The pulse is rising

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A lot of things makes my pulse rise. People who have no commons sense. People who litter, adults cycling on the pavement, people who blast their car stereos, smokers, drunk people, dog people who leave their dog’s droppings on the ground, people who brag about their life on social media, slow wifi, loud people, selfies, rich people who thinks they’re better than ordinary people. So basically everything that is wrong with this world. Hot weather is also something that makes my pulse rise but that’s something you can’t control. Some things you just have to live with. Not all is negative though. Positive things make my pulse rise. Watching my favourite movies over and over again. Listening to my favourite bands and artists. When I’m excited about something my pulse rise.

The only time that I don’t like my pulse rising is talking to strangers or going for a blood test (I hate needles). I don’t like being nervous. I try to avoid things like that. When I do meet new people I try to be positive and not stressing about it. I used to be so nervous when I went to new places. Even going to the jobcentre made me anxious. I wouldn’t want to go back in time. I’ve learned through life experiences to have another approach on things. Introverts are usually worried about what-ifs instead of thinking, so what if things go wrong. I try not to stress about it. Everyone feels insecure sometimes. It’s not the end of the world if things go wrong. Unless it’s a life-threatening situation. If you fail at something, do it again. The reason we’re afraid of failure is that we’re too worried what others might think. That’s a pulse lifting situation. Once I stopped caring about what others might think of me, the easier it has been being in new situations. The main thing is that you know who you are.

The pulse is also rising when you really like someone. Even thinking about that person makes your pulse rise. That’s a pulse that is quite pleasant. That’s better than the pulse you have when you feel anxious or something really makes you angry. If your pulse is rising for no special reason then it must be a health issue. Too much is always too much. If humans wouldn’t have a pulse, we would be robots. Without a pulse, there would be no life and that’s a comforting thought.

 

Around the world, in my head

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View of Saint Petersburg, Russia, 2016

Not having enough money to travel sucks. You can’t go anywhere because your travel budget is empty. You can only go to places that don’t cost you much. I wish I could go to any place without having to think about how much it’s gonna be. But I don’t think I ever will. We went to Europe after my sister passed away but I was so young I don’t remember about the trip. It would be nice to see those places as an adult but you can’t have everything.

I wish I could travel to New Zealand but since I’m not blessed with money so that will remain a dream. The only travel around the world is in my head. My dream is not a trip around the world though. Everyone seems to want to go to Asia or America but I’m not that keen. There are a lot of places in Europe I haven’t been to so I would do that first. At this moment I wish I could travel to a colder climate. Like Iceland. But again money is the issue. If only money would grow on trees. I really like travelling. It’s nice to see new places. I couldn’t travel alone because it scares me. The only time I travel alone is to school if I study in another city. I wouldn’t want to travel with a lot of other people because there’s always someone who gets drunk or behaves badly. Travelling with classmates is the worse. I rather travel with a person I know well.

I and dad are planning to go somewhere this summer but everything is so expensive. Going on cruises to Stockholm is a bit boring since we’ve done that so many times. It’s been 2 years since we were in Saint Petersburg and I still haven’t written a report like I said I would. I don’t know if I remember much about it anymore. One of these days I will finish that report. A short one but still. I’m not very good at telling about my travels. We’re travelled after that too but it’s all those old places like Riga. We’ve been there at least 6 times on a Christmas cruise. It’s so easy when everything is done for you. All you need to do is enjoying the trip.

I’ve been to 10 European countries, Finland included. Germany is the country abroad I’ve travelled the most in. In 2008 I went with my parents to Rostock, Lübeck, Bremen, Hannover, Berlin and the island of Rügen where the Nazi Germany beach resort called Prora lays. It’s now been renovated but when we were there it looked deserted. My favourite was Berlin. You can really feel the atmosphere when you walk where the Berlin wall used to be. During the trip to Germany, it was as hot as it is now. But when we got to Berlin it was much cooler. That’s the only reason it’s my favourite. There so much history and so much to see. We went up to the Berlin Victory Column and there were so many stairs to climb. But when you got up there, it’s all worthwhile. What a view there was. I don’t like heights so I stayed close to the wall. The walls up there were really beautifully painted. As soon as I took photos of it I wanted to go down. I only had a video camera to take photos with so the quality wasn’t the best. I’m not even sure where the photos are so I can’t show you. We took a lot of video but I haven’t watched that in years.

We were thinking about going on holiday to London or Paris but we don’t have that kind of money. You almost need to be rich to see any places in the world. Or marry rich. Some people never get to travel because they have to pay the bills and other necessary things. I’m glad I’ve been to places. A person who has been outside their own country have another look on life. Luckily you don’t need to go anywhere because you can find so much information online and even watch travel programs. Maybe I will one day find my way to New Zealand. Maybe I should start saving then. Unless someone takes me there which I think is a bit far-fetched. If travelling was free, you would never see me again. At least that’s what a pin in Pinterest said. The way things are going in the world, the home will be the safest place.

Welcome to my kindom

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Welcome to my kingdom to my old and new followers. I almost have 500 followers on this blog. I never imagined I would even get any. But I guess patience is a virtue for a blog like this. Some followers have disappeared but I got new ones instead. So thank you for finding my blog. It’s still for writing down my thoughts and share my experiences. Even it got .blog on the end of the link, blogging will still remain as a hobby.

I found a post from August 2013 about 5 things I can’t live without. I did post before that too though. I was only testing the ice so to speak. It was only after my mother died in 2013 that I started to blog more in 2014. It’s been good therapy. It was actually The Daily Post (RIP), Zero to Hero challenge that I learned more about blogging. The updating the site is over but there’s still great tips there for any blogger who starting out. Just a free tip 😉 I learned there a lot.

This post is going to be my 855th post and that is a lot. It would take forever to read all of them. I don’t even remember what I’ve written. I rather look at the present and the future. I’m probably gonna repeat many times about the same things and that’s not because I’m over 40 and my memory starts to go. It’s more about the information I have in my head. There so much it spills over. It’s amazing how human brains work. We’re all like walking computers. If you don’t use your brain it will get lazy. It seems some people use their brains even less because of the smartphones. Luckily I don’t have one and I won’t fall for that trend. Unless I really, really have to.

So welcome to my kingdom. It’s been a long run so far. I hope you all enjoyed my blog so far. I just wanted to thank you all for finding this blog. I really appreciate it. This what blogging is about, sharing and caring. Greetings from a hot Finland and it doesn’t seem to stop for a while. This place really needs a cold shower (rain) but that’s wishful thinking even if the forecast says it will come. It better or it will be too tiring to do anything. That includes writing a new post to this blog.