t give up. People have found it even if it did take about 4 years or so. At least it feels that long. I wish I could be as patient as I have been with blogging. It feels like my life is getting shorter and I don’t have time to do anything before I leave this earth. But it’s not the end. I still have at least 30 years left of working years.

My life hasn’t been the way I expected it to be. I thought I would have a career by now but it’s not even close. I have no special goals and I have no ambition. People at a young age know what they want to do and they get to a position where they get experience. There’s a lot of younger people than myself who works in web design and they’ve come much further because they started when they were in their 20’s. I’m not even sure now if I really want to be a web designer. It felt like a good idea earlier in the year but now my uncertainty has come back. Maybe I’m just afraid to start anything. Now I don’t have a teacher to help me. Everything seems easy in my head but when the time comes to do something, I back off. I wrote about the life after web design education in my other blog so I don’t want to repeat things.

You might think only ordinary people have problems getting started but it can happen to anyone. Even the most obvious ones. For example, you would think someone like Tom Hiddleston would have got movie roles easily but it isn’t so. They say he wasn’t made for the big screen and that he wouldn’t get roles in blockbuster movies. Or something like that. If he had given up a movie career, it would have been a great loss for all of us who like him. No one has said to me I can’t do it but I can imagine how it would feel like. When I hear stories like that, it gives me motivation to not give up. If I only had the courage to do something instead of complaining about how difficult things are. Maybe they’re not at all but my subconscious is holding me back. I got through difficult times before and I conquered them all. What I plan to do next shouldn’t be impossible. It might simmer but not boiling over. I need to stay grounded and better things will follow.