Open up to you and I don’t even feel lonely

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There is a new prompt challenge out there called Discover Prompts and it started yesterday. Today the word is open. But I also take part in Ragtag Daily Prompt. So I open up to you and I don’t even feel lonely. There won’t be any big secrets or anything like that. The break from work is now until May 13 so I have a lot of time on my hands. I still get paid which is good. I was only 2 weeks at the job until this coronavirus thing happened. I rather stay home then go to a job where there is nothing to do. And staying healthy is the most important thing. Here we don’t need to stay home but I stay home anyway so there is no difference. I’m open to doing anything I want. I never go anywhere anyway. The store is the only place I go to. I don’t understand why people don’t want to stay home. Is there something there they don’t want to see or what? People have no imagination so they ‘complain’ they have nothing to do. I’ve got plenty to do. There is nothing wrong being bored anyway.

This is a good time to watch old TV shows on Youtube. At the moments I’m watching ‘Matlock‘ The only problem is that there isn’t the last episode of each season. That is a shame. It’s a murder mystery show with Andy Griffith as Ben Matlock. The show is usually about 45 minutes long and sometimes there are two parts. I love a good mystery murder shows. I hope I could find ‘Murder, She, Wrote’ but I guess that’s quite difficult. I don’t think I could write a murder mystery. You need a brain for that. A brain that can work with stuff like that. It’s easier for me to write about romance without many deep details. Writer’s who can write about murder and the dark side of human behaviour really are geniuses. I really admire writers like Agatha Christie and authors like that. If I wasn’t lazy I would read books like that but I rather watch a TV show about murders. When I was 7 years old I watched some murder show in secret from my parents and I saw nightmares after that for at least 3 nights. But it hasn’t stopped me from liking movies and TV shows about it. Too much violence is always too much. I don’t like Tarantino’s movies, for example. Except ‘Jackie Brown’ There isn’t much violence like in his other movies.

The time that is now it’s good to think about other things than just what is going on in the world. People should learn to relax and this is the time to do so. I opened up what I’m doing now and I don’t feel lonely. I’m alone but never lonely. I don’t know have time to feel that. There are many other things to do. You just have to use your imagination. Now it’s time to open that book or whatever you fancy.

No need to hold my hand

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Actually, this coronavirus is a blessing in some way for me. My free time from work is now extended to April 13. That means it’s also during my real holiday, which is Easter. No need to hold my hand because I always know what to do. It’s the same if I didn’t have a part-time job. The only thing that it’s different is that I still get paid. Another thing is that no one wants to shake your hand. I never really understood why you have to do that when you meet a new person anyway. The same with the hug thing. Then there are fewer crowds around and you can walk around in peace. I’m not a person who likes to show emotions in public. It depends on what it is though. Couples holding hands is another thing. Are they afraid they get lost from each other or what. I just see no pointing in it. Kissing in public is also gross. Each to their own. Personally, I wouldn’t do it in public no matter how much in love I was. You can tell someone you care without touching.

I don’t need to hold anyone’s hand when it comes to choices. I’ve chosen to go my own way and not depending on friends or classmates. I’ve studied things I wanted to study and not what others have wanted. Some teenagers who went to high school only because their best friend did. But I could never have done that. By the time I was 17 I wanted to get out of school. High school wasn’t for me. Besides, I hate reading and I hate Math too. I prefer doing things which is one of the reasons why I’ve chosen to study creative things. Even though was first education was in healthcare but I only went because my mother said it was at least something. I’m actually grateful for that now. Otherwise, things could have been different. Some people would probably say, at least you would have better job opportunities if I’ve continued to study health care instead. But I hate needles and not a fan of blood either. I always thought you should study things that interest you and not because it pays well or there are more jobs available. I will rather be unemployed than be in a job I don’t like. I don’t why you should be pushed to do something you know you’re not suitable to do.

Advice is always welcome but I rather do my own decisions. I’m not driven by money or ambition. I’m driven by independence and feeling good about the things I do. There is no need to hold my hand. I can found out things on my own. Maybe I need guidance at first but then I can do it by myself. Maybe not when it comes to writing articles or making leaflets about events at work though. I’m still not confident enough when it comes to that. I still haven’t got used to the workplace ways of doing things. Learning that is now on hold because of this crisis we have in the world at the moment. Who knows how long that will take. I don’t need any hand-holding to that either because bacteria are everywhere and washing your hands after you touch stuff is no brainer. Certain people just don’t see the obvious so you need to hold their hand. Metaphorically speaking of course.