Find yourself in the moment

Canada goldenrod fluff
Post title from ‘All you need is now’ by Duran Duran

When I think about fluff I think about fan fiction with no special plot. My life is a bit like fluff. I have my moments but I don’t have a special goal to achieve. I just live for the moment. Don’t ask me what I’ll do in 5 or 10 years since I don’t even know what I’ll be doing tomorrow. I can have plans what I want to do but it takes time before I even try. I guess it’s because what has happened in my life. Unexpected deaths in the family and my school years. I don’t want to think about the future. I’ve had more downsides than upsides so I’ve learned not to expect too much. Life is a mystery and I don’t want any surprises I haven’t waited for. Sometimes I lose faith in me and other people. It’s easier to live for the moment. Less you expect things, less disappointed you will be.

I don’t compare my life with others. I want to be an individual who doesn’t walk the same path other people do. There was a time I wanted things other people had but now I’m happy the way things are. I could always be happier though. Having a job I really like doing is one thing. I also want to see places without having to think I can’t afford it. Money doesn’t make you happy but it’s always nice to have it. I’m totally fine with what I am and I don’t need anyone’s approval. Like I wrote yesterday in One Line Sunday. I’m grateful for what I have. My life is fluff and I don’t need a special plot to keep going.

What I prefer

orange post-it

I used to make a list to me about which one I prefer the most. It could be a colour, a person or just about anything really. I did it for fun. I drew 3 boxes on a paper. The middle was neither way or both. A bit like the one on the photo above. This time I’ll do it differently so here we go.

Blue or White

Blue. White makes me look pale. Blue is also my favourite colour. When I was a child I used to stay in the swimming pool until my lips were blue. I liked it that much. But that’s just a fact about me so that’s not the reason why I like the colour the best. My eyes are blue too.

Comedies or Romantic movies

Comedies definitely. The only romantic movie I like is ‘Sleepless in Seattle’ I think romantic movies are too boring for my taste.

Loki or Thor

This is a difficult but maybe Thor. I have this love/hate feelings towards Loki. I find him irritated but yet if he wasn’t in the Marvel movies, I wouldn’t care much. It’s also because of Tom Hiddleston. Later on that.

Instagram or Pinterest

Pinterest because it’s more versatile and you can use it better on the computer. Instagram is kind of new to me. I’ve only had it a couple of years. The problem with it is that you can’t post there from a computer. I use it more for looking at other people’s photos than posting my own.

Dark hair or Blonde on men

Tall, dark and handsome. Cliché but so true. I’ve always fancied men with dark hair. In the end, it doesn’t really matter what hair colour they have. It’s about the person anyway.

Cat or Dog

Neither but if I had to choose it would be a cat. I used to be terrified of dogs but I guess time heals. Cats are more independent so you don’t have to take time out for a walk few times a day. I’m actually a bunny person. Those were to only ones I dared to touch. Even though when I see photos of both on Instagram, I could almost get one. I don’t have the time or money to have a pet though.

Tom Hiddleston or Channing Tatum

This is a no-brainer. Tom obviously. I’ve never understood the Channing fascination. I never found him attractive in any way. I don’t know much about his acting skills since he makes movies I don’t care much about. He had a small part in the Johnny Depp and Christian Bale movie ‘Public Enemies’ but that’s all.
Tom on the other hand, wow. I could talk about him all day. I tell you a secret. He’s (and Lee Pace) the inspiration for my poems on this blog. I never thought I would like him this much as I do now. That’s what you get when you stare too long. Acting skills and appearance etc.

Summer or Winter

Winter because of snow. When we get it that is. Some people think it’s too cold or too dark but it suits me much better. Summer is too hot and too light. Summer is good if the weather is mild and it gets darker later. I still prefer winter though.

Lastly but not least.

Walking or Running

Walking. I hate running. It feels like my legs are falling off. It’s sweaty too. I have sensitive skin so it begins to itch and I get a rash. It’s very unpleasant. I also hate being in a hurry. Walking is much nicer. My walk is usually fast-paced but sometimes I walk slowly too.

So that’s what I prefer. Feel free to comment or ask something if you need some clearance of what I wrote. Maybe some of you like the same things or maybe you have something to add. If not, I hope you enjoyed this blog post.

 

Tallenna