From a circle to a spiral

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So back to work on Monday won’t happen. Now it’s pushed back to August 2. Oh, well at least I don’t have to go anywhere. There is no summer holiday after all. Only ‘holiday’ as usual. How things change, from a circle to a spiral. The circle being the straightforward thing. While the spiral is not knowing where to go or do. Nothing new will happen. Things will be the same as they always been before I had this part-time job. I won’t get any job experience. A lot of people have needed to change things because of the coronavirus. At least I’m financially secured so I have no problems with that. Now I can concentrate on things I usually do. I don’t get paid for it though. Right now it’s good to live in Finland. The coronavirus here hasn’t been as powerful as in other countries. Even the restaurants and other places are being opened next week. I fear there will be more sick people after they open them. We can only hope this virus won’t be around forever.

I have always had trouble concentrating on one thing at the time. Even if I hear a sound elsewhere, I get distracted for a while. I also have different thoughts in my head. It feels like a spiral in my mind. I can have one thought and then it changes to something else. It’s like my brain has ADHD. I have a mild ADD (never officially tested) but I don’t know if that’s the only reason. Even when I write this blog I get distracted. I could write one thing and then the subject would change to something else. I do try to stay on the subject though. My mind is mostly more spiral than a circle. Maybe that’s one of the reasons why I have a vivid imagination. I have a knack of making up stories, a.k.a. fiction. Sometimes I get totally in the story and forget the time. Then other times I get nothing and I get no ideas. When I do, it’s back to the spiral mind. If I didn’t, I would get bored very quickly. Days just fly by even if the days are the same because I still get things done. It might look like I don’t do anything but my mind works all the time. If that was a job I would probably have more money than I do now. I never let myself get bored and it doesn’t matter if I am because a mind needs to be in a circle once in a while.

Summer bloom in Finland

white evergreen rose
White Evergreen Rose by ©Mia Salminen

Summer is coming to Finland or it’s actually here already. Today (May 26) it was over 20 celsius outside. People wearing shorts but they probably would anyway even if it wasn’t. Brave little folks, they are. The most irritating thing about this summer talk is the media bragging about how hot it’s gonna get soon. Well, I don’t want it and it’s not lovely at all. You can shove it up there with your heat records. I hate the word ‘helle‘, which means ‘heat‘ in Finnish. Every year it’s the same praising like that’s something new. There has always been warm weather here at this time of year. Maybe people forget so they need a reminder. I rather not hear about it, thank you very much.

Summer has it’s downsides but also good things. One of them is a bloom in a lot of places. Flowers, plants or whatever you want to call it. Also, there will be leaves on the trees so when it’s hot, there are shadows where you can go under. Summer used to be my favourite season but not so much anymore. When you’re a kid, things are different. At least you don’t have to feel cold. Summers would be nice if it wasn’t hot and the media wouldn’t go on about how lovely it is. If it rained all summer I wouldn’t care. I would welcome it. Without water, there wouldn’t be any blooms anywhere so people should stop being so morose when it rains.

Next week it’s my birthday (June 2) so after that, the Autumn can come. Nothing would matter after that. This summer will be different though because then I’ll be in my part-time job. If and when I go back next week. Then there is the 2 week summer holiday which I never had. Except in school but that was different then. I’ve been in a job in summer before but then that wasn’t a paid job. Holidays are just a time when you don’t have to go to work. It’s like being unemployed but you get paid for it. There won’t be much travelling this summer anyway. It would be nice to go somewhere but this summer you can’t. I wouldn’t even want to as long as the coronavirus is going on. It’s better to stay home than get infected. Either way, there will be a bloom everywhere that will keep our spirits up.