Making your own luck doesn’t exist

March 17, 2017 MiaLeave a comment

stick boy Whoever says you can make your own luck, haven’t walked in an unlucky person’s shoes. If you can make it yourself, then they really are lucky. Everyone is not born with luck. You can’t choose where to be born or who your parents are. You can achieve a goal but you need some luck in that too. You can’t make your own luck because there’s so many ways to lose it all in one go. You can do everything right and yet something can happen. No one can be lucky all the time. Things misfires when you least expect it. You can go somewhere and you still don’t meet someone who can change your future. You can get lucky but you can’t make it by yourself. Those who think they can, are lying to themselves. What happens to you, depends on other people. Innocent people in war zones can’t make their luck. It’s the society that bring luck or bad luck to people.

Luck only seem to happen to other people. Just because someone has been lucky enough to make their luck, it doesn’t mean it will happen to you. There’s a lot of different advice online how you can do that. But I think they’re all nonsense. For example, working hard for your goal or make something crazy. It’s all pure chance, not luck. You won’t become rich by making your luck. You can’t make yourself be in the right place at the right time. Getting a job in your ideal company or study to become something you dreamed on. It’s luck that gets you to a place and not how you make it yourself. I’ve been lucky I have got the educations I’ve applied to but I didn’t make my own luck. All I did was writing the right words in an application. The rest was pure luck. If that only would happen when it comes to applying for jobs.

I’ve been unlucky in finding clients for on the job learning period which begins on Monday. I had 4 but now I only have one because the rest didn’t get in touch after a few emails. That’s not enough. I want to graduate and if I won’t get more, I won’t. I guess the word free doesn’t mean much for some. When the school is over, my luck could be returned to sender. In other words, getting real clients who pay. Now it’s gaining experience and it’s part of the education. I’m worried no matter how much I work, it won’t be enough. You need luck to be in competition like web design and I don’t have enough of ambition in me. I give up easily. Having luck in education and having luck getting a job, is a different matter. You don’t make your own luck, it’s the people you meet or don’t. With my luck, nothing special will happen. I’ll never “bump” into someone who’ll change my life around. It’s more likely to get hit by a car than having my dreams come true. It’s a harsh comment but I don’t have the skill to make my own luck.

Tallenna

I got an instinct feeling

March 15, 2017 MiaLeave a comment

You can call feelings anything you want but I call it instinct. I mostly do things by following my instincts. It’s a reason why I do things slowly. Feelings does have something to do with it though. For example, I got a feeling things won’t go the way they should but it’s also an instinct that it’s actually gonna happen. It doesn’t have to be anything bad. Maybe it’s telepathy but sometimes I thought the same thoughts my parents had. Especially with my mother. We could have said something out loud, the other had thought about. It’s kind of strange but I guess it’s a family thing.

Everyone goes through what they want to do when they grow up. Choosing the right career is easier than for some. You neither follow your heart or your head but I follow my instinct. I know what suits me and what I like to do. But finding it in the real world is difficult. There’s always something in the way and then I give up. What is the point of trying, if your instinct says it’s not the way to go? Sometimes I tell it to shut up but it doesn’t listen. I don’t have the guts to continue pursuing my dreams. You shouldn’t give up, just because someone says you can’t, right? I like being in my comfort zone. I wish I could be braver but when I try, I get back to my shell. I’m surprised I haven’t become a total loner who lives away from society. I don’t know how I can succeed in anything that contains human beings. I’m good with people as long as I don’t have to interact with them. That doesn’t go very well with the education I have chosen.

I probably have to think things through once again. I don’t seem to find my place in anything. My instinct is being really negative. These days you have to advertise yourself, making a brand. For a person like me, it’s not the easiest job. When I read experiences from others about what kind of degrees they have and everything there is to do, they still have no job. What if I become one of those? Education of different kinds and still no one hires you. That’s a destiny no one wants to be in. If you become self-employed, you need to do everything yourself. If I find it hard to find clients now when I study, I wonder how it’s gonna be in real life. I don’t dare to think. I don’t have a social circle and not much luck with anything really. One thing I do have, is support. From my father and friends online. Without that, I would be miserable. My instinct says I should be patient and that’s what I’m gonna be.