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What am I going to do with you?

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Source: http://www.getorganizedwizard.com/blog/2013/11/easy-ways-change-life/

There comes a time when you feel like you’re too lazy to do anything. You feel like no one really cares what you do. You try to find the motivation but you can’t find a solution. You might even get depressed for a while. You try to concentrate on other things. But even those things are not good enough. You don’t know what you’re doing wrong since no one seems to pay attention. Deep inside you know someone does care but still it feels like there’s no point.

That’s how I feel about this blog. I don’t know what I’m going to do with it. I used to have a lot of subjects to write about but now they just sound boring. Not even I would want to read it. I’ve thought maybe I should write about personal things. But then it would be like any other blog and I don’t want to be like everybody else. Who would want to read about my boring life anyway. There’s nothing in it worth writing about. I’m an introvert and I rather not talk about private things. I’m also a Finn and we don’t make a lot of noise about ourselves.

I don’t know if people actually read my blog. The traffic seems to have calmed down. Maybe it’s because it’s summer and people are outside. But also because I haven’t written much lately either. That’s where I come to the motivation part. I don’t know where I want this blog to go. I feel like I’m alone with my thoughts. Maybe people just doesn’t like the same things I do. The same with my other blog But that’s probably because it’s kind of new and maybe people just don’t read fan fiction. It would be nice though to get some reaction from people from time to time.

The same with this blog. Compared to other blogs I mostly get likes but that’s alright. At least that’s something. When I started this blog 3 years ago I didn’t even think I would get over 200 followers. For me that’s a lot. It’s about quality, not quantity. I don’t need a lot of followers to feel special. That’s for people in their teens who still have low self-esteem and wants attention.
I still want this blog to be about things I like. But I also wish it would be more interesting to others. Now it’s just me writing and wishing if only someone would just give something back a.k.a comments or likes. I have few ideas but they always turn to bad one’s. I shouldn’t really stress about what others think. It’s my blog after all and I should still keep it up. But I need to change it for my own good. If I find my own blog boring, how would I think everybody else would feel.

Oh look, a new layout

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Probabaly a boring subject to blog about. But as I like changes, I changed this blogs layout. It’s The Nucleare Theme. I only use free themes since I don’t own a credit card. The free one’s are good enough. I also never know how long I keep the same theme so there’s no point paying […]

Only 2 days left

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I probably won’t have much use of this photography course in Helsinki Design School when it comes to jobs. But at least I’ve done something. It was fun meeting nice people but after this is done, I probably won’t see them again. I haven’t got any new friends. Most of them live in Helsinki anyway.
There were a few disappointments. The school promised things but they didn’t come true. It wasn’t a waste of money though. I did learn new things. Like how to work in a studio. I used to study photography in 2001 but I never got that far. We also had film developing and taking photos with a film camera. I still prefer digital film. It’s much easier. There’s no need to use chemicals and stuff like that. That was the part that I didn’t like and still don’t.

So when this school is over there’s nothing to do. In a way I will miss travelling to Helsinki and back. Also my class mates even if I never got to know them. They made the studying very pleasant. You could be yourself there. That’s something I haven’t experienced a lot. If the meetings would have been more frequent than maybe things would have been different. But since it was only two days (3 a few times) in a month, it was more difficult to get to know them. But still we had some fun times. A lot of laughs which studying more interesting.

So the last meeting is this Friday and Saturday. We’ll see if I get a diploma or not. I didn’t miss a day and I did all the assignments. That I know of. I’m still not sure. It would suck if I don’t get it. The course took almost a year and then if they say there’s one assignment I didn’t do, I would be really upset. I don’t think that diploma will get me anywhere but still it would make me feel I did achieve something.