So tired of waiting

waiting

I won’t get upset if internet is slow or doesn’t work but when you want to blog and post it, that’s what I have a problem with. For example, the dorm I live in during weekdays has a very slow internet connection and sometimes it doesn’t work at all. It suffers from mood swings. I can’t even post it on the class computer because I don’t remember the password to WordPress. I have to write this post in the Word document so I get at least my thoughts written down.

What I hate the most is waiting. I hate waiting for the mail to arrive if I’m expecting something. I also hate to wait for people. If there’s a meeting at 3 pm then you should arrive that time. When my mother met someone she knew, she always stopped talking to them and she talked a lot. I never liked to be near so I waited from far away which was irritating. It hasn’t changed since then. I tolerate it but I rather not wait for people. I also hate to wait for people to answer emails. Especially when you really need an answer as soon as possible. I understand if they’re busy but don’t make me wait for weeks.

Back to the internet connection at the dorm. Some idiot is probably downloading something from the internet, taking all the wifi range. Or the wifi is just crap. But it’s annoying to use internet at the dorm. Waiting, waiting and waiting for things to download. That’s one of the reasons why I haven’t blogged much. You never know if the connection doesn’t hold when you hit publish. The same goes with reading other blogs I follow. I can only do that when I’m home at the weekend. The internet connection at the dorm is not the only irritating thing but that’s another subject.

Tallenna

When I realized

snickersbarcoverSometimes things doesn’t go the way you plan it. I’ve had dreams and ideas about what I want to do for a living. But there’s always something else happening. For me thoughts and ideas have changed through the years. What I wanted to do when I was a teen, doesn’t apply anymore. For example, I wanted to move abroad but I never got that far. I realized how much you have to do before you do. It was just too complicated and things are just so much better over here. I’m never been brave enough either. I guess the love for my country has got me to stay here.

There was a long time I wanted to become a pro photographer but after I studied photography in Helsinki Design School last year, I realized that’s probably not for me after all. It’s also a very competitive profession. There’s so many of them and I don’t have that much patience try to become a better photographer. You really have to have a very strong will to succeed in that business. You don’t photograph for yourself, you photograph for the client which is the downside. But don’t get me wrong, I still want to do something with photography but not as a professional. I don’t even think I’m that good. To become good, you need to practise but I’m not that enthusiastic. I’m a so-called “mood photographer” I only photograph when I feel like it. I don’t go around carrying the camera wherever I go. I take it with me if I’m going somewhere special. That’s one of the reasons why photography should only be a part of a job.

I’ve realized I can’t write or blog everyday because there’s always something wrong with the internet connection in the dorm where I live on weekdays. It keeps cutting off which is so annoying. I couldn’t write the blog about my studying in web design and I can’t take part in #everydayinspiration either because of slow or no connection at all. It feels like I’ve been without internet for a week when it’s actually only been one or 2 days. Things moves so fast over there so if you’re out of it for a while, you’ll miss quite a lot what goes on in the world. There’s too much information so you don’t really need to know everything. I only use internet at home. Some people seem to have the urge to be online wherever they go. Luckily I’m not one of those people. It’s no big deal if the internet is off. Sometimes you need a break from it. It’s like meeting a friend. It’s good to have but it’s also good to be a part for a while. That way things doesn’t get boring. That’s something people need to realize. Internet is not the whole world, it’s just a part of one.

 

 

Tallenna

Tallenna

Day 2: Too expensive bucket list

bucket_plus_listPeople keep this something called bucket list. Never really understood what it is. I never plan ahead. I don’t have any special goals. I wouldn’t care less if I didn’t experience things before 30, 40 or any other age. If I had a list, my goals would be too expensive to do anyway. Other thing is not being brave enough to do them. A bucket list doesn’t need to be something that costs money. But in my bucket list they are. So what are they, you ask.

Here are top 5

  1. Travel by plane
  2. See an NHL ice hockey match in Canada
  3. Go to Paris
  4. Be part in a real movie production
  5. ?

Explanations

  • 1. I’ve written about this before on this blog. I’ve never been on a plane, honest. I’ve always travelled other ways. I don’t know how it would feel to be in one. It’s also expensive to travel this way. At least I save the environment by not flying.
  • 2. I don’t actually follow NHL. I love ice hockey and it would be great to see a game. Feel the atmosphere. How the fans react in the big world. I especially want to experience that. That’s something you don’t see here in Finland. Some fans make sounds and cheer but the rest only watch a game and then go home. It’s totally different over there.
  • 3. My parents have been in Paris when they were young. We have travelled in Europe but not there. I don’t speak French so English would be the only language I could use. Would be nice though to learn. I would love to see the Eiffel Tower, sit in a café watching people walk by and just walk around. This is something I could actually do if I had the money. Maybe one day.
  • 4. I have made a short film in school and studied screen play writing. Would be nice to be in a real film production. It’s fun but hard work. I wouldn’t want to be in the movie itself. I don’t even have to work. Just to be there for a day or two to see how it’s done. After seeing the behind the scenes on DVD in both Lord of the rings and The Hobbit, I wanted to be in  one even more.
  • 5. This is quite a dilemma. It could be something travelling or it could be meeting a person I admire. I’ve actually already met one, the ski jumper Janne Ahonen. The meeting was short but still.
    While I wrote this part, there’s actually one thing. Seeing a Formula One race. I’m not much into that anymore but still that would be one thing I could do if I had the money. It could also be some other motor sport event but I won’t get into that.