My mind corruption began with Christian Bale and then Lee Pace continued and now Tom Hiddleston is there to finish the job.
When I thought about fungus I thought about fungus in your feet. Not the one you can eat. I don’t like them anyway. In a way, a lot of things in this world is a fungus infection. A sickness that makes the world go crazy. Not just people but things in life. Adults get mad at teens worrying about climate change. Even neighbours in the place you live are one kind of fungus infection. Those who don’t care about anything but themselves. Having loud parties or bullying with their smoking or instrument playing. Violence against other people and so on. If you just stand by and watch it all, you’re part of the problem. Thinking you can’t do anything about certain things is just laziness. If there’s a will there’s a way. Especially if it’s about climate change. In some things, it’s also about attitude.
Many people have this belief what they see is what they get. But looks can deceive. Recently there’s been talk about how young people are not satisfied with the way they look. Some have a certain look and people see them as weird. I’ve had the same problem when I was younger. Then there weren’t any Instagram and all those things. Then it was people in school who judged you. It’s no wonder people get depressed these days with all these beauty standards. It’s so much about appearance. Things are not what they seem so people should stop judging someone the way they look. You don’t know their story. The fungus infection of society is the judgement of differences. They say you should be yourself but then you’re not allowed to be different. You have to be in a certain mould to be accepted. Sorry to disappoint but the world doesn’t work that way. This planet is for everyone no matter how they look. Don’t get me started on relationships. Especially celebrity ones. That’s a freak show of its own.
Another fungus infection is an argument between the employed and the unemployed. Mostly those people with jobs. Some think people without work are lazy and all they do is lay down on the couch. FYI I don’t even own one, hahaha. It’s easy for those to say who can master the a§§kissing in the job search. If you’ve never been unemployed you don’t know how it is. All the unemployed are different so don’t go and generalise if someone actually is lazy. Some actually do want to work but is not given the opportunity. It doesn’t matter how much you beg for a job because it doesn’t pop up just like that. People are too easily judged and that’s the worst fungus there is.
First some bad news. I wrote about this education and now I know the result.
I applied to employment training in digital marketing and e-commerce just to have a plan and because I’m interested in it. It’s a long way to that and I don’t even know if I get in the course.
I didn’t even get an interview so that was a waste of time. I could have started something but now I’m a bit down. I guess when I apply to an education where you need to explain why you want to be in the education I don’t get a chance. Not always but most of the time. I don’t know why it took so long for them to decide. I applied in June and I don’t even get to the interview. That really makes a person feel unwanted. I could have done something else besides waiting. Deep inside I knew I wouldn’t get in. It was a far-fetched anyway. I could get that knowledge elsewhere. I’ve already tried to study digital marketing on Google but I didn’t pass the test. In the education I applied to was an internship involved which is probably the only reason I applied. Now I don’t get that either.
I don’t why I bother doing anything. My plans all fail anyway. It’s really difficult to keep the motivation going when you feel you’re not succeeding. Never give up they say but how can you be positive when life kicks you in the exhaust. Over and over again. You get an error not once but several times. You feel everyone else does things much better than you. You don’t get over that feeling no matter how people try to put positive thoughts in your head. Many times you see how people have succeeded even if they’ve failed. But I don’t think I feel that lucky. I’m probably had so many drawbacks I’m too afraid to start anything. Maybe if I was in my 20’s I could have better chances but you can’t go back in time. I don’t mean it’s too late but now it’s much harder. Some things just make it too impossible. Some people look at other people on social media and feel depressed about how they look. I look at people’s skills and I feel depressed how bad my skills are. Maybe not bad but I’m insecure about them. I don’t think I get any better no matter how much I practice.
Looking on the bright side. My life is not an error. In some things, I feel secure. Like in writing. I’m good at that and I feel confident in it. I don’t get paid for it but still, it gives me satisfaction. If I did get paid for it, it probably would feel forced. Having it as a hobby, I don’t get stressed and I can write about things I want to read. If I didn’t have anything my life would be much more boring. A person needs to have at least one hobby to escape reality for a while. After that, it’s much easier to cope with life.