Success? What is that?

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When someone says the word “success,” it reminds me that I have not had much of it. I don’t remember them. I don’t really know what that means.

I only remember negative things. I haven’t had success with friends, my career, or the things people usually do. But I don’t need to. I want to be different. For me, success is in small things. Such as.

I learned a lot, and I’ve experienced things that some people haven’t. And I mean good things. For example, I know how they make movies. I’ve studied screenplay writing, and we filmed a movie scene from the scripts we wrote. There was no time for mine, but it was fun to film.

I succeeded in not falling into bad habits like drinking alcohol, smoking, and doing drugs. I haven’t seen a point in it.

I succeeded in learning English. I know more English than I did when I first learned it. I was in 3rd or 4th grade. It was then that we began to learn English in Finland.

I succeeded in traveling with my parents. So far, I’ve been in at least 13 or 14 countries. All in Europe. Now that they have passed away, I go alone. But traveling is expensive, so I’ve only been on cruises to Stockholm. After my dad passed away two years ago, I went to Stockholm overnight. It was the first time I’d traveled abroad alone. The last time I went was on my birthday, June 2. Some people never go anywhere, like my next-door neighbors. Poor kids who never see the world. Not even the city they live in.

I succeeded in finding an occupation that I was looking for. It took years, and when I finally did, I didn’t get a job. No clients to start a business. And no money is coming in.

I succeeded in going to live concerts. When I was younger, I never went to concerts. I didn’t want to go into crowds. But then in 2017, I went to see Robbie Williams. And after that, I got the bug to go to concerts. My dream is to go abroad to see a concert, but I don’t have the money. Duran Duran is in Stockholm in the Autumn, but that will remain a dream.

Small successes like that. But success that other people might think is. A good job, a family, or fame and fortune. If you have no respect for others, including those who are different. Think you’re above others because you have it better than they do; success doesn’t matter.

Even if you don’t have big successes, small ones should be enough.

I know you're there. Why do you linger in the shadows?