So excited I can’t hide it

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OK, I’m not. You won’t find any ebullient in me whatsoever. It’s back to the same boring life as before. If I do have that enthusiasm, then it’s short lived. The only exciting thing I will have is back to school at the end of this month. At the beginning of this year I had ebullient thoughts but now they’ve faded. It’s still early though so maybe it will come back. You don’t need to start new things on the first day of the year. It won’t spoil the whole year. So I’m been lazy and slept too long. Maybe I’m just gathering my strength for February. I’m really slow at making decisions because I look at many different angles. I’m not gonna rush things. If others can’t accept it, then it’s too bad.

I really admire young people with their hopes for the future. Some of them believe they will find a job in their field after they graduate. That’s what I thought too. But life doesn’t go the way you think. Of course, it’s great if they really get a job. But everything isn’t that obvious. It goes with everything in this life. I had plans when I was younger but they didn’t come real. My plans have changed a lot since then and I don’t think I would want to have the things I wanted in the past. I keep both of my feet firmly on the ground and don’t get too ebullient. You need to be realistic. Life is not a movie where everything is written in advance. You can be ebullient for a while but then get back to reality again.

Anticipate the future is the hardest thing

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Another new year is here. It’s 2019 and another opportunity to plan ahead. But to anticipate the future is the hardest thing. Don’t ask me what I do in 5 years because I don’t even know what I do next week. I can only wish things but they won’t become reality. Life should be full a surprises and not something you plan ahead. People make bucket lists or make new years resolutions. I don’t make neither of them. It’s a waste of time and they never come true anyway. I don’t hesitate with decisions. I just hate rushing things.

Having so many disappointments in life, you don’t expect much. You appreciate the things you got. People usually complain about things they don’t have. I don’t want to be one of those people who doesn’t see anything good in anything. I always try to see good things in everything. I didn’t plan my life to be in the state it is now. But the past is the past. I only want to look forward. I can look back at the past for a moment but then move on.

There is at least one thing to look forward to this year. A certain thing that really is going to happen. That is the graphic design course I’m on. It ends in June. There is still things to learn and things to do. One is a portfolio that we’ve gonna present in front of the class. I hope that goes well because I don’t like public speaking. I’m not as nervous about that as I was before. Of course, it’s easy to say it now. I can never anticipate how things like that will go. I know when I get there. I haven’t started planning the portfolio yet so I don’t know what I put in it. It’s not the first time I make a portfolio so there are no problems in that. The thing is what work to put in it. The other thing is what to tell about the assignments I’ve done. Finding what your strength is also difficult. The best thing about presenting your portfolio is straight feedback from the teacher. It’s a long way to the presentation day so no need to stress about it.

Don’t need much money

 

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Don’t need much money

I don’t need much money to be happy
Some want to fill their pockets corpulent with money
Money makes the world go round they say but not my world
I want to have enough to get by
I don’t need much money to feel human
My pockets are not empty but they’re not full either
Having your health and a roof over your head is what counts
Billionaires aren’t really happy but yet they don’t share
Greed is a nasty thing and I don’t want to be part of it
I don’t need much money but enough so I can feel secure