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A muse who doesn’t know it

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mymuseAre you one of those who has a muse but they don’t know it? If it’s a no then I must be one of the few ones who has. I don’t know if I can call it a muse though. It’s more of an inspiration. I write a lot of fan fiction. Mostly real person fiction in an alternative universe. Some people think that’s creepy. Writing about a real person who exists. But I don’t care. People who write slash are weird but I don’t complain about it in public. I don’t actually write about that person. The only thing that’s real it’s their appearance. It’s not like the person I write about will ever even find it. Why would they care anyway? Besides I only write for fun and it shouldn’t hurt anybody.

I wrote about my love of writing fan fiction before but I’ve never written about who I find my inspiration from. Or muse if you like. When I wrote Formula One fiction it was Mark Webber. Then I wrote one with tennis and my muse were Novak Djokovic. That I wrote for myself only.
When I “discovered” Lee Pace there has been no turn back. I don’t even realise how many fics I’ve written about where he’s included. Even if my stories have other actors (Benedict Cumberbatch or Richard Armitage) he’s always the inspiration or muse. If it’s from the characters he played or the man himself. I don’t know if it’s a good or a bad thing. Actors has always been a weakness of mine. The first fic I ever wrote was about an actor. There’s just something about Lee that keeps me coming back. Even the next fiction I’m planning at the moment includes him. If I don’t write them, I read. I think the reason why I started to write my own was because I didn’t find stories I was looking for. I love writing about him so why should I stop?

Recently I’ve read fictions about Tom Hiddleston. I haven’t watched him in anything except ‘The Night Manager’ and haven’t really cared for him either. Until I read those fics. Never underestimate the power of fan fiction. It has inspired me to include him in my stories but since I don’t know much about him, it’s more difficult. He doesn’t give the same inspiration Lee does but that shouldn’t stop anything. There’s so many great one’s out there so a muse can also be other fictions. Mine will never be as good though.

I don’t know if I would even want Lee to know what I write about him. It’s not that it’s embarrassing, it’s more about do I want my muse to know what kind of mind I have. It would probably freak him out or something. Still, a muse is a muse and there’s nothing one can do.

 

My very own mind palace

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A sanctuary doesn’t have to be a place that exists. It can also be in the mind. Sherlock has a mind palace but so do I. It’s not the same kind he has though. Mine is more like a place for my thoughts and feelings that I usually don’t show to other people. It’s an escape from reality. If I didn’t have a place where I can collect my thoughts, I would feel depressed and life in general would be much harder to handle. Some of those thoughts I write in this blog or in fan fiction. Besides writing is cheaper than going to therapy.

Sometimes I’m so deep in thought, nothing is disturbing my concentration. I can listen to music at the same time I’m in my mind palace. It’s only if there’s talking and can lose my focus. Even if I was in my thoughts I can still hear if someone wants my attention. That’s one of my strengths, observant. That’s something not a lot of people have. It can make people upset if I don’t answer them. But I actually do hear even if it doesn’t show.

If I didn’t use my mind as a sanctuary I would get mad. I need a place where I can live in my fantasy world. In that world everything goes as I want it to. If I could live in a different world than I would want to live in there. I think the reason why I sometimes get to my fantasy world is because the bad experiences I had since I was 6 years old. I think about things I wish I could experience and how thing could go. Sometimes I’m a different person in them. It’s not that I don’t like myself, it’s more about getting away for a while. A holiday from yourself, if you will.

I love writing fan fiction. People who read them don’t actually realise I put a lot of myself in them. I’m not much into writing things in detail. I write them in English so my vocabulary is limited. I’m not very good at describing a person in detail. Sometimes I struggle with it so I usually don’t bother with it so much. I mostly write about people who already exist so I feel it’s not very important. I rather concentrate on the plot. I’m not writing a novel after all. I write them because it’s fun and its good practise. When I read fan fiction I wrote years ago and compared them to what I write now, I’ve got better.
That’s where I use my mind palace. I think about a story in my mind and sometimes I close my eyes to imagine how things look. I have to get my thoughts out of my mind somehow. I get to that fantasy place when I feel life is being a pain but I also go there when life is bearable. I’ve always loved writing stories and been good at it. Reading a book is not the only way to develop your imagination. Other people read books, I read fan fiction.

So there you go. My sanctuary is my mind palace. It’s a place I go to whatever I’m feeling. It’s good for collecting thoughts but also a place where I go when I’ve lost something. I close my eyes where I go through my mind and try to remember where I saw the object last. Sometimes I find it and sometimes I don’t. In a way I do have a mind palace like Sherlock, except I don’t solve crimes. If you don’t have a special sanctuary, then try your mind. It’s free and you can take it anywhere.

Tallenna

On a journey and back again

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Princess Maria, Harbour of Helsinki 2016

Back from Saint Petersburg. Took over 300 photos so it will take some time before I get the report ready. That’s a journey I want to tell you about in later posts, dear readers.

When one journey ends, another begins. Actually life in general is a journey. Some have more and some have a less exciting ones. What I dislike the most is the tension I get when I experience unfamiliar things. It feels like my stomach is in a knot. It’s not anxiety, it’s just a temporary feeling that goes away after a while. It used to be much worse when I was younger. Even going to the unemployment agency was something I hated doing. Any social gatherings made me nervous. My heart was pounding like crazy and I kept thinking about everything that could go wrong. Even if my mother told me it’s just jitters and it will be a relief when it’s over, I was still nervous. She was right though which I only realised when I got older. It’s OK if you make a mistake. It’s human. Everyone gets nervous, even the famous ones.

Next journey I’m going to is an interview for a school I applied to. It’s in a small town in Western Finland. I sent the application before the holiday and there are gonna be an interview next month. It’s a Web Designer schooling, if anyone’s interested. I’m not very good at interviews so we’ll see how it goes. Since it’s in a small town, I’m a bit sceptic about how I’m gonna feel at home there if I get into the school. Living in a dorm again is a bit of a turn off. There are rooms for one but there are not many of those. Sharing a room with another is not my cup of tea. At least I get home on the weekends. The education takes about a year so maybe I manage. You never know what kind a journey it’s gonna be. Another concern is how to get there. The bus is the only thing but which one, that is the question. That’s another journey entirely.

There are some nice journeys and some bad. Even blogging is one. The difference is that you don’t need to go anywhere. I do like going to places but most times I don’t have the courage to do them. Some do things, I dream. If I lived in my head, the world would look different. In your mind things go they way you want them to. But then reality hits you and your dream bubble burst into pieces. If I go through life the way it is and I’m still around when I’m old, then I’ve done something right. My journey through life probably won’t be very eventful but it’s better be safe than sorry.

 

Tallenna