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No rapid decisions found here

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speedometer from an old shipWhen it comes to life choices my decision making is nothing but rapid. As a matter of fact, it’s really slow. Quite dead slow actually. It sometimes bugs me. I wish I could make up my mind a bit faster. I’m not impulsive at all. I don’t know what I’ll do the end of the week little less what I’ll do in 5 years. I really admire those who got it all figured it out. They’ve come much further than me. I’m still waiting for my train when others have already taken different trains. Get out of your comfort zone people say but it’s not as easy as it sounds. It doesn’t happen overnight. I can’t suddenly become brave and do something. It takes a lot of time and effort. I’m an introvert after all.

It’s soon a year ago since I graduated from web design and nothing has happened. I still have no job. I went to that entrepreneurship course but now I have nothing. Of course, I have that graphic design course in the Autumn. But I should have something else too besides that. I’ve just been passive lately. I sleep late and then half of the day is gone. It doesn’t help that the weather is getting warmer which makes me even lazier. I’ve got so much else to do so I don’t have the time. Or things that are more enjoyable to do then job search. This is where this decision making is slow. To be an entrepreneur or not. First I had difficulties to know what I occupation I should have and now this. I’m not good at neither. I should have found out what I wanted to do years ago but everything seemed so uninteresting. Now when I do know what I want to do, getting started is the hardest thing.

What is the hurry anyway? Do I miss the train of opportunities and I’ll never get anywhere as long as I live? Life is short but it’s not that short that you have to do things this second. If you want things done properly, it’s better doing it slowly. I might be in the shadows right now but that’s only because I’m waiting for my time. That time will come and if doesn’t too bad. I can settle for less. I don’t need to live a glamorous life to feel good. I don’t even like that kind of attention. I don’t make any rapid decisions so the world just has to wait.

Nothing to flaunt about

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bright peacockMy life is pretty boring. I don’t really have nothing to flaunt about. I’m not a person who likes to brag anyway. It would be nice to have something to show but I got nothing special. Yesterday when I wrote about internet on One Line Sunday, it does have its disadvantages. People’s lives seem to be much more exciting than mine. I try not to get affected by it because it’s really their life and they’re all strangers to me. Besides, people who flaunt their lives on the internet probably need reassurance of their own existence. Some study says that kind of people isn’t really happy. If they were they would keep things to themselves. But since the internet was invented, people have had the urge to post anything online. I guess they want to have that 15 minutes of fame at least for once in their lifetime. Even if it’s just among friends and family. I got enough of attention at home so I don’t need to flaunt my things to a bunch strangers.

It’s a shame only people who flaunt and has a certain personality get more opportunities in life. Even in a job search. If you’re not that well-groomed and sociable, you’re a loser. Unless you’re a man, then you can look like hell and still have better chances. Maybe not if you look like a hobo though. The point is if you’re not presentable and outgoing, you get overlooked. You have to make yourself a brand. Being human isn’t enough it seems. Introverted and reserved isn’t really something to brag about since people see it as a negative thing. Those who are not afraid to market themselves get chosen for a job they’ve applied for. It’s not only about your skills, it’s about your personality too and if you fit into the companies images. In other words, job search sucks and it gets worse.

Recently I’ve bumped into blogs I usually don’t find. I was actually looking for something totally different. Bloggers who have either blogs about fashion, interior design or food blogs get attention. What they have in common is photos of the blogger. It seems you have to post photos of yourself online to get recognition. Those photos need to look professional too. Since when have ordinary people become models? Isn’t really important how a blogger looks like? There is no mystery left in these blogs. The blogs all look the same. Sure they got information to people who like that kind of stuff. But there are too much of the same subjects online. You have to flaunt about your presence and then one day sponsors will find you so you can keep on flaunting about your new found success. Or that’s what the motive for these blogs seems to be. I wish my blog would attract employers like that but this is the real world and it only happens in dreams.

At least I dare to be different. I refuse to follow the crowd. If I wanted to get paid to blog I would have chosen a different subject. Except that I don’t follow fashion, I don’t care how my home looks like, I eat what I want without getting overweight and I eat my cooking as soon it gets finished. That’s in a nutshell. Other people do it much better than me so I stick to what I know. I could flaunt with that I dare to be different but there is no point really. I know what I can and that’s what matters and not what others might think. Small circles are the best so that should be enough.

I am an introvert, therefore I observe

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Introversion is something that should be talked about over and over again. Many times people think I don’t observe but the truth is the other way around. It might look I’m not doing anything but I do notice my surroundings. If there are people around, I can hear what they are saying. When other people keep blabbing I observe. You can notice a lot of things by just listening. Even if I’m concentrated on something like writing, I still have my senses open. It’s like a secret weapon that fools everybody.

I might not talk a lot but I’m not hard of hearing. That goes for introverts in general. People think you don’t have anything in your head. It’s actually the opposite. There goes a lot. We just choose who we talk to. What’s the point talking about something you don’t have an opinion on? I hate the feeling when someone is expecting for you to say something.  Silence shouldn’t be awkward. What’s wrong being quiet anyway? If you’re a talkative person and the other is not, why don’t you say something instead of waiting for someone else to say something. You can’t force anyone to talk if they don’t have anything to say. I should try to say, blah blah when someone is expecting for me to say something. Or maybe make an annoying sound so they would rather be in silent. Because honestly I’m tired of people thinking I don’t talk much. I talk a lot if it’s a subject I like. You won’t be able to stop me. I only open up to people I know something about. I don’t talk to strangers. Only if I really have to.

If people would observe more, they could put themselves in someone else’s point of view. Now they just run around like headless chickens. Being a creative person, observing is my second nature. It gets better with age. More experience you get under your belt, more details you notice. You get a different perspective on life when you observe what is around you. It doesn’t matter if you’re extroverted or introverted. It takes realisation and experiencing things to be observent. This is what I observed and maybe one day someone else will too.