It’s you, not me

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Some might think I suffer from some kind of encephalopathy. But it’s you and not me. My brain works just fine. I’m not the one who leaves things lying around in the street. I don’t litter in nature either. So who has something wrong with their minds? Sometimes you would think some piece is missing from their brains. How difficult is it to put trash in a bin? Especially now when people need to wear a mask. Some people don’t care and throw them everywhere. It’s disgusting to see those things on the street. The same goes for cigarette stubs. Even if the bin is near, they throw them on the ground. Littering in the first place is so uncivilised. What are people, animals? Even animals are cleaner than humans. It’s a disgrace. Adults teach kids to live around trash. No wonder oceans and seas are full of all kind of crap. Kids are our future, they say. I have no hope in them if they act the way they do now. It won’t help if only some youngsters care about the environment. We all should do something about it, or the future world will become a big trash can.

I like learning new things, but sometimes it can be something you didn’t expect. Yesterday, I had a driving lesson with a real car. It was quite difficult to drive it because it’s a new model. The handbrake is only a switch, and there is no key to start it. That’s only a button. To make the car move, you should lift the clutch up slowly. If you do it too fast, the car moves faster too. The same with the break. If you push it too hard, it jerks. When you have to use the clutch so much, your left leg gets tired. The whole lesson went to learn about the car and how to use the clutch. I drove around the block in a quiet street. There wasn’t any time to drive longer than that. I’m worried I might crash because the car wasn’t the same as I have driven before. I let the teacher drive back to the driving school. So I have to take at least 4 hours more of lessons because I won’t get past the test with only one drive. It’s a bit weird to learn to drive a newer car when you have a totally different one. Driving any car isn’t as easy as it looks. You need to know the gear by heart because you need to see where you are going. It’s not easy to see from your driving seat to the other side. Especially when you’re not experienced enough. When you’re driving, there is so much to do and see. I don’t know how someone can look on their mobile when they drive. It’s really dangerous to do so anyway.

At least I use my brain. Unlike certain others. You would think employers have a brain shortage of some kind because finding a job is like trying to make sense of something that is obvious to you but not to them. Having educations and good health doesn’t mean you will get hired. I’ve applied for a job, but I won’t get it because I don’t have experience. I don’t want it now anyway. It’s useless to use your brain cells to search for a job. It makes me go round a twist. Not as much as littering and people who don’t care about anything but themselves, though. They should have their brain checked. Maybe you can find some kind of encephalopathy in them. At least it’s not me; it’s you.

I leave you with nothing

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When I die I won’t leave a legacy of any kind to anyone. I probably give all the money to charity and the stuff I probably throw in the trash. I won’t be remembered for anything special. It doesn’t really matter what happens after my death because, well I’m dead. Some people want to make a big deal of what they leave behind. I only want a normal and quiet life without unnecessary drama. I don’t need to impress anyone. Not everyone will leave a legacy and it doesn’t matter either.

I settle for little. I don’t know why you should do anything special in this life. If you want to be at the top of the world and you don’t feel complete unless you experience something out of the ordinary, so be it. But don’t expect others to do the same. I only want to do things that please me. I don’t need excitement to feel human but not being bored either. Pleasing at least one person is enough. For example at work when someone tells me I’ve done something right, it feels I’ve accomplished something good. I don’t need fireworks to feel needed.

There are many who use social media to feel important. I got back to Instagram yesterday (@liuzzia5) because I got a better phone (Apple iPhone SE2020) and I can download it again. Even if it’s a popularity contest the whole app I still use it. It’s a bit of a waste of time if you ask me. I have never really gotten the point of the whole thing. I only get a few likes and sometimes none. But I only use it for my own amusement. I never know what kind of hashtags I should use and I don’t bother with it. It takes all the fun out of Instagram. I prefer Pinterest more than that because there you don’t need to think that much about hashtags.

In certain things, I wish people gave me more likes. E.g. graphic design or photography. Comments would be much more prefered though. Maybe social media is not the right platform or something for that. I don’t want to become famous or anything. Or leave a legacy for the future generation. But knowing I’m not wasting my time on something I’m not really good at would be nice to know. Maybe I’ll always only remain an amateur. I know I should be more confident in myself. Right now I’ve been too tired after work so I haven’t had time to think about what to do after my contract ends. Not to mention about the legacy I’m not gonna leave behind.

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