Juxtapose of a Gemini

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As a Gemini, I have two sides. One is the quiet and observant introvert and the other is an opinionated and honest individual. But only when I’m around people I know. It’s a juxtapose of a Gemini. Most people don’t realise there is another side of me. But they don’t usually bother to get to know me better to find out. If I act differently from the usual people are surprised. I do have that ‘crazy’ side but I only show it to the right people. I might look serious but I can be silly too. It just needs to be the right moment and mood. When I’m comfortable with someone I show that other side to them.

I don’t know what it is. Maybe it’s an age thing but recently I thought about past happenings. People I met and so on. Especially experiences from the opposite sex. I won’t go into detail since it’s personal stuff. Let’s just say, it feels like I attract idiots to myself. It’s either guys I don’t feel drawn to or it’s guys that are idiots. Mostly the latter. No wonder I fall for men I can’t have. It saves me from heartache. I never meet anyone like Tom Hiddleston or Lee Pace. OK, I don’t know them for real but they seem decent and not arrogant at all. But there’s is no such men in real life. They probably wouldn’t even look my way. Some men expect women to be like models but the men themselves look like they’re from a horror movie. It’s all true, good men are hard to find. They either taken, gay or idiots. If I used something like Tinder I would probably be rejected there too. Some might be scared to be dying alone but I don’t stress about it. Once you’ve seen the promising land, single life, there is no turn back. That’s better then be cheated on or be dumped because of the guy found someone much younger than you. At least that’s what you read about. It doesn’t mean it would happen to me.

I’m more than meets the eye but it’s always been about looks. Even in friendships. From my experience, girls especially, are quite judgemental. If you don’t do girly stuff, you’re out of their circle. This is just my point of view. It doesn’t mean it’s entirely true. I met women who aren’t like that at all. But when you’re a teenager, these things affect you. I guess my former classmates were self-observed. They probably didn’t even have bad skin. If girls don’t judge you, then the opposite sex will. Being yourself isn’t enough. You also have to look like any other girl/women. I don’t envy teenage girls of today. With this internet thing and all. It’s a sensitive age where this kind of things can affect you. It doesn’t help that these celebrities date or marry beautiful people. Boys see these girls/women and they grow up thinking this is what women should look like. I think it’s a bit strange how these celebs find these people and even marry them. How could they know they find the one? Do they choose them because they don’t want to be judged by other people? I just think it’s isn’t entirely possible to find the one among beautiful people. It could even be me. What I’m saying is, looks aren’t everything but in my world, it seems to be. I’m a likeable person and I care about others but I don’t get any credit for that. But because I look the way I do, I get overlooked.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. If someone judges you by your appearance, they only look down on you. People like that are not worth having. It’s really their loss if they don’t want to be your friend or date you because of the way you look. I used to feel so worthless and unwanted. The good thing about getting older is that you stop caring what others think. I’m happy for who I am and I don’t need to change because someone has a certain formula to go by. I don’t have to act or look like any other female. I’m a tomboy for crying out loud. This post, in the beginning, might sound I felt down but that was an hour ago. That’s a juxtapose of a Gemini, I change my mind all the time. What I don’t change is my way of looking at the world. I try to stay positive even if it’s sometimes hard. I wish others would think more about deep things in this superficial universe. There are more important things to care about than how you look to other people. All that matters is that you feel good about yourself and you’re proud of who you are.

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The Finnish flag 100 years today

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Flag of Finland is 100 years old today (May 28)

Today the Finnish Flag is 100 years old. It’s a ceremony that only happens once. It didn’t always look like it does now. Here you can see the alternatives. I think it’s good they decided to have the blue cross on white background. There are certain rules when it comes to our flag. For example, you’re not allowed to write or draw anything on it. It’s disrespectful and you can get a fine for doing so. Even wrapping it around your body is a big no. A lot of athletes does this when they win a competition which some people don’t like at all. But I don’t know if it’s totally forbidden. On Midsummer Eve the flag is hoist to the flagpole and it’s there all night. That’s the only time. Other times it’s only hoisted until the sun goes down.

We’re very proud of our flag. It shows our patriotism and togetherness. Nothing beats the feeling when the flag is hoist when Finland wins in sport or other events. For us, it’s the most beautiful flag in the world. It represents what the country stands for. White is for snow in the winter. Not every winter though. At least not in the South. Blue is for the lakes and the sky. The cross is for Christianity, the most common religion. No matter where in the world Finns live, they’re proud of where they’re from. I couldn’t imagine where to have been born elsewhere. I haven’t always appreciated it. When I was a teenager, I wanted to live in the UK. But growing up here has been much easier. With the school system and all. Like wearing a school uniform like in the UK. So glad we don’t have anything like that here. There are so many things here that aren’t anywhere else. It does have its disadvantages but what country doesn’t.

This is the day for the flag of Finland. 100 years is a long time and I hope our flag will never change.